After 2 years of being away from sosuave, sleeping with women, i come back heart brok

[dDasaniWater]

Well...

3 months ago, I met this girl.

Talked to her for 3 days, spit some strong game, She actually begin to like me, although she was a lesbian, she wanted to try out my d1ck. We were talking about having a one night stand so she could get a feeling of wat d1ck feels like..but As I got to know her it was no longer a game, i didnt see her as a potential fck, i saw her as relationship material. , she was honestly I felt, the one girl in this world, who was trustworthy, had a beautiful heart, and was honest.

We really started to liek eachother we decided to meet, I met her about 4 days later. When we met, we ended up kissing very passionately, I just felt the connection, I felt alive, I felt something i havent felt in years.. I felt like she was the one... maybe you guys could relate, when u just meet that one girl who is just different, and almost perfect. So that very same day, I asked her to be my girlfriend, she was very happy, she said yes.

she just brought the other side of me, the sweet side, call me AFC, but we felt like we were in love just after 1 month of being together, we talked all the time, we couldnt get enough of eachother, i just saw myself being with her for the rest of my life. And as an added bonus, the sex was the best sex ive had in my life. No joke, she would come an average of 8-10 times a single night. It was amazing thing to see and feel.....I often acted really afc, made me think how im acting like a ***** broke my own rules all the time, because i felt she was different... HA!!!!!

about a month into our relationship, her best friend, found out we were going out... Uh oh.. She got very jealous, lied to her, told her i was cheating etc etc. She actually believed her, she cried, broke up with me, i told her the truth, got her back the very same night. We made up, now we felt more closer together, because we got a glimpse of what it would feel like to be without eachother, so we fell more in love.

Now here comes the twist, the unexpected event..... What breaks us apart.

So 2 days ago, I noticed this guy (whome i know of, they always text eachother, i never thought anything much of it, she told me they were just old frends, i believed her.) was posting a lot of picture comments on her myspace, sayingf she was sexy hott etc etc, I didnt see it as a big deal, except for two things. #1, he was her friend, but he lived in another state, #2, he commented ...every...single...one of those pictures....with flirting...

So i got suspicious, and i had enough experience to know something was going on, because lately things just were as they usually were....

I was going to just brush it off my shoulders because after all, I cant be insecure, i trust her, shes not like anybody else, besides i have to be confident in myself, and for fck sakes, he lives in california.,,, right?? NOPE.

Dasani WAter got the best of me. I wanted to get to the bottom of this. I created a fake AOL instant messenger screen name, posed as a girl, and contacted the guy on msn, asking about them both.

I found out...

They both have a serious crush on eachother...
they both would be with eachother if they lived close to eachother....
They often tell eachother how much they miss one another, and how much they like one another .... Although they never went out in the past, he was never a boyfriend, this i know for a fact. they began liking eacother as of lately... when... we were together?? Who knows.. makes me wonder a lot of things, like if i was just a good boy toy, or someone she could be with until the mean time, i dont know... but everything was very real between us, this i knew, she meant everything she told me.

So anyways, right after i found this out, i called her that same very night, i confronted her about it.....About whats going on between him and her...She said nothing, theyre just friends.....This shocked me....She lied to me....I really thought she was different, Mistake ?? I repeated myself, and asked her again, and told her not to BS me, till finally, she admitted to it all being true..
THis shocked me again!! (I thought she loved me, i thought she wasnt a cheater, SHE hated cheaters?) And im also shocked because she was a lesbian, i thought i was the only guy she could ever like (like she told me)

Guys, believe me.. im not a tool, its not like i got fooled and played.. I really know she was being real with me when we went out...

So i began to talk with her, telling her how really fkcd up this is, how soooooo Fcking dissapointed i am in her, how i really never saw this coming from her in a million years....

She began to sugar cote the whole fcking thing, another thing I couldnt believe, she was actually making me feel like the bad guy.

she said "its not like it was a big deal we're just texting, and its just a little crush im sure you talk to other girls all the time you know i always have a doubt in my head that u might do that---" I cut her off, and i asked her that is bs, how can she base something that what she might THINK, and do it herself, and be a total hypocrite , and to make her feel okay about doing it.. REdiculous...

I asked her, if she was in my position, and she found this out, how would she feel,,, honestly?? She said she would feel really hurt, like I didnt care about her at all... BINGO... , I told her thats how i felt.

And i asked her, if she was in my positon, what she would do about this? she didnt know what to say...

