Long post ahead. Sorry if you're reading this I just need to get it out somewhere.
So I moved to a new hospital to do a 2 month posting (I'm a doctor) where I had absolutely no friends. There I met this pharmacist girl who lived across the hall. She looked pretty ordinary but was quite funny and pretty fun at times. So we started hanging out (dinners, movies etc.) and I found out she had a boyfriend of 3 years living about 4.5 hours away. Long story short, about 3 weeks in, we ended up sleeping together and again the week after. This was when I started falling for her.
Then she broke up with her bf and before I realised we started spending loads of time together and pretty much acted like a couple, going on trips etc except we weren't a couple.
Now my posting was up and I moved back to where I was before just 2 weeks ago but we continued doing the same things as before. Last weekend, she told me she was going to visit her ex to celebrate his birthday (she says they are still very close friends) which was fine by me but she ended up staying there for 4 days (she's on a 2 week study leave).
She came back 2 days ago and I asked her if she wanted to do something this weekend (I rarely get much time off due to the nature of my work) but she said she was really spent and broke from the trip and wanted to stay home for a couple of days. Today, she told me she's going to visit her ex again tomorrow and I stupidly asked how long and it turns out she only bought a one way ticket, basically meaning she's staying there for at least a week. The ticket cost $130. So much for being broke!
Now I know we're both single and we should be able to do what we want. I also know the answer to what I should do is obvious. I'm not the best looking guy in the world but I know I'm not a total train wreck either and my career and life is in relatively good order. It's just that I feel a bit **** because I've spent so much time and effort on someone who I now think is just stringing me along but much as I want to just cut this off, I'm finding it really hard to and I have no idea why. :kick:
Sorry for the massive post. If you're still reading this, thanks.
So I moved to a new hospital to do a 2 month posting (I'm a doctor) where I had absolutely no friends. There I met this pharmacist girl who lived across the hall. She looked pretty ordinary but was quite funny and pretty fun at times. So we started hanging out (dinners, movies etc.) and I found out she had a boyfriend of 3 years living about 4.5 hours away. Long story short, about 3 weeks in, we ended up sleeping together and again the week after. This was when I started falling for her.
Then she broke up with her bf and before I realised we started spending loads of time together and pretty much acted like a couple, going on trips etc except we weren't a couple.
Now my posting was up and I moved back to where I was before just 2 weeks ago but we continued doing the same things as before. Last weekend, she told me she was going to visit her ex to celebrate his birthday (she says they are still very close friends) which was fine by me but she ended up staying there for 4 days (she's on a 2 week study leave).
She came back 2 days ago and I asked her if she wanted to do something this weekend (I rarely get much time off due to the nature of my work) but she said she was really spent and broke from the trip and wanted to stay home for a couple of days. Today, she told me she's going to visit her ex again tomorrow and I stupidly asked how long and it turns out she only bought a one way ticket, basically meaning she's staying there for at least a week. The ticket cost $130. So much for being broke!
Now I know we're both single and we should be able to do what we want. I also know the answer to what I should do is obvious. I'm not the best looking guy in the world but I know I'm not a total train wreck either and my career and life is in relatively good order. It's just that I feel a bit **** because I've spent so much time and effort on someone who I now think is just stringing me along but much as I want to just cut this off, I'm finding it really hard to and I have no idea why. :kick:
Sorry for the massive post. If you're still reading this, thanks.
