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I HAVE BEEN SEEING MY GIRL 4 ABOUT 6 MONTHS. THE BAD PART IS SHE IS STILL TECHNICALLY MARRIED. THE DIVORCE IS FINAL IN APRIL. IRONICALLY THAT IS NOT THE PROBLEM. IT STARTED WHEN I WENT 2 FL 4 THREE WKS. SHE WANTED ME 2 COME BACK SO BAD THAT I CUT MY TRIP SHORT. I WASNT BACK A WEEK AND I DID SOMETHING VERY STUPID. IM GOING TO LEAVE IT AS SOMETHING STUPID REAL STUPID, INSTEAD OF EXPLAINING. NEEDLESS TO SAY SHE DROPPED ME LIKE A BAD HABIT, AND NO I DIDN'T CHEAT. NORMALLY I WOULD JUST FEEL BAD 4 A WEEK OR 2 AND MOVE ON, BUT SOMETHING HAPPENED AT THE BEGINING OF OUR RELATIONSHIP THAT HAS NEVER HAPPENED TO ME B4. WE WERE IN BED AND I WAS THINKING OF MY PAST FAILURES WITH FEMALES( THIS 6 MNTHS BEING THE LONGEST EVER) REPLAYING WHAT I DID WRONG AND HOW I HAD BEEN HURT. THIS IS WHAT BLEW MY MIND. B4 I SAID ANYTHING SHE SAT UP AND TOLD NOT 2 B SCARED. THAT SHE WASN'T GOING TO HURT ME AND WASNT GOING TO LET ME SCREW IT UP EITHER. THAT CANT HAPPEN 2 EVERYONE THERE IS SOMETHING SPECIAL THERE, I MEAN SHE ACTUALLY READ MY MIND DAMN NEAR WORD 4 WORD NOW I DID SCREW UP, AND SHE HAD NO CHOICEBUT 2 LET ME GO. THAT WAS A WEEK AGO . SHE MAKES IT A POINT 2 SAY THAT WE ARE NOT TOGETHER, BUT SHE STILL WANTS 2 SEE ME AND THERE IS NO WAY I COULD EVER SAY NO. SHE IS THE ONLY PERSON I HAVE EVER FELT SAFE WITH. IM NOT SURE WHAT 2 DO CAN SOMEONE HELP