Broken_Warrior
New Member
First of, let me apologise for my bad grammer, syntax, spelling and basic written english etc..
This is my first post on here after reading so many threads on dating and LTR. My experience have been a traumatic one for me as a man and especially when I held on until she ended it. Maybe it was excuses maybe it was reasons but here goes.
Tomorrow will be the 5th year anniversay although it no longer exists, I have been with her through thick and thin, but for some strange reason she keeps dumping me and coming back it was really draning me because every time she does, the love for her went down...FAST.
What happened is the fact that my EVIL step-father kicked me out of the house because I couldn't get a job, though no fault of my own as no-one wants to hire me or I don't meet their specifications or I'm over-qualified now the thing is she use to come over and stay with me for the day until night.
I cook for her, I bought her clothes, take her out, have sex, talk, watch films
and documentaries...right?
Doing all of this while trying to look for a job wasn't easy because sometimes I'm just too tired to take her home plus tidying the house and making her lunch before she arrives.
This is BEFORE I was kicked out by the EVIL step-father, I took her at her worst times but now she couldn't do that with me, what happened?
I ended up staying at a relatives' trying to get a job with no success, and the red flags with my female counterparts of the family was gleaming red all over. All of my cousin's relationships were bad or is bad and they always talk about each other behind their backs
"She is trying to steal my man etc"
"Or everybody always leave me" etc etc
Now my woman ( at the time) wanted to visit me fine, no problem. Then she insisted of wanting to stay. I suggested she should visit around her own family here and there to keep her mind occupied and clear. They don't live that far from my relatives of whom I was staying with, She didn't listen to me.
The house was full of children also and my auntie and cousins NEVER take them out to play games which was stressing me out and her also, we were both drained by being there. I was on the laptop like crazy, trying to look for work, appllying for jobs, making phone calls. It got her upset because I wasn't spending much time with her.
But she knows I'm homeless, broke and jobless. Before I was just jobless.
Here comes the BOMB I knew that would happen ~breathe~
She got upset by the fact I was spending time with my cousin ( female), it was ten years since I last saw my relatives so I wanted to catch up, I was telling her
"When we have our place. WE will spend a huge amount of time together sorting things out"
I also told her about me and my cousin's bondship if you're upset about it talk to her.
She told me "Why should I?"
I left it at that, while my cousin picked up on my ex's bad vibes, takes it out on me.
"Why didn't you tell me?"
I left it at that, the whole fvcking family got involved in this argument just standing by listening. Cut a long argument and story short.
They have sorted out their differences but my ex was still ANGRY at me, the next few mornings she don't say anything to me blantantly turn her face.
They have their girl talk then my ex comes to me telling me that my cousin has said bad things about me. I was upset and it showed but a few moments after I didn't care as we was striving to get our own place then she says the unthinkable.
"I will ALWAYS love you"
The next day she went back to London, spoke to my mum on the phone telling her that she was going to get a job and help me and my mum get a place for us. She told me that on the phone too. I thought that is a great idea.
The next day comes the text "I don't love you anymore"
She had 6 homes to call home, equivelant to a mansion
1. her dad's flat.
2. Her mum's house.
3. Her sister's house in Bedford.
4. Her other sister's house in Bedford.
5. My aunties house in Luton ( the drama place)
6. My Auntie's house in Birmingham ( Where I currently staying looking for work)
Still she wasn't happy, even when I was't homeless, she always find a way or an excuse to be unhappy. I'm ALWAYS there for her at her worst times.
She wasn 't there for me at my WORST, I couldn't stop smoking due to the stress, I'm also a bit of insomniac due to my situation also.
So I'm always goig to bed late, but when I wasn't homeless, when we was together it was great we both went out looking for work, kicked ball, did a lot of walking etc...
but for some reason her dad's car ALWAYS breaks down.
She always seem to point the finger at me why she don't love me anymore.
I need some advice on this one, I've never been a player and I've had my share of women, when I was in my late teens I had offers like crazy.
But there was something not right about my generation of females
( late 20's-30), I think its called
Immaturity and ungratefulness.
From ALL the rejections and being stood up to this.
I will NEVER love another woman again. Only companionship and sex if it is an LTR. I will not allow her or them to say those three nasty words to me and then turn around and run when reality hits their fvcking face.
