comic_relief
Master Don Juan
this is the essay that i wrote for the one college that I am applying for.
This is wrote by "comic_relief"
_______________________________
I was a crude and unlearned person. I never took responsibility for my actions and refused to stop living off of my parents coat tails. I would put myself in hundreds of dollars of debt. and would not pay the debt. back from whoever would lend me the money. I played video games constantly and was "obsessed" with one woman. My grades were slipping farther and farther away from the high point that they should have been at. I was a dispicable mess that might have got me shot in some countries. I had no future and I was a nobody. Welcome to the beginning of my tenth grade year. Sounds grand, doesn't it?
It does not sound very promising, I know. If I saw this mess, then I would just throw this paper in the trash and burn the application as a lost cause. Believe me, I would love to go back in time to that year and fix myself. Let me explain before the ceremonious burning of the application begins and listen to how I changed since that fateful year. This is the story of the real "Comic_Relief" change to his own personal enlightenment. You are about to delve into story of incredible highs but emotional low points. A story of depression and great achievements. This is my story of how I became the man that I am today.
It was the middle of my tenth grade year, I looked around in my computer chair at home and realized that I was in a suspension for fighting another student. Thats when I realized that I hit rock bottom and continued to go down deeper into this pit of anger at myself for my own failures. I could not get that one special girl that I cried myself to sleep over for not being able to attain, my angel. She was the apple of my eye. I would do anything to have her. I would climb any mountain and swim any river for her. I began to search online for ways to get this "goddess." I then found something incredible. A website, not just any website. It was a little known web forum with how to get any woman that I wanted. It was incredible and it talked about confidence and independence. I quickly started to use the "tactics" and "tricks" to go after women, but still failed miserably. Why, you might ask? Scratching my head, I pondered this for a moment. Then, the realization hit me like a rock to the head. I realized that I had not changed myself but just changed the focus of my happieness from my "angel" to many women. The problem with this is that the happiness should be focused on myself; if you cannot be happy on your own two feet, then how can something else make you happy? So, I quit going after women entirely for a little over half of a year later. This was the beginning of the Summer of 2004.
During this summer and fall season of 2004, I worked on myself. I became truely happy with myself. This positive attitude that I achieved was incredible. I then went on even further picking up girl after girl after girl (I am not proud of this). By now, you wondering who cares? Ah, let me finish this tale because now it gets really good. Let us fast forward to the really good part.
I heard about this state run school that goes on during the summer of 2005 known as Pennsylvania Governor School for Teaching (also known as P.G.S.T.). I figured why not try to get in. So, I applied to this school in hopes of getting in. When I started my application, these voices were heard around me from parents, teachers, and students of "Why would you want to apply to a SUMMER SCHOOL. Why would you even apply? You are too stupid." My answer to why I applied was simple. It was "If I do not apply, then I am condemning myself to a life of mediocrity. I might as well make an attempt to embetter my world view." I got accepted as an alternate canidate during March 2005. Then, I was accepted in May 2005 on my first day of coaching the Huntington Mills Teener League. It was one of the most triumphing victories in my life. Imagine a person with the qualifications from the beginning of the essay making it into one of the hardest and most elite teaching programs in the state.
I got into the school, which was held at Millersville University, on June 26th of this year until July 30th. It was amazing because of the fact that I was actually a teacher. I was a somebody. I changed other children's lives. No, no, no. Not children, but other individual lives. This was incredible. I gave some children with an I.E.P. a reason to have fun and say that this is not too bad. That was one of the most incredible rushes in my life. This rush does not compare to the rush that I got with anything else including women. To know that I changed someone's life for the better especially a child that has the world stacked against them like that in elementary school because they have an I.E.P. and are in special classes such as special education.
During the time that I was in P.G.S.T., I met many interesting and amazing people. Some of which would like to go back to Millersville as a student. They taught me so much and got rid of what was left of that big blob that I was in the beginning of tenth grade. I went through the "Filter of Oppression" and cried through it because of how much bias and racism and sexism hurts other people. I never looked at it that way before but it really is a terrible thing. This is what motivated me also to become a teacher. To prevent this and show the children hurt by racism that there is a better life out there. The movies that the "govies", or governor school students, were shown, showed how teachers helped change lives. This is what really made me want to become a student at Millersville University. I want to take it upon myself to take the thankless job of becoming a teacher.
Look at how I have changed since the middle of the tenth grade. From not wanting to do anything including taking risks or go from my comfort zone to going to one of the most elite teaching programs in the state. I challenged many long held beliefs that I have gotten rid of. I am no longer a human being and son that brings shame to people's eyes, but a person that someone can say "Look here, this is my friend." This all because of a little brunette that I called an "Angel" spruned me to look online for a way to get her to go out with me, but instead of finding a way to get her. I failed in that respect but found another much more important thing known as life. I lost myself but refound myself stronger and better then ever before. I have opened my eyes and I will end this now with a quote from an anonymous source that I could not find the quote to attribute it to, "Behind every great man there is a great woman but that is the woman that he did not marry."
