Alphamale1821
Senior Don Juan
This is a very long post it but i'm more then confident that you will definitely like what you read and maybe you too can make the change. If anything it's good advice
This is all true story it'll be long but maybe you'll enjoy. So theirs this black kid named Chukwu(me) For as long as I can remember I have always been a really goofy kind of guy.
As in I would do stupid shiit for attention, like fake
choking, random falls, just some of the most random yet funny things you wouldn't expect but I did them. I made people laugh and for the longest I though I would always be this way. Lets start from middle school, new experience.
Well when I was in 7-8th grade you could have called me a "thug" or at least I dressed like one but I never really talked like one none the less I hung out with the black people because at the time I didn’t think any differently. Though I mainly hung out with blacks I had several white and Mexicans friends too. Well lets fast forward to high school now I was a freshmen in l and I was looking for a change I noticed that I was hanging around more preppy people.(for some reason I clicked better with them then the "thugs)
Well freshmen year was great but sophomore year was even better because during that summer my friend convinced me to start dressing preppy. His reason was "you act white" anyway and it will help you pull more chicks then he referred me to another black guy who pulls several chicks in the same scenario.
So anyway I take my friends advice and 10th year came around and everyone noticed my change obviously I made more friends I soon noticed that I had a lot more "popular/preppy" guy friends and hung out with alpha males.. Yet I still felt the same I was still know as Chukwu( which is pronounced Chook Woo unique eh) the Goofy guy the one who will do anything for attention.
So as time goes on I’m having a blast partying with my friends all the time drinking, smoking, experimenting you know how it goes hanging around all these cool "bad ass" guys and hot chicks. Yet something always felt missing. I looked at these guys and noticed that they were picking up girls effortlessly and while I have never been a shy guy(I’m outspoken) I never could "score" with these girls.
So here I was this Goofy yet funny guy who was hanging around all these cool desirable people yet something was missing. My mind set was hey why aren’t I getting these girls I’m funny,(goofy) good looking but I’m skinny<---- that has to be why I’m not picking up girls or so I told myself. So fast forwarding a bit my 10th grade summer I finally got laid but it wasn’t by my own game. It was done though the help of my friends.
My friend will call him J called up a girl and me along with 3 of my buddies ****ed her. So here I was this guy with absolutely no experience with girls never seen a puusy aside from porn never even kissed a girl was about to FUUCK.
OH shiit my mind and heart are racing like crazy, so now we decide whose going to go first well we roll with dice and just my luck I go first. but there was a problem I couldn't get up, luckily my friend lets call him R had free cable so we turn on the Porn. So here I am trying to get my self up(all along while this girl is butt ass naked ready to get fuucked) and I can't get up.
Well my Friend J says fuuck it ‘I’m going so he goes first then my friend T and R suggest that I put Crisco on because it will stimulate it better. LOL and me being the dumb ass I was I put Crisco all over myself and my penis to try to get up still looking at porn sitting on the couch but it wasn’t happening time. Time goes on lets say about 25 minutes I finally get up to some degree not all the way but I was satisfied. So here I was finally Chukwu that goofy skinny black guy was about to get laid.
Well I walk in the room awkwardly look at this naked attractive girl on the bed and started sucking on her tit then I started kissing her. The next thing I know I inserted my penis O_O OMG I was having sex this feeling was so great I was so happy but before I know it, it was all over and no it wasn't because I came it was because the man down below decide to go limp and stay that way(btw the girl would not give a BJ) After about 5 minutes of staying limp I said "fuuck it I cant stay up" she was cool with after all she just had 3 other ****s in her puusy*.
But I on the other hand was happy that I did insert it but then again I was angry at myself that I didn’t finish. My friends had picture and laughed and said "hey it happens to the best of us. I at the time didn’t know why that happen I got laid but why did I still feel this void. Fast-forward
Now I was a junior no real big changes just more partying and the like yet I still not having sex I still had all these cool friends who had girls and were getting laid with little to no effort yet I was just their. Sometime I would go to a party and be like hey I’m here why cant I contribute to this conversation(my mindset). Usually I would add in what I could and Smile a lot I MEAN ALOT(one of my good features and one that I use to my advantage now) Anyway as the year goes on my best R get him a girlfriend and boy did I see a change in him.
