My mind is slowly overheating. I don't know what to do in my life. I feel so immature because i can't make decisions. Here's the deal..
I live in a depressing little town in Sweden where nothing happens. It's just the same people wherever i go. No "real" friends or anything like that. Everyone is looking out for their own ass and everyone is talking **** about everybody.
Now i was in Chicago during the holidays because my girlfriend is studying there. I loved that city. And yeah i've seen other big cities as well but Chicago I really loved I wanna move there!!! I wanna move to study there but the thing is It would feel like i was all alone there. I don't speak the language 100% fluently since i find difficulties finding words sometimes since Im from sweden. I would feel all alone there and I would have hopes that me and my girlfriend would get back together again. (yes we broke up but we still love eachother, we broke up in order for me to experience difficulties in life to grow up)
Im so damn depressed over the break up too. I can't really think. I don't know what to do. All I know is i don't wanna stay in this town. I've been to bigger towns in Sweden too. I don't like them eather.
The thing is, im 20 years old and i still live with my mother father and my sister. I don't wanna leave them.
But still, if i left them for another town in Sweden i would feel thats ok.
Maybe i should put my family behind me for a little while and do what I wanna do? but im not sure if i wanna do that if im not gonna get to be with my girlfriend in chicago.
anyone got any tips for me how to clear my damn mind?
I live in a depressing little town in Sweden where nothing happens. It's just the same people wherever i go. No "real" friends or anything like that. Everyone is looking out for their own ass and everyone is talking **** about everybody.
Now i was in Chicago during the holidays because my girlfriend is studying there. I loved that city. And yeah i've seen other big cities as well but Chicago I really loved I wanna move there!!! I wanna move to study there but the thing is It would feel like i was all alone there. I don't speak the language 100% fluently since i find difficulties finding words sometimes since Im from sweden. I would feel all alone there and I would have hopes that me and my girlfriend would get back together again. (yes we broke up but we still love eachother, we broke up in order for me to experience difficulties in life to grow up)
Im so damn depressed over the break up too. I can't really think. I don't know what to do. All I know is i don't wanna stay in this town. I've been to bigger towns in Sweden too. I don't like them eather.
The thing is, im 20 years old and i still live with my mother father and my sister. I don't wanna leave them.
But still, if i left them for another town in Sweden i would feel thats ok.
Maybe i should put my family behind me for a little while and do what I wanna do? but im not sure if i wanna do that if im not gonna get to be with my girlfriend in chicago.
anyone got any tips for me how to clear my damn mind?