Today was a very hard day. Some of you perhaps now the story of my ex and that I still have to work with her.
Today I had to work 6 hours with her at some kind of show (thus with music). I saw her having a good time, dancing, laughing with everyone. I just ran around with a sad face, pathetic I know, but most of us know what it is to be heartbroken. The hardest part is that everyone knows she has a new toyboy and is still married, but she gets away with it, I just don't understand.
She doesn't show any respect for me even though at some point she loved me, she sees me running around sad, see her having eye contact with me (looks away instantly when I look back), but still, nothing. She tries to initiate conversation and teasing, I just feel too sad to go along.
I think I can act normal, but it would drain a lot of energy and I don't like to do things if it doesn't have any results in the end.
Some side question, can you get a borderline ex back if you act like you used to when everything was okay? I don't want her back, I just want to know so I can hurt her. Yes horrible, but what she is doing now is more horrible.
I am emotionally drained, every situation I think of how it would be with her if we would still be together. And it hurts so f*cking much that this is not the case.
Today I had to work 6 hours with her at some kind of show (thus with music). I saw her having a good time, dancing, laughing with everyone. I just ran around with a sad face, pathetic I know, but most of us know what it is to be heartbroken. The hardest part is that everyone knows she has a new toyboy and is still married, but she gets away with it, I just don't understand.
She doesn't show any respect for me even though at some point she loved me, she sees me running around sad, see her having eye contact with me (looks away instantly when I look back), but still, nothing. She tries to initiate conversation and teasing, I just feel too sad to go along.
I think I can act normal, but it would drain a lot of energy and I don't like to do things if it doesn't have any results in the end.
Some side question, can you get a borderline ex back if you act like you used to when everything was okay? I don't want her back, I just want to know so I can hurt her. Yes horrible, but what she is doing now is more horrible.
I am emotionally drained, every situation I think of how it would be with her if we would still be together. And it hurts so f*cking much that this is not the case.
