Exactly.Rollo Tomassi said:So you're upset about a promise you made your adolescent self at 15?
Do you think maybe you can understand what your Dad was experiencing when he did what he did? Do you think maybe there was more going on in his situation at that time than you were aware of?
Crissco, you have some daddy issues and you're taking your 15 y.o self too seriously. I had some similar issues with my dad, and one day (not very long ago) I invited him over for a week and we talked about everything. Turned out that what I had in my head at that age was not even close to the truth, and the things I thought were absolutely unacceptable back then have become very different now with my own maturity and experiences. My dad and I have never got along better than now, and I feel my maturity and confidence have taken a major boost.
25 is way too young to have an exclusive GF in this modern world, especially in New York! Short term exclusive with an expiry date if you're hungry for relationship lovey dovey, sure, but you are throwing away time and freedom that one day you will wish you could have back.
Also, really think about why you want a "challenge" from a woman. I bet that is something programmed into your head by what Rollo would call the Feminine Imperative. I'm not sure what you're doing with your life at the age of 25, but I'm 5 years older and have more than enough challenges in my life that I definitely do not want some woman to challenge me all the fvcking time when I need to wind down. However, when I was younger, my thinking was very similar because that's what I learned (not intentionally, but it got stuck over time) from blue-pill people around me, and our beloved media...