electro shock
Don Juan
Hey guys, my name's Wayne. I'm 20 years old and a 3rd year geology student in a honors science course at the University of Toronto at Mississauga. Since last year, I've spent some time with a girl at the university, also a third year science student, with whom I share a couple of classes.
Along with two other guys, me and the girl always studied and lunched together last year. We often took walks together, dinner at each other's homes and forays to local bars.
Anyway, so she's the most gorgeous, blazing girl you'd ever meet. I don't think I've ever been so in love in my life. I've been trying to tell her my feelings for almost a whole year now. It's not just that she's attractive... she's very active, goes to parties a lot, is outgoing, etc... both her attitude AND her body makes my heart melt.
Anyway, in the summer me and her planned a camping trip to Quebec together, where we were going to share a room. As you can probably guess, I was excited as heck - this was my chance. I was completely crushed, though, when she invited another student to accompany us, which sort of created a platonic overtone.
Us three did go to Quebec, though, but of course it was boring since we were in three. I was so pumped up that we were going to be alone, but as it ended up we barely talked during the trip.
Our relationship deteriorated recently and now since the new year has started in late august we still share a few classes but we rarely talk except to say hello once in a while.
Anyway, so Friday she asked me to help her on an assignment. While she was absent for a few moments, I flipped through her books to locate an equation and I found a letter she had written to a female friend. Curious after looking at the first paragraph, I took the letter without her knowledge and put it in my pocket so that I could read it at home that evening.
That day, Friday the 23rd of September... was the worst of my life. The letter contained a number of references to sexual activity, both actual and wished for, which completely blew my dreams away. I had been crazy about that girl for an entire year and then I just find out that she's ****ing some jerk and is in love with some stupid jocks. She was talking about how she was impressed with that moron's sexual experience or something. What crud.
As if that was not enough, there was this passage at the end of the letter, which I am quoting exactly:
When I read that, I think a part of me died. I was so hurt and angry that I cried for hours. I took a red marker and I circled the above quoted passage.
This weekend, I've done nothing but re-read that letter over and over again. I don't know what to do... I just can't control myself anymore. I'm so frustrated with everything... I just know that something horrible is about to happen. You guys have to understand what it means when you think about nothing but one particular girl for an entire year then you find out that she thinks of you as a "bunch of nothing."
I have a class with her tonight at 4. I don't know what's going to happen, but I'm afraid that I might do something stupid. I'm just so hurt right now... I just need to lash out at something. I've been punching walls all morning and honestly I don't know if I'm going to be able to get over it.
Please guys, help me! What can I do?
Along with two other guys, me and the girl always studied and lunched together last year. We often took walks together, dinner at each other's homes and forays to local bars.
Anyway, so she's the most gorgeous, blazing girl you'd ever meet. I don't think I've ever been so in love in my life. I've been trying to tell her my feelings for almost a whole year now. It's not just that she's attractive... she's very active, goes to parties a lot, is outgoing, etc... both her attitude AND her body makes my heart melt.
Anyway, in the summer me and her planned a camping trip to Quebec together, where we were going to share a room. As you can probably guess, I was excited as heck - this was my chance. I was completely crushed, though, when she invited another student to accompany us, which sort of created a platonic overtone.
Us three did go to Quebec, though, but of course it was boring since we were in three. I was so pumped up that we were going to be alone, but as it ended up we barely talked during the trip.
Our relationship deteriorated recently and now since the new year has started in late august we still share a few classes but we rarely talk except to say hello once in a while.
Anyway, so Friday she asked me to help her on an assignment. While she was absent for a few moments, I flipped through her books to locate an equation and I found a letter she had written to a female friend. Curious after looking at the first paragraph, I took the letter without her knowledge and put it in my pocket so that I could read it at home that evening.
That day, Friday the 23rd of September... was the worst of my life. The letter contained a number of references to sexual activity, both actual and wished for, which completely blew my dreams away. I had been crazy about that girl for an entire year and then I just find out that she's ****ing some jerk and is in love with some stupid jocks. She was talking about how she was impressed with that moron's sexual experience or something. What crud.
As if that was not enough, there was this passage at the end of the letter, which I am quoting exactly:
Those are her exact words, and yes she did put two "s" on "nothingss."And for some reason all the guys I know want to go out with me and not be just friends any more so I can't talk to them. I don't want to go out with them and they know it so there is static in the air which is why I want to leave. Hell I can insult Wayne and Rick and they still bug me in class. I want to be alone or with just one good guy, not with a bunch of nothingss.
When I read that, I think a part of me died. I was so hurt and angry that I cried for hours. I took a red marker and I circled the above quoted passage.
This weekend, I've done nothing but re-read that letter over and over again. I don't know what to do... I just can't control myself anymore. I'm so frustrated with everything... I just know that something horrible is about to happen. You guys have to understand what it means when you think about nothing but one particular girl for an entire year then you find out that she thinks of you as a "bunch of nothing."
I have a class with her tonight at 4. I don't know what's going to happen, but I'm afraid that I might do something stupid. I'm just so hurt right now... I just need to lash out at something. I've been punching walls all morning and honestly I don't know if I'm going to be able to get over it.
Please guys, help me! What can I do?