Jariel said:
I've been trying to do this, thinking it will help me put my ex behind me, but every time I get close I just feel this depression come over me and I have to stop.
Just last week I was lying on top of a hot 23 year old, her t1ts were out, we were grinding against each other and I was rock hard and ready for action, but then I had to stop because I felt so miserable.
I have all these opportunities and attractive women throwing themselves at me, but I'm finding it so difficult to move on.
Did you ever feel this way during any of your encounters?
Jariel mate!
To answer your question, I'll be as sincere as I can be. I'm going to be more sincere than I am with my sister and my best friend about "moving on" from my ex. And I'm doing so, because we, you and I, are on this journey together mate, and for more time than we both expected!
Man, I am NOT over my ex!
That's it! That is it! Plain and simple... I still feel depressed, I still feel lonely, I still feel miserable, I hate every single f*cking morning, because every morning I wake, is a morning I wake to realise that this sh*t ain't a nightmare.
And most specially, I still miss the b*tch! God f*cking damn it, I miss that hore!
But, and as all speeches this one also has a but, I have conciously decided that
I HAVE TO MOVE ON! I have to let it go! I have to live my own life, without her! There is no other option!!! There is no alternative!
THE ONLY THING I CAN DO IS LIVE WITHOUT HER! AND LEARN TO LIVE WITHOUT HER!
I feel your pain bro, because I also wanted her to come back and tell me she is sorry! Tell me that she made a mistake, and that she is deeply sorry for all the sh*t she put me through...
But guess what?! She ain't!! She is out there, living her life I don't know. I have not heard from her ever since I sent that stupid letter. The time where she answered me that her silence was not indifference, it was commotion! That was in October man. She is "emotionally silent" for almost four months now, 'cause my letter was "incredibly touching"...
...
My ass!
SHe is silent because there is too much c0ck on her mouth for her to speak a word!
What I'm meaning to tell you is that you still haven't decided to move on mate! You still think foundly of your ex! You want to pose as if you don't have any resentment towards her, as if you are actually not f*cking pissed that she dumped you and is now living happly(?) without you!
You say there ain't no hard feelings, because deep down, you don't want to move on, you want to keep that image of her on your mind, for if, and I refrain IF, one day she returns, you can play as if nothing happened, it is all cool, and you can have a normal conversation with her, where you will both be laughing over ice cream and you eventually lead her to bed and fullfill this
IDIOTIC dream. You don't want to believe that she was in fact mean. An
EVIL F*CKING PERSON! I don't know if she is into charity, or if she loves puppies, or her kids or nephews. She was
F*CKING MEAN TO YOU. And that is what matters.
She is evil, and so she should f*ck herself. F*ck the universe. F*ck good vibes, and any positive energy you send when you think about her! F*ck all that...
There is hard feelings! You do resent her! You are f*cking pissed with all this cräp! F*ck her happiness mate! Embrace this sh*t! Embrace the anger man! Hate her whenever you think about her! Don't do the opposite! Don't believe she is actually good! By doing so you will never be able to move on! And I'm not saying that you will ever 100% fully move on...
...I'm saying that this will be a scar! And not the cool wicked ones! It is a nasty scar you have from that appendix surgery! You don't like it, it hurts sometimes and it will be forever there! You just deal with it because wasn't for that scar, you would have died! The appendix would have bursted, and you would die by being engulfed by a huge ammount of sh*t! More sh*t that you are able to handle!
So thankfully, all you got is this stupid scar!
But you have to move on. You have to LEARN to dislike her. And do so remebering that she was disrespectfull towards your most trully and good intentions. When you could have given anything to her!
So if and when that above time comes, when she reaches you, you know that she will in fact will poison any recovery you have done, and if you decide to answer the phone, or reply the text message, or say anything to her as you bump her in the streets it should only be:
"Thanks I'm good, kind of in a rush, have a good one!"
That is it!
I told you all that because
I wish I could have that Ice Cream and then f*ck her! But IF that sh*t happens, it would only fulfill her evil f*king intention and then she would
DROP OF THE FACE OF THE EARTH!! AGAIN!
So yes, I miss her! But I rather walk alone. And I'm learning to walk again!
I'm not loving any of this chicks I'm banging. But I have loved none before my ex anyway. I don't need to love in order to f*ck, and so don't you!
The realisation I had by f*cking the 7th chick was:
Püssy is Püssy. They are all smelly! They are all hot! They are all wet! This Püssy was not different from any of the previous Püssies,
EX Included!!
All you have to learn is to detach YOUR Happiness from THAT PÜSSY!!
Peace Bro!