Sure we chilled everyday still but as soon as I heard that ring tone. "let me hold you, I knew that was his girlfriend...YIPPEE I get to sit at Roberts house and watch porn while he goes in his room and talks to his GF for hours. I began to notice that everything and everyone was changing but I was still in the same place.
Sure I was getting older, still partying, but I was still the same guy Chuk the goofy black guy who had a lot of friends many who were girls.(oh btw the girls that I knew I flirted with them but it was mainly them making the moves I didn't know how to initiate it. Like I would feed off of them I wasn’t really in control I was like a toy in play pin to some degree, its hard to explain)
These people obviously saw something in myself that I didn't people had always said I had leadership qualities yet most of the time I was following someone else and being an entertainer. I thought I was just being myself blending in with everyone, usually agreeing with what they had to say just kind of passive yet still likeable.
Oh I had one girlfriend over Christmas break but she initiated the conversation an guess what the first thing she says was.... Hey last night I had a dream that we had SEX....WTF(my mind) so I talk to her hesitantly not knowing what to say and then I get her number. a week later we go out. new years eve come around we we're both on adarol she's horny and wants to fuuck.
So do I but I couldn't for the life of me work up the nerve to do so. Eventually we park at a Park and start making out in the car... She gets on top of me and we start kissing we were about to fuuck but we had to leave because people started showing up.....blah blah we go to a party her Ex shows up its awkward so we leave and I come home. 3 days later we break up, she says she wasn't fully over her ex.
I respond ok all I wanted was sex anyway.(even though I didn’t get it) Alright so cool I had a girlfriend sweet maybe I’m not so hopeless. After Aimee I had no other girlfriend....fuuck man what am I doing wrong I’ve got it all popular fun friends, attractive girls who are friends. I'm hanging out with these people so why aren’t I fuucking like my other guy friends were. OH shiit I know why its because I’m too skinny, so if I gain weight then I’ll be sure to get girls(or so I though) Well turns I worked out for awhile but wasn’t really determined so I stopped after a while.
This is all true story it'll be long but maybe you'll enjoy. So theirs this black kid named Chukwu(me) For as long as I can remember I have always been a really goofy kind of guy.
As in I would do stupid shiit for attention, like fake
choking, random falls, just some of the most random yet funny things you wouldn't expect but I did them. I made people laugh and for the longest I though I would always be this way. Lets start from middle school, new experience.
Well when I was in 7-8th grade you could have called me a "thug" or at least I dressed like one but I never really talked like one none the less I hung out with the black people because at the time I didn’t think any differently. Though I mainly hung out with blacks I had several white and Mexicans friends too. Well lets fast forward to high school now I was a freshmen in l and I was looking for a change I noticed that I was hanging around more preppy people.(for some reason I clicked better with them then the "thugs)
Well freshmen year was great but sophomore year was even better because during that summer my friend convinced me to start dressing preppy. His reason was "you act white" anyway and it will help you pull more chicks then he referred me to another black guy who pulls several chicks in the same scenario.
So anyway I take my friends advice and 10th year came around and everyone noticed my change obviously I made more friends I soon noticed that I had a lot more "popular/preppy" guy friends and hung out with alpha males.. Yet I still felt the same I was still know as Chukwu( which is pronounced Chook Woo unique eh) the Goofy guy the one who will do anything for attention.
So as time goes on I’m having a blast partying with my friends all the time drinking, smoking, experimenting you know how it goes hanging around all these cool "bad ass" guys and hot chicks. Yet something always felt missing. I looked at these guys and noticed that they were picking up girls effortlessly and while I have never been a shy guy(I’m outspoken) I never could "score" with these girls.
So here I was this Goofy yet funny guy who was hanging around all these cool desirable people yet something was missing. My mind set was hey why aren’t I getting these girls I’m funny,(goofy) good looking but I’m skinny<---- that has to be why I’m not picking up girls or so I told myself. So fast forwarding a bit my 10th grade summer I finally got laid but it wasn’t by my own game. It was done though the help of my friends.
