bmjc said:
I dont want to hear about how i need to toughen the **** up. or theres more "fish" out there.
Then kill yourself. Those are your two options...either man up and realize your potential, or just off yourself. With that kind of attitude, you wouldn't survive in the real world anyway.
It's a damn woman, man. You act like you're the only one with these problems, like no one else gets their heart broken or understands how bad it can be. EVERYONE on this forum, in fact 99.99% of people in this world have gone through EXACTLY what you're going through.
In fact, there are people in this world who have married a woman and had kids with them and had to break up with them because the woman loved someone else. And here you are crying about some high school sweetheart who dumped you. You should be ashamed of yourself for wanting to take your life over something so trivial, unless your life really ISN'T worth that much.
You're not a "badass with feelings". There's nothing "badass" about you. You've got a tough, bitter shell because you never learned to take the downside of life. You expect everything to be sunshine and rainbows and anyone who's ever sad, "there's something wrong with them".
You're not the only one who gets hurt, you're not mysterious, you're all too transparent. You're not some beautiful or unique snowflake, some lovely tragedy worthy of some nihilist author. No...actually, you're just like everyone else.
You NEED this pain in your life. This is the best thing that could ever happen to you, because it will FORCE you to grow up and become strong. When the pain finally becomes so unbearable that you accept it, you'll become stronger because of it. You'll learn to DEAL with life as it is.
Or you'll kill yourself, which would be an utter waste, but it's your call. You're 19. No one's going to baby you.
I can remember one time I was so wrapped up with a girl who had left me behind that I literally did not want to leave the house. I sat around and felt unmotivated, did not feel like ANYTHING was worth doing. You know what I did? I FORCED MYSELF to get up and do the things that I knew I wanted to do, and for the first time in a while, I started to feel STRONG again.
I dont know what to do right now. anything is fine. please.. no haters
thanx
In other words, you want sympathy. No.
This isn't the kind of forum that will sit around and coddle you and enable you to continue to be deficient in emotional strength.
It's not that bad. When I get depressed, I think of suicide every other day. And I actually have the means to do it. I don't, because it's hilariously stupid. If life is so bad for you that you're thinking of taking your own life, that means it can only get better.
You don't have any problems, man. They're all in your head. You're 19 and you have the whole world out there WAITING for you to take it. You just have to be willing to take your licks until you get there. That's life.
What should you do?? What do you WANT to do? And no, killing yourself doesn't count, you don't WANT to do that, you're considering it as an alternative to putting forth any effort.
The chicks (iqqi and penkitten) and Alamar have the good advice. This is YOUR life, YOUR story. Are you going to end it like this?
Take some "me" time and start doing the things you really WANT to do. I know you don't feel motivated, you feel like nothing is worth doing. F*ck worth. Do them anyway. Trust me, you'll feel better.
