KingWizard
Don Juan
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At first, i have no idea where to put this thread, so I decided to give it a shot at DJ discussion, peace!
To clarify before I start. Someone wise once said there are no normal people, everyone is a bit strange in his mind.
So, that's it. I am suffering from Bipolar Disorder 2 and some other things connected to it. U know, I have emotional rollercoaster, from depression to mania - basically it goes like :One month IM DA MAN OF THE YEAR and later I feel like I am being throwed at water without the skill to swim. Add overall derealization, and it sums me up perfectly
But I am not writing this to hear: keep it up, here is a cookie. That's a no no.
To the point, without going around the topic, the struggle made me better, harder and stronger (daft punk ref ;p). I am more open, straight forward, and grown a pair of balls. I used to make my struggle my best point, or at least one of it. Derealization makes me more confident, f.e. I see a girl somewhere, and there is nothing to HOLD ME FROM HITTING AT HER. Also when I am manic, my mind works at the highest possible gear. At some crucial moments, there was no problem to me, to bang a girls after 3 days of knowing each other.
But the topic is that, I am being mostly unpredictable, which seems to boost my flirt with girls. They are like : "ow, why are you so upped
and spazed?" My answer is often something confident, maybe ****y mixed with teasing said girl. They always give me the same look saying " wow, you are really complex, I want to crack you open and see what is going on inside of you". When my mood is going down, they are even more interested in my person, especially when I am having 3 different episodes in one week for example. It is like, they are confornted with 2 or even more different mindsets in one person. it goes like: seductive - ****y - confident - funny - smart - calm - sad - reflective - philosophical in the matter of a few days. Also thanks to my problems, I am far more mature and experienced compared to other high schoolers. I really think that being a walking suprise makes me more attractive to women. Or it s just the struggle that makes me better. "Without struggle, there is no progress " as said F.Douglas. I hope you can clarify things for me as you are WAY MORE EXPERIENCED.
Peace
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Again, sorry if it is hard to read, I am still learning how to format text properly :3
Lao Tzu — 'New Beginnings are often disguised as painful endings.'
To clarify before I start. Someone wise once said there are no normal people, everyone is a bit strange in his mind.
So, that's it. I am suffering from Bipolar Disorder 2 and some other things connected to it. U know, I have emotional rollercoaster, from depression to mania - basically it goes like :One month IM DA MAN OF THE YEAR and later I feel like I am being throwed at water without the skill to swim. Add overall derealization, and it sums me up perfectly
But I am not writing this to hear: keep it up, here is a cookie. That's a no no.
To the point, without going around the topic, the struggle made me better, harder and stronger (daft punk ref ;p). I am more open, straight forward, and grown a pair of balls. I used to make my struggle my best point, or at least one of it. Derealization makes me more confident, f.e. I see a girl somewhere, and there is nothing to HOLD ME FROM HITTING AT HER. Also when I am manic, my mind works at the highest possible gear. At some crucial moments, there was no problem to me, to bang a girls after 3 days of knowing each other.
But the topic is that, I am being mostly unpredictable, which seems to boost my flirt with girls. They are like : "ow, why are you so upped
and spazed?" My answer is often something confident, maybe ****y mixed with teasing said girl. They always give me the same look saying " wow, you are really complex, I want to crack you open and see what is going on inside of you". When my mood is going down, they are even more interested in my person, especially when I am having 3 different episodes in one week for example. It is like, they are confornted with 2 or even more different mindsets in one person. it goes like: seductive - ****y - confident - funny - smart - calm - sad - reflective - philosophical in the matter of a few days. Also thanks to my problems, I am far more mature and experienced compared to other high schoolers. I really think that being a walking suprise makes me more attractive to women. Or it s just the struggle that makes me better. "Without struggle, there is no progress " as said F.Douglas. I hope you can clarify things for me as you are WAY MORE EXPERIENCED.
Peace
_____________________________________
Again, sorry if it is hard to read, I am still learning how to format text properly :3
Lao Tzu — 'New Beginnings are often disguised as painful endings.'