This is wrote by "comic_relief"
_______________________________
I was a crude and unlearned person. I never took responsibility for my actions and refused to stop living off of my parents coat tails. I would put myself in hundreds of dollars of debt. and would not pay the debt. back from whoever would lend me the money. I played video games constantly and was "obsessed" with one woman. My grades were slipping farther and farther away from the high point that they should have been at. I was a dispicable mess that might have got me shot in some countries. I had no future and I was a nobody. Welcome to the beginning of my tenth grade year. Sounds grand, doesn't it?
It does not sound very promising, I know. If I saw this mess, then I would just throw this paper in the trash and burn the application as a lost cause. Believe me, I would love to go back in time to that year and fix myself. Let me explain before the ceremonious burning of the application begins and listen to how I changed since that fateful year. This is the story of the real "Comic_Relief" change to his own personal enlightenment. You are about to delve into story of incredible highs but emotional low points. A story of depression and great achievements. This is my story of how I became the man that I am today.
It was the middle of my tenth grade year, I looked around in my computer chair at home and realized that I was in a suspension for fighting another student. Thats when I realized that I hit rock bottom and continued to go down deeper into this pit of anger at myself for my own failures. I could not get that one special girl that I cried myself to sleep over for not being able to attain, my angel. She was the apple of my eye. I would do anything to have her. I would climb any mountain and swim any river for her. I began to search online for ways to get this "goddess." I then found something incredible. A website, not just any website. It was a little known web forum with how to get any woman that I wanted. It was incredible and it talked about confidence and independence. I quickly started to use the "tactics" and "tricks" to go after women, but still failed miserably. Why, you might ask? Scratching my head, I pondered this for a moment. Then, the realization hit me like a rock to the head. I realized that I had not changed myself but just changed the focus of my happieness from my "angel" to many women. The problem with this is that the happiness should be focused on myself; if you cannot be happy on your own two feet, then how can something else make you happy? So, I quit going after women entirely for a little over half of a year later. This was the beginning of the Summer of 2004.
During this summer and fall season of 2004, I worked on myself. I became truely happy with myself. This positive attitude that I achieved was incredible. I then went on even further picking up girl after girl after girl (I am not proud of this). By now, you wondering who cares? Ah, let me finish this tale because now it gets really good. Let us fast forward to the really good part.
I heard about this state run school that goes on during the summer of 2005 known as Pennsylvania Governor School for Teaching (also known as P.G.S.T.). I figured why not try to get in. So, I applied to this school in hopes of getting in. When I started my application, these voices were heard around me from parents, teachers, and students of "Why would you want to apply to a SUMMER SCHOOL. Why would you even apply? You are too stupid." My answer to why I applied was simple. It was "If I do not apply, then I am condemning myself to a life of mediocrity. I might as well make an attempt to embetter my world view." I got accepted as an alternate canidate during March 2005. Then, I was accepted in May 2005 on my first day of coaching the Huntington Mills Teener League. It was one of the most triumphing victories in my life. Imagine a person with the qualifications from the beginning of the essay making it into one of the hardest and most elite teaching programs in the state.
I got into the school, which was held at Millersville University, on June 26th of this year until July 30th. It was amazing because of the fact that I was actually a teacher. I was a somebody. I changed other children's lives. No, no, no. Not children, but other individual lives. This was incredible. I gave some children with an I.E.P. a reason to have fun and say that this is not too bad. That was one of the most incredible rushes in my life. This rush does not compare to the rush that I got with anything else including women. To know that I changed someone's life for the better especially a child that has the world stacked against them like that in elementary school because they have an I.E.P. and are in special classes such as special education.
During the time that I was in P.G.S.T., I met many interesting and amazing people. Some of which would like to go back to Millersville as a student. They taught me so much and got rid of what was left of that big blob that I was in the beginning of tenth grade. I went through the "Filter of Oppression" and cried through it because of how much bias and racism and sexism hurts other people. I never looked at it that way before but it really is a terrible thing. This is what motivated me also to become a teacher. To prevent this and show the children hurt by racism that there is a better life out there. The movies that the "govies", or governor school students, were shown, showed how teachers helped change lives. This is what really made me want to become a student at Millersville University. I want to take it upon myself to take the thankless job of becoming a teacher.
Look at how I have changed since the middle of the tenth grade. From not wanting to do anything including taking risks or go from my comfort zone to going to one of the most elite teaching programs in the state. I challenged many long held beliefs that I have gotten rid of. I am no longer a human being and son that brings shame to people's eyes, but a person that someone can say "Look here, this is my friend." This all because of a little brunette that I called an "Angel" spruned me to look online for a way to get her to go out with me, but instead of finding a way to get her. I failed in that respect but found another much more important thing known as life. I lost myself but refound myself stronger and better then ever before. I have opened my eyes and I will end this now with a quote from an anonymous source that I could not find the quote to attribute it to, "Behind every great man there is a great woman but that is the woman that he did not marry."
