Downman1's journal

[Downman1]

Hey everybody i thought that this would be a good idea to make a journal of what i do every couple days to show my progress.last year at this time i had never been to a drinking party, i was lonely and desperate and certainty spent more time on the sims than anyone else. I'm also a late bloomer . my dad is really busy and is an engineer and kind of angry all the time. So i haven't got much instruction on how to be a man. I went to college and my life changed for the better i then had friends who i count count on. and also had friends who are girls for the first time. I have had many drunk conversations with them about how i didn't have a girlfriend and how i was still a virgin. They replied by saying that it was good that i was sweet and kind. however this is not what i wanted to hear. i know realize that they were lying totally. Their boyfriends are confident and rugby players. which are also my friends. I've asked girls out before but all I've sabotaged in some way. I am a 19 y.o.virgin still. my mom is crazy and she is the reason I'm so afraid of women but I'm here to change that. if you want to respond to my journal thats cool. Don't call me a ***** or a ****ing liar because I've read a lot on the game. Don't try and sell me the mystery method because i hate it.
this is my favorite podcast called the innergame you can get it on itunes
http://www.schoolofdating.com/


7-20-08 yesterday i made eye contact with every woman i saw even in my car one hot chick on a bike .i also went to the mall and did the same.I also have been getting more appealing threads.i got this sick shirt at the mall that is a button down. If you roll the selves up it's a classy look. I'm doing the dj boot camp but I'm taking my time on the first week. i read everything but i still have to say 50 hi's.
i also did a post today on a book i found at my library called How to make love to a womanby Michael Morgenstern http://www.sosuave.net/forum/showthread.php?t=148217:up:

 

[daygameguy]

Hey everybody i thought that this would be a good idea to make a journal of what i do every couple days to show my progress.last year at this time i had never been to a drinking party, i was lonely and desperate and certainty spent more time on the sims than anyone else. I'm also a late bloomer . my dad is really busy and is an engineer and kind of angry all the time. So i haven't got much instruction on how to be a man. I went to college and my life changed for the better i then had friends who i count count on. and also had friends who are girls for the first time. I have had many drunk conversations with them about how i didn't have a girlfriend and how i was still a virgin. They replied by saying that it was good that i was sweet and kind. however this is not what i wanted to hear. i know realize that they were lying totally. Their boyfriends are confident and rugby players. which are also my friends. I've asked girls out before but all I've sabotaged in some way. I am a 19 y.o.virgin still. my mom is crazy and she is the reason I'm so afraid of women but I'm here to change that. if you want to respond to my journal thats cool. Don't call me a ***** or a ****ing liar because I've read a lot on the game. Don't try and sell me the mystery method because i hate it.
this is my favorite podcast called the innergame you can get it on itunes
http://www.schoolofdating.com/


7-20-08 yesterday i made eye contact with every woman i saw even in my car one hot chick on a bike .i also went to the mall and did the same.I also have been getting more appealing threads.i got this sick shirt at the mall that is a button down. If you roll the selves up it's a classy look. I'm doing the dj boot camp but I'm taking my time on the first week. i read everything but i still have to say 50 hi's.
i also did a post today on a book i found at my library called How to make love to a womanby Michael Morgenstern http://www.sosuave.net/forum/showthread.php?t=148217:up:

Firstly, don't do this to post threads.
Secondly, take it one step at a time. Don't overload yourself with information.
Finally, have a vision of what you ultimately want out of this game, and what kind of life and girl would make you happy and feeling good/satisfied.

PS: There is nothing wrong with MM. You don't have to follow it but don't openly criticize it.

 

[Downman1]

hey I'm not i don't give a fOck about posting threads or getting leveled up or anything i just want help when i need it

 

[macallik]

good luck man. Being a 19 year old virgin is not really as big of a deal as you make it out to be but if you want to get laid, staying dedicated to your journal will definitely help. I'll post feedback when i can.

 

[Downman1]

7-21-08 today i had a conversation with a girl from a different department where i work. she is in a different building and she came over to use our binding machines i talked to her about work and stuff. but this was a change from the normal i had no idea who she was but i still was able to be confident when talking to her. She had this tank top on and her boobs looked nice. then later that day when i went over to her building she gave me a smile when i needed a document from the secretary.
a side note im jerking off less to try and motivate myself to get some ass i read it soem where on a different old post
also i cut myself when shaving my pubes haha ouch.:cuss:

 

[Downman1]

7-23-08 today i went to work and not much happened i said hi to only one person who i didn't know. then a 9 shows up and starts walking around as i'm putting books away i gave her a smile, but i was so nervous. i now know that to get a 9 i have a ways to go. But i did smile and she gave me a smile back and acted confident even though i was afraid she passed my view a couple of times. But i didn't say hi. the library has a lot of chicks in it. And more importantly absolutely no competition FYI.