I began talking very logically with her, telling her that how can she say she loves me , if she did this,,, and i asked her how she felt about me, if she truely loved me, i wanted to her be completely honest with me, i told her not to bull**** me now, i asked her if she didnt love me then thers no point in us being together, because its just a waste of time, and if she truely loved me, and was serious about everything she said, spending the rest of her life with me, then we can work this out, i can forgive her, becaus after all they were just text messages.. I told her it wasnt a big deal girls do it to have fun blah blah blah, but what bothered me was that she did this behind my back..

then after me explaining all these things from a logical point of view, about our relationship, i asked her again if she thinks she loves me. She said no. She said she just cares about me a lot. And i asked her if she wanted to end this realtionship, she began to cry.. And she said yes. I was shocked..I began to tell her over and over, that it makes no sense for her to cry if she wants to break up with me, because it means she still cares, and we should be together. I told her it was okay if we didnt love eachoter right now, we been only together 3 months, that we can stay together and how we could possibly grow love in the future like a normal couple does. I kept trying to convince her otherwise, because I didnt wanna lose a girl that still cared about me if i didnt have to.

I felt like she was forcing herself to break up with me, not something she wanted to do, cuz she was crying as she did it. I tried to talk to her, work things out... But she wasnt having it.. Very srange, i honestly dont understand why a girl would break up with a guy and crry over it like she doesnt want to.

But she told me she just dosent see us having a future together, and she told me "honestly, im really afraid of commitment", she is only 18 years old after all...i began to try and convince her otherwise, no luck, she stuck to what she had said, still crying... i told her that if she really means what she says, then thers no point in us talking ,, to just hang up on the phone already... she told me she was sorry for hurting me, and how its best FOR me that she does this, because she said she thinks shes not good enough for me.. AGAIN... woman playing stupid games??? Hearing this , made me feel like i didnt have to lose her over something stupid, cuz i still loved her!! So i tried to win her back, didnt work.. she ended up hanging up on me... crying and all..

I was goign to let her go... But i said got damnit if i love her i can get her back and work this out, i called her back, said the same sh1t i was saying, then she replied, " I really really think we should just move on", i thought to myself, wow, wat a fkcing *****, **** her. And i replied, "ok" and i hung up.

she messaged me on msn, telling me thnks for being there for her blah blah blah, i replied in a afc message and said "your welcome, im not mad, i mean i tried everything i could, this is your choice", and i logged off..

I havent talked to her since..

I feel a bit sad, but i think i will be okay.... Hopefully..



Now guys, Im not writing this because im looking for advice to win her back. Im not talking to her ever again, i learned my lesson in the past. I know better now.

The reason i post this is, could someone shed some light on me on wtf this is all about?? I dont understand, if she cares about me a lot, more than anyone else in her life, even that dumb fck she has a crush on, because i know theyre not going to hook up any time soon they live too damn far apart... I dont understand how she can break up with me, obviously its not what she wanted, she was crying.. I dont get it.. sh1t like this makes me mad... Makes me wonder what her deal is... has this ever happened to you guys?? whats your thoughts on this whole situation?? and id appreciate it if u could help me feel better,, because i honestly thought she was different, now im back to thinking again, all women are wh0res and all the same and i will never find that special someone and settle down in my life, i know im young, 20, and i shouldnt worry about that, right now, it just sucks to go through this.. i honestly hope that she will become like any other girl in the past and i will find someone a lot more special, but i doubt it,, but i doubted it back then, and i did, but who knows

 

[Warrior74]

You know what happened. You said it yourself. You don't need any advice from us. You just need to reread your post a million times until it sinks in. You broke the rules. You deluded yourself that she was "different", you symped out and she acted accordingly. Nothing new or shocking or deep about it. Plus she's 18. What did you expect?

 

[dDasaniWater]

Hey thanks for the quick reply... Maybe your right... I just dont see it. I dont see how i deluded myself , i dont see how these rules mattered with her... If you were in my shoes with her you would understand, but listen, I also have the feeling that those are just my emotions talking. And this is just me again 2 years ago, head all clouded, and i dont want to realize the truth that she was just like any other girl... but she is.... i probably will see the damn truth when i am over this episode, how i fcked up and all....

But i notice your from zenmack, having that in your sig really makes me respect your advice. Because i learned the game from playersupreme, if you have his email by any chance, can you pm it to me, i really want to talk to him, he remembers me as this afc kid, and since we talked and i been thru a sh1t load of things, things he would be damn proud of and amazed of, so i want to let him know all that, and i want to also get his advice on this.. thanks warrior.. Wait, actually, i cant find my inbox, i guess i dont have one.. can you write it here, long enough i can write it down, and delete it if its not supposed to be known...

