I know exactly why I mess up. When I was mysterious and elusive, she was around me a lot. I wasn't calling her much, and when I did it was on my terms. She would make excuses to see me. Every time she came over I would just make out with her. I would encounter some resistance from her because she would keep moving my hand away, except one time when she had no resistance at all. I got to comfortable around her and let my guard down, that was when she started backing away from me, she started seeing me less and less. She stop making out with me and letting me touch her. She knew my routine, knew a lot about me and I guess I was no longer mysterious. I was afraid to lose her. It made me chase her because I was confused by her actions. I wasn't sure why I lost attraction. I thought maybe she found someone else or she was playing mind games on me. I know she was very attracted to me once and like me a lot. I guess I wanted to know exactly how she felt so I confess my feelings because I didn't want to regret it. It seem like it was all a big game. I learn a lot from this experience, my emotions are messed up right now. I'm going to a party tonight, hopefully I find a girl to hook up with and try to forget this other girl.
