aaarrgghh..
I let yet another opportunity (probably not actually going anywhere but I should have made more of an effort) slip away and now I'm all pissed off with myself and frustrated with my constant.. well, not failures, just my lack of effort.
Out on thursday night with a friend of mine, I was in quite a good mood, started dancing on the dance floor, after a while a couple of girls ended up near us and one was dancing quite close to me, I think she bumped her ass into me, and without even thinking I grabbed her waist and started grinding with her a bit, so far so good.
Then, after a few moments (10-15 seconds probably, if that) I broke off, I think mainly due to a general lack of confidence, I didn't really think that she'd want to go on dancing with me for long, let alone be interested in a kiss or anything, so in order to keep my pride I broke off before she could, hoping that I'd given the impression that I was such a DJ I didn't need to focus all my attention on her.
So I turned around a bit, so that most of the time I wasn't even facing/looking at her, I was still feeling pretty good, and had a smile on my face, I turned back occasionally and danced so I could see her, and almost all of the time she had her back to me and was shaking her ass in my general direction.. and then two thoughts kept conflicting in my head,
first: "look! shes shaking her ass at you! the I'm not interested stunt worked! shes interested in you becuase you didn't keep groping her like most other guys would! Grab her! what have you got to lose??"
and secondly, much stronger: "she's an attention *****, she's not interested in you, she just wants any guy to give her some attention to boost her ego but she wouldn't let it go anywhere, and she's not even tried to make eye contact with you, keep your pride and act like you don't want her, she might make a move later"
Of course after about 15/20 minutes of this, maybe longer, her and her friend left the dancefloor and I didn't see them again.
Part of me just doesn't feel confident grabbing girls who I've not even spoken to on the dancefloor, not unless it seems obvious that they want me to.. (e.g. when she bumped her back into me initially) It just feels.. sleazy, I guess and I can't keep up the confidence to grind away with them unless they are really demonstrating that they like it.. (e.g. by touching me with their hands or giving some good eye contact)
But I don't want to be posting about this sort of crap, grinding with girls shouldn't be something I think twice about especially when they're shaking their asses at me. And especially at the moment when I'm meeting most new girls in as strangers in nightclubs and not through work/friends. I've got to the point I should have been at years ago, where I actually feel confident enough to ask a girl I've been talking to and getting on well with for her number, but I should be able to dance with girls too especially when I'm going to clubs (like the one on thursday) that are just big dancefloors with not much (hardly any) room to stand around talking.
I dunno, I guess I'd better go read all the how to bump n grind threads again, and I can see I'm overanalysing... but post any thoughts tips etc if you want, I'm starting to get frustrated again, I feel like I've got the confidence to get dates I'm just not meeting any women right now and I don't have the confidence to convert on the dancefloor.
I let yet another opportunity (probably not actually going anywhere but I should have made more of an effort) slip away and now I'm all pissed off with myself and frustrated with my constant.. well, not failures, just my lack of effort.
Out on thursday night with a friend of mine, I was in quite a good mood, started dancing on the dance floor, after a while a couple of girls ended up near us and one was dancing quite close to me, I think she bumped her ass into me, and without even thinking I grabbed her waist and started grinding with her a bit, so far so good.
Then, after a few moments (10-15 seconds probably, if that) I broke off, I think mainly due to a general lack of confidence, I didn't really think that she'd want to go on dancing with me for long, let alone be interested in a kiss or anything, so in order to keep my pride I broke off before she could, hoping that I'd given the impression that I was such a DJ I didn't need to focus all my attention on her.
So I turned around a bit, so that most of the time I wasn't even facing/looking at her, I was still feeling pretty good, and had a smile on my face, I turned back occasionally and danced so I could see her, and almost all of the time she had her back to me and was shaking her ass in my general direction.. and then two thoughts kept conflicting in my head,
first: "look! shes shaking her ass at you! the I'm not interested stunt worked! shes interested in you becuase you didn't keep groping her like most other guys would! Grab her! what have you got to lose??"
and secondly, much stronger: "she's an attention *****, she's not interested in you, she just wants any guy to give her some attention to boost her ego but she wouldn't let it go anywhere, and she's not even tried to make eye contact with you, keep your pride and act like you don't want her, she might make a move later"
Of course after about 15/20 minutes of this, maybe longer, her and her friend left the dancefloor and I didn't see them again.
Part of me just doesn't feel confident grabbing girls who I've not even spoken to on the dancefloor, not unless it seems obvious that they want me to.. (e.g. when she bumped her back into me initially) It just feels.. sleazy, I guess and I can't keep up the confidence to grind away with them unless they are really demonstrating that they like it.. (e.g. by touching me with their hands or giving some good eye contact)
But I don't want to be posting about this sort of crap, grinding with girls shouldn't be something I think twice about especially when they're shaking their asses at me. And especially at the moment when I'm meeting most new girls in as strangers in nightclubs and not through work/friends. I've got to the point I should have been at years ago, where I actually feel confident enough to ask a girl I've been talking to and getting on well with for her number, but I should be able to dance with girls too especially when I'm going to clubs (like the one on thursday) that are just big dancefloors with not much (hardly any) room to stand around talking.
I dunno, I guess I'd better go read all the how to bump n grind threads again, and I can see I'm overanalysing... but post any thoughts tips etc if you want, I'm starting to get frustrated again, I feel like I've got the confidence to get dates I'm just not meeting any women right now and I don't have the confidence to convert on the dancefloor.