 

[Downman1]

8-8-08

Yea soo i havent been doing journal entries but i have been working on my confidence with women. i said hi to a 9 and my headphones got caught on something and i said woops and then she laughed and said your head phones got caught. this is a chick from high school who has never talked to me in my life 2points.

But today that chick i was talking about in the post before she was at my friends house and i sat next to her and we talked about the opening ceremonies. I think that we are friends now but next time i see her i'm gonna ask her out to coffiee. it kind of needs to be soon because i leave the 30th Idk don't want a long distance thing but i'll give her a shot. she likes cooking and is realy is good at art.
While i was talking to her i felt like such a beast because she was apoligising for all this stuff but really i think she was a little nervous. I played it so cool thought. I'm so glad i dressed a little nicer than normal.

 

[Downman1]

8-23-08

today sucked all my friends Are away and i can't wait to go back to school with all that i have learned Freshmeat... my town has the official this town sucks stamp on it :box: . DUDE i;m iam at a verry low right now because i haven't talked to m friends in like a week also my friend christian is ignoring me it too late to make new friends and its too late to find old ones **** me side ways. i wanna smack someone. And my mom is being a Beoch do this and do that **** her and my dad too i hate it. I have to make it through 7 days:box: :cuss: so anayways i'm made a little progress with conversations with people i had two at work with older people. I just did talk to people my age **** and i have to stop saying ah well to my self i just have to go for it. I'm a lot different then i used to be i;m going to learn how to say No to people. :trouble:

 

[Downman1]

8-24-08

so I took out my anger on my heavy bag yesterday so i'm ok now. Today i went to the mall got new shoes, Btws according to the Russel Smith book on style Shoes are the most important thing a guy can use. Shoes define how much you make a year and how well you will do and how much you care about your self, In turn how much you car about a chick. I bought some fly Nikes. Anyways i went to the mall and had 5-8 successful eye contacts. I even had a chick stare at me and check me out from behind AAAWESOME . i caught her in a store window and looked back. And she did one of those thongs where you look away and up. it was funny. I also had chicks after they looked at my face check out my shoes. i also went to the grocery and had a convo about these portable scanners in the store with a woman. kinda cool. I haven't been in the game so it all came back to me when i started in the mall i have to do my fifty hi's a goal before school in 6 days- 1dayt for packing-3day to hang out so in the next 2 days 50 hi's, 25 a day I CAN DO IT YEA HELL YEA YEA :box:

I got to stop spending so much at the mall so I'm not going to bring my creditcard tomorrow


Any words of encorangement are appreciated

 

[Downman1]

8-24-08 part2

Just to add on to this post I keep thinking that when i get to school girls will treat me differently but really i need to work on my game because i've been working on my self this summer. I'm going to work really hard and not focus on A chick who flirts with me a little them we become friends, I will Not Have another Bridget Fock. I have to build trust then flirt but not too much trust because that's friend zone.. IM GOING TO TAKE MORE CHANCES!!!!!I HAVE STOPPED GIVING A **** WHAT OTHERS THINK OF ME SO **** THEM ALL . I DON'T WANT TO BE A VIRGIN ANYMORE I do However have access to freshmen now whohoo>>>.

 

[Igetit!]

What did you mean by,"girls treat you differently"? How are they treating you now?

 

[Downman1]

where?

 

[Igetit!]

Just to add on to this post I keep thinking that when i get to school girls will treat me differently but really i need to work on my game because i've been working on my self this summer. I'm going to work really hard and not focus on A chick who flirts with me a little them we become friends, I will Not Have another Bridget Fock. I have to build trust then flirt but not too much trust because that's friend zone.. IM GOING TO TAKE MORE CHANCES!!!!!I HAVE STOPPED GIVING A **** WHAT OTHERS THINK OF ME SO **** THEM ALL . I DON'T WANT TO BE A VIRGIN ANYMORE I do However have access to freshmen now whohoo>>>.

Here. What did you mean by this?

