Damn, looking back at 2007 (or was it 06) when I first joined SoSuave (diff name), it's incredible to remember the mindset I had, the hope, the excitement, the innocence and joy. I always loved this forum, and came back to it from time to time, but it's a damn shame I couldn't follow or remember all the lessons and advice I learned as time went by. Had a few serious relationships along the way of course, and um, the most recent one (from 2018) put me in jail 1 year later in 2019. I sat there in the county (and later prison for the last 1.5 yrs out of 3) and as I turned 30, 31, 32, (33 in a few weeks), each birthday felt as if I was awakening into a new phase of life - a phase that was supposed to have been my righteous proper life all along, but wasn't because of a few bad choices along the way and not listening to my heart (drugs, toxic gf, gambling) - and so the last 3 years were the most profound and elucidating years I have ever had, or at least that I can remember.
I was locked up for domestic, and she knew she did it on purpose, and by the time she felt contrite it was too late because here in California, the DAs makes sure that all men suffer, especially if a woman was involved. And thus no charges were ever dropped - I got blessed with a lawyer 10 months into my lockup thanks to a family member. Had to take a deal, and so I sat until September of this year, got out 2 months ago yes. Yes I saw crazy **** go down and there's a bunch I can write but I am not getting into that.
I have a new love for life. All I care about is focusing on earning money now and loving myself. You really learn a lot when you have to be isolated from the world and left with nothing at all but some books and barely enough food to get by. You become calm, and realistic, reflective of every single mistake ever made, and deflective of any bull**** that comes your way. You really know what counts now. If the actual experience wasn't so horrible, pathetic and dangerous, I would damn near recommend it (so just do this at home). It was nuts... my life now is, just, weird I suppose. I am at ground zero right now financially, but I am great mentally, and I am trying to get back up there physically, but I am extremely motivated to win now, at all costs. Women are pointless to be honest, and it's funny that I ever put them in first place. I love them to death, no doubt, but they will always be there for you when you really need it. Make no mistake, the most important person in life is YOU. And your freedom should be your ultimate priority in life.