Forget women, I want the best ME I can get. My mission statement.

Don Corleone

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I am not happy with myself. I know that I am not the best I can be. Now, don't get me wrong. This isn't another I hate my life thread. This is a mission statement, being written by someone who has finally allowed himself to be completely honest with himself.

I am not happy with myself...but I know I can be. The stats: I am 6'3, 215, short dark hair, and am unsatisfied with myself. I have read through posts and posts, tip upon tip, and have even given other guys advice. In theory, I am an expert in the dating world. I never make a mistake....In theory. In reality, I get nervous even glancing at beautiful women.

Everyone on here, wether they know it in reality or not, preaches confidence. When I walk out my door, I am as confident as can be. The moment my foot hits the pavement, I am a scared little boy, hoping I might get lucky with a cute looking girl. Not even a hot girl, I would SETTLE with a cute girl.

My history- In elementary school, I was thin. I was ruggedly handsome, and possibly the most popular guy in my school. I dated the hottest girls, and whenever an opportunity arose, I would cast them aside, for an even hotter one. Now, you might be asking yourself why I can call these other kids hot. Well, in my memory they were my peers, and I thought of them this way.

Middle school was a different story. Between elementary and middle school I got chunky. Real chunky. For some reason, something changed in me. I was no longer the arrogant player I used to be. More importantly, I was no longer happy with myself. I was now looking to others for my happiness. I needed approval.

Entering high school, I didn't really try with girls. They were just something fun to look at. I had zero confidence, and would just kind of hope and wish something would come my way. Sophomore year I played on the basketball team and lost a lot of weight. My face thinned out and I picked up a little confidence

I got a job during my junior year in high school where I met an extremely hot college girl, who I obviously had no chance with. I gave her the cold shoulder, as there was no chance in hell she would like me. A few months after meeting her, somehow, we went out on a date. Apparantly she had liked me all along. We dated for about 6 months, and she took my Virginity.

Now, I had dates and minor flings all throughout high school but just a couple of girls are actually memorable, and to say the least hot.

Six months after her I met up with a nice girl who I hadn't seen in years. She was extremely beautiful, and a cheerleader for my school. Needless to say, she is the girl that lead me here. The one. At first, I played things cool, and she was hooked. A little later I turned into possibly the biggest AFC the world has ever seen, and have been on a mission ever since.

Right now you might be asking yourself why I just gave you my life story in a nutshell. Well, this is the backround for the direction my life will be taking from this point on. For the last year or so, ever since I was screwed over by this girl, I have been sort of searching my soul. I realized that I wanted greatness in my life. I worked out for a few months, and even got laid a few times.

I was still not happy. I wanted more out of my life. I WANT PERFECTION. I want to be the guy that people look at....screw that... I want to be the best guy I can be, forget other people. I want to wake up in the morning, suck in the fresh air that the lord has provided for me and be genuinely happy to be me. No regrets, no worries...just me.

Right now I can think of countless things about myself I am unhappy about:
I have a pudgy stomach, no defenition.
My skin complection is unclear.
I have a weak voice, and am unsure of myself.
My arms, having once been rock hard, are now flacid and weak.

If I list the unhappy things, I have to, in turn, list the good things.
I drive a Lexus.
I am tall, dark, and could, with work...be handsome.
I dress moderately well, though could dress better.
I just passed my first year of college with decent, if not good grades.
I have friends, lots of them, some are very good looking girls.

THE BEST I CAN BE: No less
I want to wake up, look in the mirror and see a nice tone body.
I want to wake up, enjoy a steaming hot shower, and get dressed. I want to go out into the world knowing that I am doing the best I can for myself. No laziness, no cutting corners. Im making the most of my life.

When it comes to women, I don't want the cheesy lines, or the player attitude. I want to be a magnet for all people, all sexes, all ages. Someone with the aura of importance. I want a woman to stand next to me, and compliment me and my personality.

I know that I cannot even get the confidence to approach women without being the best I can be. The way I look at it; If I'm not good enough for myself, then why should I expect to be good enough for another. Doesn't she deserve someone happy with themself? I am different. Some are happy living a medeocre life. I will only be happy with perfection from myself.

My mission. Forget women, forget it all. I want to be my best. The very best person, man, brother, uncle, son, companion I can be. No more bullsh!t. This is it. I have tried to turn a corner in my life before, but I always fall back to my pitiful ways. Not this time.

If it takes me 5 mission statements like this, so be it. Until my life is where I want it to be, I won't be happy. Until I am happy with myself, I wont be happy with any other person...especially a woman. So to all of you students in the art of seduction out there, I can only tell you what I have learned about myself over the last year on SoSuave, which is...be happy with yourself. Be your best. If you base your happiness on yourself, then you can only let yourself down. Don't put your happiness into the hands of another person, let alone a woman. If you are your best, then with or without a woman you will be happy just waking up in the morning, knowing your doing the absolute best you can.

I look forward to letting you guys know how I am doing changing my life. Good luck to each and every one of you.
 

Aengus

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I really like your attitude -- I think you've totally hit the nail on the head as to how to become a DJ-- its all about *you* and your reality. Good luck and keep posting--- budding DJ have to stick together.
 

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Your post really inspired me and it may take weeks, months even a few years to reach whatever to reach the end of your journey of discovery and the actualization of our truest potentials. Life is a gift, and it offers us the privilege, opportunity, and responsibility to give something back by becoming more. So go and take your god given right and do it man.
 
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