Further thoughts and updates.
Last night I went on a date with a Czech girl. I didn't drink at all but it was only because I was on so much Adderall. Not that it's needed but I would personally advise everybody on here to stay the hell away from Adderall unless you have genuine ADD and are taking it consistently and not increasing doses AND it is making your life liveable. I'm going to throw everything I have away. The multiple crashes (after redoses) I experienced yesterday were indescribably painful.
The date itself was bizarre. Normally I drink and am kind of confident, relaxed and escalate fairly quickly. On the Adderall I was like a madman. I spent three hours trying to solve this chick's housing dilemma not out of any sense of wanting to help her but just from the uber focus that comes from taking that stuff.
I think I'm going to try dating sober for a while. It actually fills me with dread. I have to admit that I do find women almost utterly retarded and all of my interest in them is physical. Or I guess it can be nice to have them around, in the background somewhere. But engaging with them on any meaningful level just leaves me, at best, irritated.
Dating is costing money. I can easily afford it but when I drink on dates I have a good time so it's like I'm paying for entertainment. Sober, i won't be entertained and I'm not sure what I'll get out of the date, other than maybe a second date if one comes. I don't know what conversion rate you guys have but so far I've been dating a couple of weeks and kiss closes only. I think I need to hold my ground from now on and just say they're either coming round for some wine and a movie or nothing.
None of these *****es even offer to split the bill. It's unbelievable. Jenna Marbles (who I quite like) did a YouTube vid on this and I agreed with everything she said. I just can't respect any woman who thinks it's her divine right to have meals, drinks bought, etc. If somebody tried to pay for me (friend or girlfriend) I would absolutely fvcking refuse. I mean I literally would not let them do it. How can they think it's fine? But what's the alternative, to fight with them over it or watch them look like you've just fvcked their mother as they reach for their wallet?