My friend will call him J called up a girl and me along with 3 of my buddies ****ed her. So here I was this guy with absolutely no experience with girls never seen a puusy aside from porn never even kissed a girl was about to FUUCK.
OH shiit my mind and heart are racing like crazy, so now we decide whose going to go first well we roll with dice and just my luck I go first. but there was a problem I couldn't get up, luckily my friend lets call him R had free cable so we turn on the Porn. So here I am trying to get my self up(all along while this girl is butt ass naked ready to get fuucked) and I can't get up.
Well my Friend J says fuuck it ‘I’m going so he goes first then my friend T and R suggest that I put Crisco on because it will stimulate it better. LOL and me being the dumb ass I was I put Crisco all over myself and my penis to try to get up still looking at porn sitting on the couch but it wasn’t happening time. Time goes on lets say about 25 minutes I finally get up to some degree not all the way but I was satisfied. So here I was finally Chukwu that goofy skinny black guy was about to get laid.
Well I walk in the room awkwardly look at this naked attractive girl on the bed and started sucking on her tit then I started kissing her. The next thing I know I inserted my penis O_O OMG I was having sex this feeling was so great I was so happy but before I know it, it was all over and no it wasn't because I came it was because the man down below decide to go limp and stay that way(btw the girl would not give a BJ) After about 5 minutes of staying limp I said "fuuck it I cant stay up" she was cool with after all she just had 3 other ****s in her puusy*.
But I on the other hand was happy that I did insert it but then again I was angry at myself that I didn’t finish. My friends had picture and laughed and said "hey it happens to the best of us. I at the time didn’t know why that happen I got laid but why did I still feel this void. Fast-forward
Now I was a junior no real big changes just more partying and the like yet I still not having sex I still had all these cool friends who had girls and were getting laid with little to no effort yet I was just their. Sometime I would go to a party and be like hey I’m here why cant I contribute to this conversation(my mindset). Usually I would add in what I could and Smile a lot I MEAN ALOT(one of my good features and one that I use to my advantage now) Anyway as the year goes on my best R get him a girlfriend and boy did I see a change in him.
Sure we chilled everyday still but as soon as I heard that ring tone. "let me hold you, I knew that was his girlfriend...YIPPEE I get to sit at Roberts house and watch porn while he goes in his room and talks to his GF for hours. I began to notice that everything and everyone was changing but I was still in the same place.
Sure I was getting older, still partying, but I was still the same guy Chuk the goofy black guy who had a lot of friends many who were girls.(oh btw the girls that I knew I flirted with them but it was mainly them making the moves I didn't know how to initiate it. Like I would feed off of them I wasn’t really in control I was like a toy in play pin to some degree, its hard to explain)
These people obviously saw something in myself that I didn't people had always said I had leadership qualities yet most of the time I was following someone else and being an entertainer. I thought I was just being myself blending in with everyone, usually agreeing with what they had to say just kind of passive yet still likeable.
Oh I had one girlfriend over Christmas break but she initiated the conversation an guess what the first thing she says was.... Hey last night I had a dream that we had SEX....WTF(my mind) so I talk to her hesitantly not knowing what to say and then I get her number. a week later we go out. new years eve come around we we're both on adarol she's horny and wants to fuuck.
So do I but I couldn't for the life of me work up the nerve to do so. Eventually we park at a Park and start making out in the car... She gets on top of me and we start kissing we were about to fuuck but we had to leave because people started showing up.....blah blah we go to a party her Ex shows up its awkward so we leave and I come home. 3 days later we break up, she says she wasn't fully over her ex.
I respond ok all I wanted was sex anyway.(even though I didn’t get it) Alright so cool I had a girlfriend sweet maybe I’m not so hopeless. After Aimee I had no other girlfriend....fuuck man what am I doing wrong I’ve got it all popular fun friends, attractive girls who are friends. I'm hanging out with these people so why aren’t I fuucking like my other guy friends were. OH shiit I know why its because I’m too skinny, so if I gain weight then I’ll be sure to get girls(or so I though) Well turns I worked out for awhile but wasn’t really determined so I stopped after a while.
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