spider_007
Master Don Juan
Ban me!!
The truth is, even tho I read the things on this forum from front to back, and back to front, im still stuck. I just don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I understand the principles and all, and some of the articles from bible I have almost memorized. But I just lack the practice and experience. And I can’t stand it. For the last four years I had so much responsibility (taking care of my family, school, full time work…) that I forgot how to have a social life and how to relax and enjoye life. Don’t get me wrong, I am a man with my own carrier, house (at 22), car and ambitions (unfortionatly I can’t afford hobbies). I get lots of respect from people I meet, and I don’t get those “what a geek” looks from people I pass on the street. There was even 3-4 times where absolute hotties would come up to me to talk to me. Hasn’t happened lately, but it has happened 3 or four times in my life. But the thing is, I don’t know what is wrong with me; I JUST DON’T KNOW HOW TO GET, AND KEEP A SOCIAL LIFE. No metter haw much I try, I stil have no friends. I still see 2 people from highschool now and then, but they have their lives, and gurls and im not invited or involved in any of it.….. Social life is everything. Going to clubs alone is stupid. Not knowing where the parties are, not being introduced to their “female friends”……I’m missing it all. It’s like highschool all over again.
The only way I can get some female wormth is if I pay $100 to a street ***** for that 30 seconds of plessure. It’s destroying my life.
So I decided I’m selling my soul. I’m gona be another one of those grumpy old men who at 40 years old still live with their mother; men who spend their entire lives with “their nose to the grind stone”. It’s making me revenge-full. It’s like life isn’t real anymore, I’m walking like a zombie.
BAN ME FROM THIS SITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The truth is, even tho I read the things on this forum from front to back, and back to front, im still stuck. I just don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I understand the principles and all, and some of the articles from bible I have almost memorized. But I just lack the practice and experience. And I can’t stand it. For the last four years I had so much responsibility (taking care of my family, school, full time work…) that I forgot how to have a social life and how to relax and enjoye life. Don’t get me wrong, I am a man with my own carrier, house (at 22), car and ambitions (unfortionatly I can’t afford hobbies). I get lots of respect from people I meet, and I don’t get those “what a geek” looks from people I pass on the street. There was even 3-4 times where absolute hotties would come up to me to talk to me. Hasn’t happened lately, but it has happened 3 or four times in my life. But the thing is, I don’t know what is wrong with me; I JUST DON’T KNOW HOW TO GET, AND KEEP A SOCIAL LIFE. No metter haw much I try, I stil have no friends. I still see 2 people from highschool now and then, but they have their lives, and gurls and im not invited or involved in any of it.….. Social life is everything. Going to clubs alone is stupid. Not knowing where the parties are, not being introduced to their “female friends”……I’m missing it all. It’s like highschool all over again.
The only way I can get some female wormth is if I pay $100 to a street ***** for that 30 seconds of plessure. It’s destroying my life.
So I decided I’m selling my soul. I’m gona be another one of those grumpy old men who at 40 years old still live with their mother; men who spend their entire lives with “their nose to the grind stone”. It’s making me revenge-full. It’s like life isn’t real anymore, I’m walking like a zombie.
BAN ME FROM THIS SITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!