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Don Juan
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- Jan 14, 2003
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at some point in our life, we have to stop, look around and at ourselves, and wonder "who am i?" This is more common for adolescents, who after years of trying to fit into a certain mold in highschool are finally being wrenched free by this thing called life. whats "popular" doesnt control anymore, or it isnt as appealing because it doesn’t yield the social benefits it did back in the small little worlds of high school. I don’t know why this isn’t stressed for juniors or seniors, but I never sat down to ask myself what I wanted out of life, where did I want to be down the road. Well, after years of living a life that wasn’t really mine, I started to panic and I didn’t know where I was going. Sure, maybe I had an idea scholastically, but where did I want to go from there? What was my purpose in life? What am I going to do with my short life, my last 20 years of youthful greatness before I settle down?
were asked what we want to be for the rest of our lives, where we want to go to college, and without any real preparation or thought were flung out into the real world, like a lost person in a stormy ocean.
with all the things on our plate, we don’t have time to just sit down and think, and go out and discover ourselves, our passions and dreams. I know I sure as hell didn’t, nor did I realize I needed to make the time. i look around at all the adults i see in my life, and i ask myself if thats the life i want. a life of mediocrity, conformity, a dream given up just to get by in life, or a dream never realized in the first place.
"someday, someday my dream will come."
one night youll wake up and youll discover it never happened.
its all turned around on you, it never was...
and suddenly, u are old
it didnt happen, never will
because you were never going to do it anyway.
you push it into memory then zone out on ur barcalounger
being hypnotized by daytime tv for the rest of ur life
(quote from collateral)
this frightens me, to almost beyond words. It scares me because it happens to almost EVERYONE, and yet most are blind to this death. Tom Cruise was right in calling this murder, for how is this living life? Knowing all that I know, the wealth of knowledge ive obtained from this site and other articles, I was still blind. Day after day went by, the same thing over and over. Study, work out, go on date or spend time with gf. And in the back of my mind, something was screaming “something isn’t right!!!!” yet I couldn’t hear it clearly, I just knew it was there. A few months of experimenting with the bootcamp, I made a ton of progress, and even with my successes, the dates, the girls, I knew something wasnt right but could never put my finger on it. I thought I was doing great… hell, I gave the bootcamp a good run, went on a lot of dates, made my oneities green with envy as I had my new gf with a nicer body crawling over me. What was I missing… I thought I had everything I wanted, and THAT was the problem. I made goals, however small, and I did what I needed to achieve them. But, I stopped there, and fell back into the regular beat of life. What if I stopped there? It took a movie to put things in perspective, as sad as that is.
well, let me be the first to say, how pathetic. somehow in my quest to become a better man i let women become the driving force in my life. How did my goals become so low? A women will NOT make you happy in life. A nice car will not, a nice house, high paying job, sharks with laser-beams attached to their heads (altho that would be kickass), nothing will make you completely happy unless your living the life you want to. How does this apply to djism? Well, I believe that a real don juan is just as happy when he doesn’t have a girl. He knows he can get one whenever he feels like, but his goals and aim in life goes way beyond that of getting between a girls thighs. If you can find something to live for, something you have a passion for, a dream, a goal, something to be ur driving force every morning, you will work that much harder, you will exhibit drive, motivation, confidence, you will have a burning passion in your eyes that will leave women weak in the knees and wet about a foot up. We need to aim so much higher then the opposite sex, yet the society we live in tells us otherwise. I look around, I see miserable people with strained smiles, looking for any excuse to brag about something just to give off the appearance of happiness. I see my friends desperately trying to get gf’s, and once they have one, they are content. This is not what I want in life, this isn’t what anyone on this website should want, and this sure as hell isn’t what a dj would want. To be content… were capable of so much more. Men have built cities, empires, men have gone to the moon and beyond. It is with our hands that we build our lives, or destroy them.
were asked what we want to be for the rest of our lives, where we want to go to college, and without any real preparation or thought were flung out into the real world, like a lost person in a stormy ocean.
with all the things on our plate, we don’t have time to just sit down and think, and go out and discover ourselves, our passions and dreams. I know I sure as hell didn’t, nor did I realize I needed to make the time. i look around at all the adults i see in my life, and i ask myself if thats the life i want. a life of mediocrity, conformity, a dream given up just to get by in life, or a dream never realized in the first place.
"someday, someday my dream will come."
one night youll wake up and youll discover it never happened.
its all turned around on you, it never was...
and suddenly, u are old
it didnt happen, never will
because you were never going to do it anyway.
you push it into memory then zone out on ur barcalounger
being hypnotized by daytime tv for the rest of ur life
(quote from collateral)
this frightens me, to almost beyond words. It scares me because it happens to almost EVERYONE, and yet most are blind to this death. Tom Cruise was right in calling this murder, for how is this living life? Knowing all that I know, the wealth of knowledge ive obtained from this site and other articles, I was still blind. Day after day went by, the same thing over and over. Study, work out, go on date or spend time with gf. And in the back of my mind, something was screaming “something isn’t right!!!!” yet I couldn’t hear it clearly, I just knew it was there. A few months of experimenting with the bootcamp, I made a ton of progress, and even with my successes, the dates, the girls, I knew something wasnt right but could never put my finger on it. I thought I was doing great… hell, I gave the bootcamp a good run, went on a lot of dates, made my oneities green with envy as I had my new gf with a nicer body crawling over me. What was I missing… I thought I had everything I wanted, and THAT was the problem. I made goals, however small, and I did what I needed to achieve them. But, I stopped there, and fell back into the regular beat of life. What if I stopped there? It took a movie to put things in perspective, as sad as that is.
well, let me be the first to say, how pathetic. somehow in my quest to become a better man i let women become the driving force in my life. How did my goals become so low? A women will NOT make you happy in life. A nice car will not, a nice house, high paying job, sharks with laser-beams attached to their heads (altho that would be kickass), nothing will make you completely happy unless your living the life you want to. How does this apply to djism? Well, I believe that a real don juan is just as happy when he doesn’t have a girl. He knows he can get one whenever he feels like, but his goals and aim in life goes way beyond that of getting between a girls thighs. If you can find something to live for, something you have a passion for, a dream, a goal, something to be ur driving force every morning, you will work that much harder, you will exhibit drive, motivation, confidence, you will have a burning passion in your eyes that will leave women weak in the knees and wet about a foot up. We need to aim so much higher then the opposite sex, yet the society we live in tells us otherwise. I look around, I see miserable people with strained smiles, looking for any excuse to brag about something just to give off the appearance of happiness. I see my friends desperately trying to get gf’s, and once they have one, they are content. This is not what I want in life, this isn’t what anyone on this website should want, and this sure as hell isn’t what a dj would want. To be content… were capable of so much more. Men have built cities, empires, men have gone to the moon and beyond. It is with our hands that we build our lives, or destroy them.
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