 

[Downman1]

well before i was "nice guy" all they had to do to get me to do somthing was ask and i didn't get anything in return they were just friends too because i was this wimpy one girlerized guy who liked a chick who had a boyfriend ...Bridget or should i say *****et who didn't like me at all. She got fat as the year went on too and i still wanted her. There were so many options that i missed because of her. And she was a tease too. but now Im saying no to them and doing what i want to do having them do stuff for me

 

[Downman1]

You only have one life and tomarow is not gerenteed so grab your balls and take ****ing chances

 

[Igetit!]

Well,it's good to see that you have grown a little in self-respect and self-esteem. I've been there before,and yes,it definately sucks. You do everything you can think of to make a girl like you,and because she continues to talk to you and continues to communicate with you,you think that maybe,just maybe she does like you. When in reality,it's not you she likes,it's the attention. Then the next thing you know,the whole time you've been fawning over this girl,she has already been dating some other guy for the last two years. Good luck man,and keep us informed of your progress.

 

[Downman1]

8-25-08

Yea so today i pulled out the Bike and went for a spin on the bike path. So i pulled my shirt off. Someone said that when you get naked you feel more confident in your body. I wore shorts... but i think it helped. i went down the street in another town and 5 chicks checked me out. WABAMF I said hi to 2 of them. So you know about the 50 hi's in two days Not going to happen I might get like fifteen in the time i go back to school. yea so i feel great also. I'm telling you they check out your shoes inoticed a hot chick looking at my feet My new fly nikes and she took of her sunglasses and smiled at me.

My friend's sister asked about paying for dates and i told her that first date guy pays and after that it depends i also said that after a while out can go dutch Pay for your own. This guy asked out her friend and didn't pay for a movie that she asked him to she payed for everything. Guy's kinda stupid but whatever. I like the chick so i said he was at fault.

A word to Guys going to college. Girls like cookies. But Don't be just the new guy friend One thing i learned is that you build trust then you flirt Too much trust and ****ing The chick is your Bff for like a month Don't get swepped up in one chick I spent a hole year trying to get one chick Previously menchoned Brideget.
Eveybosy farts if you fart aalot get Gasex strips for dates and such.

 

[Downman1]

9-4-08

Yea so i To back to school and im living in a single In a pretty ****ty house but i have a good room. Dude I'm hot though. chicks are checking me out left and right. So last Saturday i met a bunch of chicks one group of 3 freshmen which was good. But then this chick is checking me out and i go up to her and i call her a freshmen when she was in my grade she got pissed and kind of turned away i didn't care she looked like a ***** anyways. Yesterday i watched a movie with two chicks freshmen and two other guys. They're transfers. One of them is a player and i kind of want to learn from him. im working out this year im doing abs at night and chest pulses i need to do some weights though. I have a pull up bar in my building. This is going to be a good year. im not really looking for sluts but i kind of want a gf. Not to hard to find because like 4 chicks just worships me but like only one of them is semi hot. The old Down man is not around, the new one isn't perfect but im working at it. :rockon: I do need to talk to more chicks at parties and such.

 

[Downman1]

the other thing is that im not really afraid of women anymore. I don't really like being touched, British side of me, I need to work on that. Im not really doing the dj bible very much im kind of taking the parts i need. Im kind of like a luther of djs.

 

[Downman1]

9-11-08

this weekend I got plastered and i blacked out. Almost beat the **** out of some kid. the night previous i was drunk and this other guy, Better Dj then i'll ever be was hitting on my friends girlfriend. So i told her not to have sex with him. She took it the wrong way. And he was also flirting with my other friend. so i told her the same thing and she thought i was calling her a slut. If you guys are looking for a realtonship and not just one nightstands, girls are easily offended and all you have to do is apoligise. But my friends Gf was reasonable and forgave me on the spot. Thats what makes her cool, But however this other chick i found out was crazy. She cried all night because she wanted attension. And still wanted more then an apoligy so i said to my self screw her. Shes not very good looking and she's kind of a ***** exibit A . I think i learned a valuable lesson though. Chicks have been frustrated at me but i have never made a girl cry over what i said. In that moment when i found out she was crying i think I realized that there is a difference between women and us. And this is going to sound corny but i became a man:box: Like i told my friend "i shouldn't have to deal with this I'm a Man And i have a penis." And i'm not going to be an ###hole but can't watch what i'm going to say i'm a man. Until now i think thats what makes the difference between a girl friend and what i want a girlfriend. Weather or not they see you as a man or a girl who has a penis. This weekend had to happen and i'm kind of glad it did have a good weekend Djs and im not going to say this but Don't watch what you say to women, Practice apoligising. Drink alittle so you have an excuse