What is with all these oneitis posts popping up recently. To the poster of this thread, you've been a visitor of this website since 2003, why are you still experiancing oneitis? Have you been practicing anything that you've read?
No don't tell the broad how you feel, you've had the chance to do that in the past and you didn't do it. Now she's married and is starting a family, don't wreck that for her. You've made a mistake in not making a move on her, don't make the mistake again with other girls. Never hesistate when it comes to personal happyness.
Right now you feel like you've hit rock bottom. GOOD! This will only make you stronger in the longrun. Put away the booze, turn off that slow music, and THINK. Think of all the things that you thought of everytime you hesistated to hook up with this broad. Think of every mistake you made, write them down, memorize them, and NEVER do them again.
Learn from this sh!t, be a man, move on, date other women, and live your OWN life to its fullest. Fvck the past, you got tommorow to worry about.