Just call me AFC!! Cause it seems like that's who I am!
FACTS:
-I had sex w/ my GF 3 times last night
-I am in love and wish to say it
-NO, I don't give a fvck what consequences that may bring!
-I actually think that would help end the relationship, but I can't hold it anymore
-I know I should chill now, but I feel such urge to yell I love her from the top of my lungs
Since I read the bible, girls literally stick to me like glue. I still get 10 love letters a month from the last time I was in my home town.. And I can't get why the world is soooo fvcked up that now, when I'm really in love, I can't get her to chase me as if I was the Prize, the Challenge, the last real man on earth! Cause that's all I read in my fan-mail. From girls I don't give a fvck for!
This just ain't fair. I think this is mother nature's way of making me pay for all the broken hearts I left behind..
I'm in much pain bacause of what I learned through out the process of becoming a DJ - many times I'm acting in conflict with my emotions just to accomplish a goal.
I don't beleive in "ends justify the means" I'm more of a "travelling is about the journey, not the destination" guy. My goal is to find meself a girl to love and be luved by, nothing else. Bvt I beggining to think that when you are in a relationship, things tend to get out of your control. I actually feel like I can't influence the relationship anymore.
So far, I found no reassuring advice on LTR on SS - and am losing hope I will. So I guess it's true that it's a DJ's goal to GET not to KEEP. I'm just plain dissapointed..
AAAARRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!
FACTS:
-I had sex w/ my GF 3 times last night
-I am in love and wish to say it
-NO, I don't give a fvck what consequences that may bring!
-I actually think that would help end the relationship, but I can't hold it anymore
-I know I should chill now, but I feel such urge to yell I love her from the top of my lungs
Since I read the bible, girls literally stick to me like glue. I still get 10 love letters a month from the last time I was in my home town.. And I can't get why the world is soooo fvcked up that now, when I'm really in love, I can't get her to chase me as if I was the Prize, the Challenge, the last real man on earth! Cause that's all I read in my fan-mail. From girls I don't give a fvck for!
This just ain't fair. I think this is mother nature's way of making me pay for all the broken hearts I left behind..
I'm in much pain bacause of what I learned through out the process of becoming a DJ - many times I'm acting in conflict with my emotions just to accomplish a goal.
I don't beleive in "ends justify the means" I'm more of a "travelling is about the journey, not the destination" guy. My goal is to find meself a girl to love and be luved by, nothing else. Bvt I beggining to think that when you are in a relationship, things tend to get out of your control. I actually feel like I can't influence the relationship anymore.
So far, I found no reassuring advice on LTR on SS - and am losing hope I will. So I guess it's true that it's a DJ's goal to GET not to KEEP. I'm just plain dissapointed..
AAAARRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!