TheGambino
Master Don Juan
I know this is not some kind of support group for problem gamblers but I do need to share my thoughts and I hope you guys can wake me up because i take damage on my work, on my relationship with friends, my gym routine and my relationship with my parents. This is really worse.
It just doesn't work, I went to play poker at the home game again and lost another 800 euros today. Last week I lost 900 euros. I quit playing poker for 3 weeks after my post a while ago.
Anyway I won back some good money after playing again. I wasted that money the week after.
The problem is. The poker home game is 10 min drive, I can easily borrow money to play from the people there and I find myself in debts again. I lost over 6k now. I even need support from my dad now to pay debts, its getting ridiculous.
I always posted the absolute truth on sosuave and now my life is in a big down spiral due this bad habit so I need to spit my thoughts again.
Everytime I say to myself stop playing stop going there but when the game day reaches to play poker I get a message from those guys or I unblock 'em and reach out again to play.
Problem is I had a debt for a while so I feel the urge to win it back in stead of working for it. And I won 1k or 1.5k some days so everytime I have the feeling like i'm going to play tight and win back my debts and money.
But I keep on my losing streak. Sometimes I get the feeling like I just play to forget problems and to escape my mom and a good friend that keep saying that I changed and stuff.
I play poker for 6 years, I could manage it very well until the last 6 months that I met this guys where I play like 2 times a week and can lose up to 1.5K a month.
I plan to go to law school this next month, very motivated for that but I dont know if I can bring it up with this bad bad addiction that has a grip on my life. It's just a good posibility to win my loses back, but a greater one to lose more because of the bad mindset im in. Even though I make 1000euros of 100 in a couple of hours, I manage to get unlucky and lose it all again, because all of the loses I just want to play not win, it's weird.
I seem to feel like playing and trying to win back loses is the only way to get on track again, but it gets me in more sh1t.
Who has tips to get rid of this guys and find some new sh1t to focus on.
I told u:
They live next to my village, they offer to pick me up, they borrow money and it's fun to play. But I just can't manage and control it lateley.
Not even talking about my game. No plates, no gym, less confidence, all due poker. I don't give a sh1t anymore for months now.
It just doesn't work, I went to play poker at the home game again and lost another 800 euros today. Last week I lost 900 euros. I quit playing poker for 3 weeks after my post a while ago.
Anyway I won back some good money after playing again. I wasted that money the week after.
The problem is. The poker home game is 10 min drive, I can easily borrow money to play from the people there and I find myself in debts again. I lost over 6k now. I even need support from my dad now to pay debts, its getting ridiculous.
I always posted the absolute truth on sosuave and now my life is in a big down spiral due this bad habit so I need to spit my thoughts again.
Everytime I say to myself stop playing stop going there but when the game day reaches to play poker I get a message from those guys or I unblock 'em and reach out again to play.
Problem is I had a debt for a while so I feel the urge to win it back in stead of working for it. And I won 1k or 1.5k some days so everytime I have the feeling like i'm going to play tight and win back my debts and money.
But I keep on my losing streak. Sometimes I get the feeling like I just play to forget problems and to escape my mom and a good friend that keep saying that I changed and stuff.
I play poker for 6 years, I could manage it very well until the last 6 months that I met this guys where I play like 2 times a week and can lose up to 1.5K a month.
I plan to go to law school this next month, very motivated for that but I dont know if I can bring it up with this bad bad addiction that has a grip on my life. It's just a good posibility to win my loses back, but a greater one to lose more because of the bad mindset im in. Even though I make 1000euros of 100 in a couple of hours, I manage to get unlucky and lose it all again, because all of the loses I just want to play not win, it's weird.
I seem to feel like playing and trying to win back loses is the only way to get on track again, but it gets me in more sh1t.
Who has tips to get rid of this guys and find some new sh1t to focus on.
I told u:
They live next to my village, they offer to pick me up, they borrow money and it's fun to play. But I just can't manage and control it lateley.
Not even talking about my game. No plates, no gym, less confidence, all due poker. I don't give a sh1t anymore for months now.