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Senior Don Juan
What is my goal?
I want the ablility to influence. I want external validation. I want people to love, respect, and need me. I want to stand on a podium from outer space and have the entire earth bow down before me with tears in their eyes.
Why?
I think that I want to be valuable. However, there are things about myself that I really don’t like. Would changing things about myself make me valuable? I actually think that it would.
So what’s stopping me?
I believe it is fear and laziness.
Well laziness is an excuse for fear isn’t it? You’re afraid of feeling pain so you don’t do something. It might be painful to wake up early to go to the gym. It might be PAINFUL to get up and get the remote, ok extreme laziness there, but I WAS ONCE THAT BAD.
So then it’s FEAR right?…. I was afraid that I wouldn’t be able to change. I believe I can change anything however. I’m a ****ing smart mother****er biotch….but it comes down to persistence. Smart means **** if you can’t stick with something past all the setbacks that come up. It’s damn true that life will give you all kinds of setbacks for anything that is really worthwhile. It’s like a test to see if you truly want something. If you do, then you will do whatever it takes. This also helps with my self-esteem I believe. Every time you as a ****ing awesome dude push through something that was tough it shows value. Not the kind of value that other people see, but the kind that only you know. The REAL value.
This value IS actually shown to other people, but it’s in everything you do, it’s your vibe, what girls call “confidence” and the way you relate with other people. If others can tell you value yourself they will have no choice but to value you also. I believe many people know this deep down and they try to actively show they have value to others, and it comes of like they are trying to impress/bragging and has the opposite effect. This in the extreme end is talking about how your Porsche is brand new. Why would someone do this? What is their motivation for saying that? Truth: They want you to validate them, and they are NEEDY for that validation.
The most important thing about Demonstrations of Higher Value is being genuine. As in Mystery genuinely likes doing magic. I genuinely like being playful and making fun of girls. I don’t think ….”I’m gonna DHV by talking to her like she’s just a little girl.” I think I’m going to joke around and have fun because I like doing it and she’s just a little girl.
My life’s success and happiness have been forever based on how others viewed me. If I had a girlfriend I was validated. I was happy. If I was part of a cool group of friends I was validated. I was happy. I realize now that this is ****ing ****. By ****ing **** I mean that it doesn’t hold up when things go bad.
A couple years ago I was having problems with my ex-GF, and I said some things to myself that helped me feel better at the time.
“Well I still have my friends that think I’m cool. I’m still part of a band that is good.”
It worked. I felt better. These things were GREAT they were parts of my life that I appreciated, but that’s all I thought of them as, THINGS. I should have been thinking that I was a cool guy that people liked around. Girls were attracted to me, and I was a good musician. That is the kind of stuff that stays with a person
“Things” are gained and lost. Qualities and Strengths stay with you even when the things disappear.
So I learned the hard way. I lost more relationships with people, and friendships, and I lost a part of myself each time. This destroyed my self-esteem and self-confidence, and I literally felt like there was no hope for me. That I had lost everything.
In reality I lost nothing. I was the same person as before.
I was always trying to get more. I wanted the cool bike, I wanted the cool clothes, I wanted I wanted friends to have friends. I wanted girls to love me. All because I lacked what I really wanted.
Love for myself.
I think it’s true what some say that one can’t love another unless he truly loves himself. I never really felt love for other people really, just desire to have them in my life. Desire for validation.
This is why ijjji posts all the ****ing time about being NEEDY. I realize what he really means. DESIRE FOR VALIDATION.
Affirmations work.
The one affirmation that really works for me in social situations is.
“Chicks dig me.” (thanks ijjji)
I was thinking about this phrase, and why it works for me. When I say it, I don’t think about all the chicks that I think are cute out there. I think of all the situations in the past where chicks HAVE digged me. Thus my mind accepts the affirmation, and my body feels GREAT! The more experiences a person has with chicks digging them, the better these techniques will up your state, but all it takes is a couple memories.
Remember that chick giving you eye contact last week, the one who played with her hair and laughed when you said something. All these PROVE that chicks dig YOU.
Chicks dig ME.
I started getting analytical and wondered if this is external validation. Well…I think that it is external validation that can never be lost, only gained.
You will have those memories of chicks that digged you FOREVER, and you can only gain MORE. BUT this is validation that you give to your own mind! Therefore it becomes internal validation because YOU are the one that validated yourself. Isn’t that AWESOME how it all works?!!!
This post may be excessive and somewhat repetitive, but If you like thinking about how you work as a person, think about what I wrote, and draw your own conclusions. Also, just try doing one affirmation a day. Read the last section of this post about chick’s digging me, and realize how affirmations work and start ****ing doing them!
Keep going towards what you truly want. **** fear and laziness, they are your enemies. Get off your lazy ass! Bring courage and determination and beat the **** out of fear and
DEVELOP A SENSE OF URGENCY…NOW!
I want the ablility to influence. I want external validation. I want people to love, respect, and need me. I want to stand on a podium from outer space and have the entire earth bow down before me with tears in their eyes.
