Hey guys. Today is my 10th day. I gave in. broke the rules today by watching tv and listening to music. I couldnt take it. The thing is that i was a little sexually stressed with a girl that doesnt wanna **** and another that I thought had some potential just flaked on me yesterday. Plus some issues with work. Yesterday and today my thoughts were racing and I had to slow down somehow.
I do have some insights:
The first 2 days I was having a mix of emotions ranging from fear to happy. Frankly, when i had nothing to do I felt defenseless and lost. My state of boredom eventually motivated my self amusement.
I became more focused on people. Interactions with others became more engaging. I was so focused some times that I could foresee the next thing the other person was gonna say and knew the best way to respond, without really thinking of a response.
From the things they like to talk about and from their worries, you begin to see the extent to which the media filters into people's lives .
The most valuable lessons that I learned:
I think you learn a lot about yourself by having alone times doing nothing. But its hard, and you'll realize that the less you love yourself, the harder it is. You also realize that the more time you spend with out distractions when you're alone, the more you start accepting being with yourself, and this is the definition of self-love. Some people are always taking advantage of all the distractions brought by technology, thse people dont accept themselves.
I've learned to accept myself. The liberation that this brings and the progress to my life this brings is too much to give it up to wasting hours in front of tv radio and computer.
Being aware and conscious is being in control and aware of everything you do, and this includes being in control of your thoughts. You're only conscious when you're in control of thoughts. If your thoughts take control of you, you lose, and if you try to drown them with tv, video games, music, or alcohol, drugs, or porn, you lose control of your own life. You fall into the state of semi-consciousnes so prevalent nowadays. As Tyler Durden from RSD well puts it, "Most people walk thru the world in a walking daze". Today I lost, but its like a blessing in disguise because its helped me see the benefts this expierence brought me.
Having control of your bad habits is essential to confidence and self actualization.
Sadly, I no longer see any use for this forum which has helped me and others a lot. I don't intent to log in any more but maybe i will in my moments of non-acceptance of myself, moments which distractions will actually only end up increasing.
Use technology only when necessary.