I am.
Since I remember, I haven´t resembled people from my age group. Mind wise. I´ve always related to older people. The age gap between me and my ¨friends¨ has continuously grown.
When I first came to Sosuave, I felt in heaven. First, because of the information. Then, because of the people. People who were like me.
But now, it just doesn´t do it for me. Not even the Anything Else forum. Though, don´t get me wrong, I prefer being here than ...watching tv, talking to really average joe´s, etc.
I feel like if it´s like family, we´re really educated the same way, but we part ways.
As time passes, I see how different I am from people. And I get more different each day. People just don´t want to get better, grow. And I´m a very social person. I suppose that´s what affects me the most. I like company. I like talking. But I like to relate to people like me.
And I do my best to focus on myself. On my growth, in everyway I can. On succeeding everyday. Apparently, great minds, greaat people, have been/are lonely. But, man, I don´t want to be lonely. I would say, that, it shouldn´t have to be a woman who I coould relate to, I´d settle with a man-friend. But I won´t, I want a woman that I can relate to.
I was thinking. Is company, nothing more than company? Is a friend simply someone who loves you? Is a woman someone who is there for you, loves you, saatisfies you, is faithful. But nothing more? Not some kind of pseudo mirror.
Is this just a case of reality checkup? Have I just seen that when one grows, one grows apart, from people? And one should look for loyalty from friends, and from women, beauty, loyalty, but not a kind of brother?
I´ve grown. And continue to do so. Loneliness is not something I look forward to. But, it´d be better to be prepared, and know what to look for, (in life). If company IS nothing more than company, I choose to continue growing. Because if company is nothing but company... why should I want to be stop, go back, and get stuck with people who won´t make me better? I want to get better.
Pook (if you type Pook in your messages, Pook will look that message). And Pook being someone who I believe is greaat, surely has been throughh this.
Since I remember, I haven´t resembled people from my age group. Mind wise. I´ve always related to older people. The age gap between me and my ¨friends¨ has continuously grown.
When I first came to Sosuave, I felt in heaven. First, because of the information. Then, because of the people. People who were like me.
But now, it just doesn´t do it for me. Not even the Anything Else forum. Though, don´t get me wrong, I prefer being here than ...watching tv, talking to really average joe´s, etc.
I feel like if it´s like family, we´re really educated the same way, but we part ways.
As time passes, I see how different I am from people. And I get more different each day. People just don´t want to get better, grow. And I´m a very social person. I suppose that´s what affects me the most. I like company. I like talking. But I like to relate to people like me.
And I do my best to focus on myself. On my growth, in everyway I can. On succeeding everyday. Apparently, great minds, greaat people, have been/are lonely. But, man, I don´t want to be lonely. I would say, that, it shouldn´t have to be a woman who I coould relate to, I´d settle with a man-friend. But I won´t, I want a woman that I can relate to.
I was thinking. Is company, nothing more than company? Is a friend simply someone who loves you? Is a woman someone who is there for you, loves you, saatisfies you, is faithful. But nothing more? Not some kind of pseudo mirror.
Is this just a case of reality checkup? Have I just seen that when one grows, one grows apart, from people? And one should look for loyalty from friends, and from women, beauty, loyalty, but not a kind of brother?
I´ve grown. And continue to do so. Loneliness is not something I look forward to. But, it´d be better to be prepared, and know what to look for, (in life). If company IS nothing more than company, I choose to continue growing. Because if company is nothing but company... why should I want to be stop, go back, and get stuck with people who won´t make me better? I want to get better.
Pook (if you type Pook in your messages, Pook will look that message). And Pook being someone who I believe is greaat, surely has been throughh this.
