To get straight to the point: After so many times of hitting rock bottom re: episodes dealing with drinking way too much, I feel as if it finally needs to stop.
Over the past two days I have put myself and others in danger, and self-sabotaged a great budding relationship by getting way too drunk. The pattern there is that every relationship I've been in, I've destroyed because of alcohol (friendships as well) and I've encountered too many dangerous situations. I've stopped drinking before for a year and a half and I'm definitely a different person now and think that I can accept it better.
For the most part, I know I can eventually be around people drinking, be in bars, and go to parties, without falling into the relapse pattern. My question to anyone who has become sober is this: how has it impacted your life socially both w/ friends and women. I know true friends and women, who like you for you, won't care if you don't drink, however, in the past I have felt that if you tell someone you don't drink or are an alcoholic it has almost become a turn-off. I've had so much fun sitting around drinking with my buddies, and I loved drinking wine with GF's or going out and drinking beer that I wonder how it will all be different.
The sad thing is that alcohol, ever since 9th grade, has always been a way for me to shed insecurities and be a different person - someone from 1-3 beers can who can be the life of the party and everyone loves to drink with. However, past 3 beers, things start to change for the worse. Even in some "safe/happy" black out episodes, I would hear things like "holy ****, you were so much fun, you were so funny last night etc". However, I would be so depressed about the way I acted. And then of course there are the episodes where you get the dreaded call that says "do you know what you did last night?"
At the end of the day though I know I have to do what is right for me and all else will fall into place. I'd love to hear anyone else's experience with this.
Over the past two days I have put myself and others in danger, and self-sabotaged a great budding relationship by getting way too drunk. The pattern there is that every relationship I've been in, I've destroyed because of alcohol (friendships as well) and I've encountered too many dangerous situations. I've stopped drinking before for a year and a half and I'm definitely a different person now and think that I can accept it better.
For the most part, I know I can eventually be around people drinking, be in bars, and go to parties, without falling into the relapse pattern. My question to anyone who has become sober is this: how has it impacted your life socially both w/ friends and women. I know true friends and women, who like you for you, won't care if you don't drink, however, in the past I have felt that if you tell someone you don't drink or are an alcoholic it has almost become a turn-off. I've had so much fun sitting around drinking with my buddies, and I loved drinking wine with GF's or going out and drinking beer that I wonder how it will all be different.
The sad thing is that alcohol, ever since 9th grade, has always been a way for me to shed insecurities and be a different person - someone from 1-3 beers can who can be the life of the party and everyone loves to drink with. However, past 3 beers, things start to change for the worse. Even in some "safe/happy" black out episodes, I would hear things like "holy ****, you were so much fun, you were so funny last night etc". However, I would be so depressed about the way I acted. And then of course there are the episodes where you get the dreaded call that says "do you know what you did last night?"
At the end of the day though I know I have to do what is right for me and all else will fall into place. I'd love to hear anyone else's experience with this.