She only had two chinese boyfriends before me, not a ***** at all. Shes not a super immature 10.
I would always pawn tasks off on her, literally she would apply to jobs for me, ****ed up I know, I was lazy and she did what ever I wanted.
Usually always had the final word on important decisions.
When I was really bad into the booz and pills, we would fight a lot because she didnt want me ****ed up all the time, and wasting money, who would want to be with some on like that.
I would go from hot to cold a lot, she never knew how I was going to be.
I do have an anger problem, I hate to say this, its the worst thing ive done in my life and I really regret it, I slapped her a couple times when we were fighting, two different occasions. I went real afc after that, i felt so bad for doing it. I was not mentally stable when I did this, I was on antidepressants, drinking 4 nights a week, binge. and taking pills.
I feel like I was a bit abusive, but i would feel real guilty the next day and be real nice.
Look I was this way, and I wasnt thinking straight.
I almost wish I didnt do that ****ed up ****, because if i had been honorable, I would not feel so guilty, and if i had acted honorable, i dont think she would have left. Even after i hit her, she would say its ok, and not want to talk about it.
Drugs change people, especially when you binge on booze and benzos.
I think I used to be a nice guy, then i ended up being a jerk.
I would get angry very easily over dumb ****, because she was real books smart but appeared to have no common sense sometimes, I would get mad because she was a terrible driver, and that ****s ridiculous.
I was only a raging **** towards the end. We lived together and she rarely go out with out me. She worked and studied most of the time.
She said herself after the break up, she kept hoping i would show improvement, and that I lost her to myself, there was no one else.