Hey guys sorry for the long post but I really really need some insight,
So just when I literally thought my life was perfect and I had everything I could ask for (and in the search for more), it seems that anxiety took over my life. Like a light switch it came back (had a mild case of depression in highschool and have always been a slight worrier, but I never let it rule my life). My girlfriend says she doesn't really see a change in me, but my parents have witnessed these panic/anxiety attacks. I can't focus, I feel like the world flies by around me and I'm always tired. It's an odd feeling, almost like I'm not actually here mentally just physically. My personality remains nearly unchanged, just my focus, vision and LACK OF CLARITY (<---Huge part of it) make me worry. At first blood work showed elevated thyroid, kidney and liver so I had to stop workout supplements (causing me to loose hard earned weight). Then after stopping supplements the bloodwork came back normal, leaving it to the mental department.
Therapist thinks it is the beginning of anxiety/depression and thinks that even a change like going back to college after the summer at home could help me to get better (this started upon returned back to the parents). I constantly worry subconsciously about every move I make with my girlfriend and fear that these issues could effect us (even though she said nothing is different and I could probably agree- the relationship is phenomenal and she hasn't heard of my issues in a month or so). It makes me feel like an AFC again sometimes...
Overall, I want to stay away from meds as long as possible. Has anyone experienced this before? Fought through it? Took the meds? Side effects? Make things better or worse? Any help would be amazing guys I really appreciate it, it's a tough time in my life.
Things that could be stressing me out if it helps:
-Semi long distance with my girlfriend who is a solid 9 and in my mind undeniably worth it(It's been great at 2.5 hours away I see her once every 2 weeks or even more often, and she will be local to me for a month in her apartment which will be nice, then I return to school, which is actually only 1.5 hours away so even easier than before.)
-Work a desk job (I hate it sometimes) selling insurance
-Getting my first apartment
-Fraternity life
-Increased workload of Soph Year coming
-Paying A FEW of my bills
I guess I've beaten it before and I can again, but anything helps guys
Much love and much appreciated--
Jake
So just when I literally thought my life was perfect and I had everything I could ask for (and in the search for more), it seems that anxiety took over my life. Like a light switch it came back (had a mild case of depression in highschool and have always been a slight worrier, but I never let it rule my life). My girlfriend says she doesn't really see a change in me, but my parents have witnessed these panic/anxiety attacks. I can't focus, I feel like the world flies by around me and I'm always tired. It's an odd feeling, almost like I'm not actually here mentally just physically. My personality remains nearly unchanged, just my focus, vision and LACK OF CLARITY (<---Huge part of it) make me worry. At first blood work showed elevated thyroid, kidney and liver so I had to stop workout supplements (causing me to loose hard earned weight). Then after stopping supplements the bloodwork came back normal, leaving it to the mental department.
Therapist thinks it is the beginning of anxiety/depression and thinks that even a change like going back to college after the summer at home could help me to get better (this started upon returned back to the parents). I constantly worry subconsciously about every move I make with my girlfriend and fear that these issues could effect us (even though she said nothing is different and I could probably agree- the relationship is phenomenal and she hasn't heard of my issues in a month or so). It makes me feel like an AFC again sometimes...
Overall, I want to stay away from meds as long as possible. Has anyone experienced this before? Fought through it? Took the meds? Side effects? Make things better or worse? Any help would be amazing guys I really appreciate it, it's a tough time in my life.
Things that could be stressing me out if it helps:
-Semi long distance with my girlfriend who is a solid 9 and in my mind undeniably worth it(It's been great at 2.5 hours away I see her once every 2 weeks or even more often, and she will be local to me for a month in her apartment which will be nice, then I return to school, which is actually only 1.5 hours away so even easier than before.)
-Work a desk job (I hate it sometimes) selling insurance
-Getting my first apartment
-Fraternity life
-Increased workload of Soph Year coming
-Paying A FEW of my bills
I guess I've beaten it before and I can again, but anything helps guys
Much love and much appreciated--
Jake