What wisdom do you guys have to share and what do you think of my situatiton?
This is my first post on here after reading so many threads on dating and LTR. My experience have been a traumatic one for me as a man and especially when I held on until she ended it. Maybe it was excuses maybe it was reasons but here goes.
Tomorrow will be the 5th year anniversay although it no longer exists, I have been with her through thick and thin, but for some strange reason she keeps dumping me and coming back it was really draning me because every time she does, the love for her went down...FAST.
What happened is the fact that my EVIL step-father kicked me out of the house because I couldn't get a job, though no fault of my own as no-one wants to hire me or I don't meet their specifications or I'm over-qualified now the thing is she use to come over and stay with me for the day until night.
I cook for her, I bought her clothes, take her out, have sex, talk, watch films
and documentaries...right?
Doing all of this while trying to look for a job wasn't easy because sometimes I'm just too tired to take her home plus tidying the house and making her lunch before she arrives.
This is BEFORE I was kicked out by the EVIL step-father, I took her at her worst times but now she couldn't do that with me, what happened?
I ended up staying at a relatives' trying to get a job with no success, and the red flags with my female counterparts of the family was gleaming red all over. All of my cousin's relationships were bad or is bad and they always talk about each other behind their backs
"She is trying to steal my man etc"
"Or everybody always leave me" etc etc
Now my woman ( at the time) wanted to visit me fine, no problem. Then she insisted of wanting to stay. I suggested she should visit around her own family here and there to keep her mind occupied and clear. They don't live that far from my relatives of whom I was staying with, She didn't listen to me.
The house was full of children also and my auntie and cousins NEVER take them out to play games which was stressing me out and her also, we were both drained by being there. I was on the laptop like crazy, trying to look for work, appllying for jobs, making phone calls. It got her upset because I wasn't spending much time with her.
But she knows I'm homeless, broke and jobless. Before I was just jobless.
Here comes the BOMB I knew that would happen ~breathe~
She got upset by the fact I was spending time with my cousin ( female), it was ten years since I last saw my relatives so I wanted to catch up, I was telling her
"When we have our place. WE will spend a huge amount of time together sorting things out"
I also told her about me and my cousin's bondship if you're upset about it talk to her.
She told me "Why should I?"
I left it at that, while my cousin picked up on my ex's bad vibes, takes it out on me.
"Why didn't you tell me?"
I left it at that, the whole fvcking family got involved in this argument just standing by listening. Cut a long argument and story short.
They have sorted out their differences but my ex was still ANGRY at me, the next few mornings she don't say anything to me blantantly turn her face.
They have their girl talk then my ex comes to me telling me that my cousin has said bad things about me. I was upset and it showed but a few moments after I didn't care as we was striving to get our own place then she says the unthinkable.
"I will ALWAYS love you"
The next day she went back to London, spoke to my mum on the phone telling her that she was going to get a job and help me and my mum get a place for us. She told me that on the phone too. I thought that is a great idea.
The next day comes the text "I don't love you anymore"
She had 6 homes to call home, equivelant to a mansion
1. her dad's flat.
2. Her mum's house.
3. Her sister's house in Bedford.
4. Her other sister's house in Bedford.
5. My aunties house in Luton ( the drama place)
6. My Auntie's house in Birmingham ( Where I currently staying looking for work)
Still she wasn't happy, even when I was't homeless, she always find a way or an excuse to be unhappy. I'm ALWAYS there for her at her worst times.
She wasn 't there for me at my WORST, I couldn't stop smoking due to the stress, I'm also a bit of insomniac due to my situation also.
So I'm always goig to bed late, but when I wasn't homeless, when we was together it was great we both went out looking for work, kicked ball, did a lot of walking etc...
but for some reason her dad's car ALWAYS breaks down.
She always seem to point the finger at me why she don't love me anymore.
I need some advice on this one, I've never been a player and I've had my share of women, when I was in my late teens I had offers like crazy.
But there was something not right about my generation of females
( late 20's-30), I think its called
Immaturity and ungratefulness.
From ALL the rejections and being stood up to this.
I will NEVER love another woman again. Only companionship and sex if it is an LTR. I will not allow her or them to say those three nasty words to me and then turn around and run when reality hits their fvcking face.
What wisdom do you guys have to share and what do you think of my situatiton?
