As a guy that missed out on it growing up, feel like its too late for me to be happy.

[aspiringbloomer]

Or satisfied.

I managed to finish high school and college as a virgin due to my difficult circumstances. These days I feel like even if I was to go on some wild run where I was sleeping with 50+ girls a year, the past will always bite at me. It's like I will never be happy in life due to all the fun I missed out on growing up. The power of young love, date nights with my girl, and having sex during spring breaks. It is like no matter what I do, I won't be able to find happiness...

 

[skinnyguy]

It's all perspective my friend. You're doing much better than a person in poverty on Africa

 

[aspiringbloomer]

It's all perspective my friend. You're doing much better than a person in poverty on Africa

I thought about this, how can some people in third world countries be so happy by having much less? Then I found that for years I have had this bull**** hookup culture drilled into my head to where it has ****ed me up beyond repair. It is like no matter what I do, I constantly think about getting a lot of *****. It is not even about the sex itself as much as it is about earning validation through sex. I want to be the hugh hefner but I know that I will never find happiness in that. Even though I will never find happiness in it, my ego has been crushed by being a sexless loser in college to where I feel like I need to have needless sex with as many women as possible. It is like I have to do it but I won't find happiness in it.

I can't change the past but I am afraid that the past has hurt me so much to where I can't move forward either...

 

[jurry]

The mind cannot find or attain happiness and satisfaction; it keeps digging and digging in this or that direction but cannot be happy. It is good that you realize that a material life of xyz accomplishments and xyz sexual encounters will not fulfill you, otherwise you'd spend the rest of your life chasing an illusion.

What is the problem? The past is gone, or rather it never was. All we have is now. Go do what you want to do, no excuses.

 

[BraddH]

Just an excuse.