Why?
I think that I want to be valuable. However, there are things about myself that I really don’t like. Would changing things about myself make me valuable? I actually think that it would.
So what’s stopping me?
I believe it is fear and laziness.
Well laziness is an excuse for fear isn’t it? You’re afraid of feeling pain so you don’t do something. It might be painful to wake up early to go to the gym. It might be PAINFUL to get up and get the remote, ok extreme laziness there, but I WAS ONCE THAT BAD.
So then it’s FEAR right?…. I was afraid that I wouldn’t be able to change. I believe I can change anything however. I’m a ****ing smart mother****er biotch….but it comes down to persistence. Smart means **** if you can’t stick with something past all the setbacks that come up. It’s damn true that life will give you all kinds of setbacks for anything that is really worthwhile. It’s like a test to see if you truly want something. If you do, then you will do whatever it takes. This also helps with my self-esteem I believe. Every time you as a ****ing awesome dude push through something that was tough it shows value. Not the kind of value that other people see, but the kind that only you know. The REAL value.
This value IS actually shown to other people, but it’s in everything you do, it’s your vibe, what girls call “confidence” and the way you relate with other people. If others can tell you value yourself they will have no choice but to value you also. I believe many people know this deep down and they try to actively show they have value to others, and it comes of like they are trying to impress/bragging and has the opposite effect. This in the extreme end is talking about how your Porsche is brand new. Why would someone do this? What is their motivation for saying that? Truth: They want you to validate them, and they are NEEDY for that validation.
The most important thing about Demonstrations of Higher Value is being genuine. As in Mystery genuinely likes doing magic. I genuinely like being playful and making fun of girls. I don’t think ….”I’m gonna DHV by talking to her like she’s just a little girl.” I think I’m going to joke around and have fun because I like doing it and she’s just a little girl.
My life’s success and happiness have been forever based on how others viewed me. If I had a girlfriend I was validated. I was happy. If I was part of a cool group of friends I was validated. I was happy. I realize now that this is ****ing ****. By ****ing **** I mean that it doesn’t hold up when things go bad.
A couple years ago I was having problems with my ex-GF, and I said some things to myself that helped me feel better at the time.
“Well I still have my friends that think I’m cool. I’m still part of a band that is good.”
It worked. I felt better. These things were GREAT they were parts of my life that I appreciated, but that’s all I thought of them as, THINGS. I should have been thinking that I was a cool guy that people liked around. Girls were attracted to me, and I was a good musician. That is the kind of stuff that stays with a person
“Things” are gained and lost. Qualities and Strengths stay with you even when the things disappear.
So I learned the hard way. I lost more relationships with people, and friendships, and I lost a part of myself each time. This destroyed my self-esteem and self-confidence, and I literally felt like there was no hope for me. That I had lost everything.
In reality I lost nothing. I was the same person as before.
I was always trying to get more. I wanted the cool bike, I wanted the cool clothes, I wanted I wanted friends to have friends. I wanted girls to love me. All because I lacked what I really wanted.
Love for myself.
I think it’s true what some say that one can’t love another unless he truly loves himself. I never really felt love for other people really, just desire to have them in my life. Desire for validation.
This is why ijjji posts all the ****ing time about being NEEDY. I realize what he really means. DESIRE FOR VALIDATION.
Affirmations work.
The one affirmation that really works for me in social situations is.
“Chicks dig me.” (thanks ijjji)
I was thinking about this phrase, and why it works for me. When I say it, I don’t think about all the chicks that I think are cute out there. I think of all the situations in the past where chicks HAVE digged me. Thus my mind accepts the affirmation, and my body feels GREAT! The more experiences a person has with chicks digging them, the better these techniques will up your state, but all it takes is a couple memories.
Remember that chick giving you eye contact last week, the one who played with her hair and laughed when you said something. All these PROVE that chicks dig YOU.
Chicks dig ME.
I started getting analytical and wondered if this is external validation. Well…I think that it is external validation that can never be lost, only gained.
You will have those memories of chicks that digged you FOREVER, and you can only gain MORE. BUT this is validation that you give to your own mind! Therefore it becomes internal validation because YOU are the one that validated yourself. Isn’t that AWESOME how it all works?!!!
This post may be excessive and somewhat repetitive, but If you like thinking about how you work as a person, think about what I wrote, and draw your own conclusions. Also, just try doing one affirmation a day. Read the last section of this post about chick’s digging me, and realize how affirmations work and start ****ing doing them!
Keep going towards what you truly want. **** fear and laziness, they are your enemies. Get off your lazy ass! Bring courage and determination and beat the **** out of fear and
DEVELOP A SENSE OF URGENCY…NOW!
. " Whaaaat ammm I gooonaa doo ....gonna ride on ....looking for a f...truck.One of these days gonna change my evil ways ( Fear,Lazy) one of these days . Thank you AC , its gonna happen sooner rather than later for ..ahem a change .