Bagheera
Don Juan
I've been reading a bit of the bibles and posts, and am hoping to start new. (I joined back in '01)
I'm ready to enter this site and learn what I need to learn.
Since I have posted this... if I may, post a major problem I have.
(Let's save some forum space)
I am 16, and moved to a new city.
The problem is that I am socially challenged. The past 2 or 3 years, I've someone indulged myself into computer gaming/tv watching after coming home from school. My schedule would be I came home from school, did my homework (sometimes half-assed) and rushed to play my online multiplayer game. It was so sad, that I played until 10 - 11 pm, until I was ready to start a new day.
Mind you, just because I played did not mean I had fun! I had social problems at school for at least 1-2 years. I've had maybe 1 friend last year, and a few aquaintances, but nothing like the typical 50 friend circle.
Anyways...
In this new town Ive left the past behind, school has started and I'd like to make a name for myself here. The problem is, I am still socially disabled.
At school I always am self-conscious. You WOULDN'T believe it! I worry about what girls think of my pants, my shirt, my face, my voice, I even worry what guys think about me (IE: cool/uncool etc...
Now when I try to tell myself, "Don't think about it", it just makes it worse. Such as when I say:
Do NOT think about a Zebra
You just thought of it, see?
I worry about my smell, my breath, extremely too much. I'd say it's not normal.
Now I came here to improve myself (and get maybe some p*ssy) but maybe that's a good sign that I came here for about 90% myself and maybe 10% for women.
I have a freaking inner passion for soccer. When I was 6 - 10 I played it everyday, I loved it! After I stoped, I don't like any sports. On my way to school at lunch, I don't have the balls to ask if I can play soccer with them. (I am extremely self-consious -- otherwise put 'shy')
I just would first like to learn how to just DO IT! like many people said.
I fidget at school. When I walk to school (on the street) I keep telling myself to put my head up straight or I might look 'unconfident' but then I tell myself, to look in other directions or Ill look like some stuck up f*cking ass.
I came here for help, some constructive criticism, and to make myself a guy that does not care what others thing.
You don't know how much Id LOVE to have that mindset.
I just need some inspiration/examples - because I am more socially handicapped than most people. Mind you I AM reading posts, and am going to start trying.
Weird though - things like when people say "Hug that girl" or "Smile at People" when I read it, it makes me want to go do it, when I leave for school the next day (or maybe when I leave in a couple minutes) but when I step out the door, and see the first person, all of that just FLIES out of me...
I am truly a FRUSTRATED ............... c .. ch... guy.
I come here for help, for myself, not women but me.
Thanks for reading, I hope someday I will become the person I dream to be.
*Note - one more thing - This is the reason I am not good at making friends. I'm not an *******, I just haven't developed these social skills/habits. Although Ive met a few (5 - 7) decent people at skill, which don't seem to be ****y/friendly cool people.
I'm afraid though that if I try to impress these people too much, they may think Im desperate or something...
Not to be going over the edge, but I sometimes TRY, otherwise if I don't try, they'll think I don't give 1 sh*t about them, and then blow me off...
Alright, thanks again.
I'm ready to enter this site and learn what I need to learn.
Since I have posted this... if I may, post a major problem I have.
(Let's save some forum space)
I am 16, and moved to a new city.
The problem is that I am socially challenged. The past 2 or 3 years, I've someone indulged myself into computer gaming/tv watching after coming home from school. My schedule would be I came home from school, did my homework (sometimes half-assed) and rushed to play my online multiplayer game. It was so sad, that I played until 10 - 11 pm, until I was ready to start a new day.
Mind you, just because I played did not mean I had fun! I had social problems at school for at least 1-2 years. I've had maybe 1 friend last year, and a few aquaintances, but nothing like the typical 50 friend circle.
Anyways...
In this new town Ive left the past behind, school has started and I'd like to make a name for myself here. The problem is, I am still socially disabled.
At school I always am self-conscious. You WOULDN'T believe it! I worry about what girls think of my pants, my shirt, my face, my voice, I even worry what guys think about me (IE: cool/uncool etc...
Now when I try to tell myself, "Don't think about it", it just makes it worse. Such as when I say:
Do NOT think about a Zebra
You just thought of it, see?
I worry about my smell, my breath, extremely too much. I'd say it's not normal.
Now I came here to improve myself (and get maybe some p*ssy) but maybe that's a good sign that I came here for about 90% myself and maybe 10% for women.
I have a freaking inner passion for soccer. When I was 6 - 10 I played it everyday, I loved it! After I stoped, I don't like any sports. On my way to school at lunch, I don't have the balls to ask if I can play soccer with them. (I am extremely self-consious -- otherwise put 'shy')
I just would first like to learn how to just DO IT! like many people said.
I fidget at school. When I walk to school (on the street) I keep telling myself to put my head up straight or I might look 'unconfident' but then I tell myself, to look in other directions or Ill look like some stuck up f*cking ass.
I came here for help, some constructive criticism, and to make myself a guy that does not care what others thing.
You don't know how much Id LOVE to have that mindset.
I just need some inspiration/examples - because I am more socially handicapped than most people. Mind you I AM reading posts, and am going to start trying.
Weird though - things like when people say "Hug that girl" or "Smile at People" when I read it, it makes me want to go do it, when I leave for school the next day (or maybe when I leave in a couple minutes) but when I step out the door, and see the first person, all of that just FLIES out of me...
I am truly a FRUSTRATED ............... c .. ch... guy.
I come here for help, for myself, not women but me.
Thanks for reading, I hope someday I will become the person I dream to be.
*Note - one more thing - This is the reason I am not good at making friends. I'm not an *******, I just haven't developed these social skills/habits. Although Ive met a few (5 - 7) decent people at skill, which don't seem to be ****y/friendly cool people.
I'm afraid though that if I try to impress these people too much, they may think Im desperate or something...
Not to be going over the edge, but I sometimes TRY, otherwise if I don't try, they'll think I don't give 1 sh*t about them, and then blow me off...
Alright, thanks again.
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