 

[Igetit!]

Dude,I can tell that your new here. I guess I shouldn't be so hard on you,after all,I was this clueless when I was in my early 20s as well. It's still hard to believe you don't realize what happened here. I agree with Warrior74. Just reread your post. All the "enlightenment" and understanding you're seeking is ALREADY there. If you read it over again and you still can't see what was going on,then maybe myself or one of the other members here can break it down for you to help you better understand.

 

[Vlad the Impaler]

You said it yourself, you became AFC.

That's why she left you. If I were you, I'd send her to that guy and wish them well and tell her she's making a huge mistake.

Never go AFC. NEVER! Chalk this one up. Time to forget about her.

 

[dDasaniWater]

Believe me, I know a lot about the game. I know right from wrong, I know enough that I should have been able to avoid this no problem. But see, its a bit hard to give myself advice, i mean, im sure if i read this from another person, i would kno exactly everthin that happened like a damn scientist. But because its me, i cant help myself, because my head is clouded right now.... Its not that simple... I cant see things logically for what it is myself when its happened to me., especially when i had a lot of feelings.. or maybe i dont want to see it .. who knows..


Ahhh.. I see what you guys are talking about, when i acted AFC... God.. I felt, she wasnt the typical girl that needs that sort of thing to get sprung off me. I thought my d1ck was enough to get her sprung, and i thought i could be myself without any fear..beause stupid me.. i thought she was different.. I know shes not different.. but its really hard for me and try to believe that.. im trying to though..

First girl in 2 years I actually got feelings for. Every girl between that I didnt have a single care for, not one bit..It made me feel empty thinking i would never "like" a girl again, that ive seen the game for what it is and there is no girl out there, no such thing as a soul mate.. I guess i got what i what iwas looking for ...and deserved this...


The one thing i cant understand is why she cried when she was breaking up with me.........

 

[Igetit!]

Ahhh.. I see what you guys are talking about, when i acted AFC... God.. I felt, she wasnt the typical girl that needs that sort of thing to get sprung off me.

Oh,so you finally see it. That's right,you were AFC. Being needy,clingy,and insecure is a turnoff to anyone,straight,lesbian,or otherwise. And what do you mean about her not needing "that sort of thing"? Not needing what? A man who's strong? Confident? Has self-respect? What,you thought because she wasn't "typical" that you could act and behave inferior with insecurity and she'd be ok with it?

I thought my d1ck was enough to get her sprung

Now this is going on my "TOP TEN" list of the dumbest things I seen here on this forum. And you being a former member here should know better than this.

First girl in 2 years I actually got feelings for. Every girl between that I didnt have a single care for, not one bit..It made me feel empty thinking i would never "like" a girl again, that ive seen the game for what it is and there is no girl out there, no such thing as a soul mate.. I guess i got what i what iwas looking for ...and deserved this...

Now don't be too hard on yourself,that's my job . Every guy has falling into this illusion of the "perfect,she's not like other girls" dream state at one point or another.

The one thing i cant understand is why she cried when she was breaking up with me.........

She cried because breakup are painful,but at the same time,she was unhappy in the relationship.
That's why as painful as it was for her to do,she decided to move on.

 

[dDasaniWater]

Oh...my ...God...Got damnit.....Youre fcking right.. I see it now!!! :'(

Holy fck... man..... I feel really stupid.. because I am a real man. I acted like a complete fool. I even knew i was..

I told her i was, i told her this is not who i am, that i make myself feel so pvssy when i talk to her, and that i cant help myself... how i just love her, and she said she didnt think i was being pvssy (afc) at all, that she loved me.

I swear.. To never again.. no matter who the fck i meet next.. even if its my damn soulmate... i wont turn lame to the game.

I didnt act like a REAL man when i felt something for her, something i didnt think i would ever feel again, after being with 8 girls before her, feeling empty, having them all in the palm of my hand... then i run into this one and i feel something different. i think shes special..and it changes me for the worst

So i act different... Im mad now.. at myself.. i cant believe i ruined something that could have possibly been great, on my own part, my own mistakes,, when its not even me in the first place... when she didnt see the real prize in me.. i idnt show her... i was too focused on her....

Bad luck.................. its funny how things work out this way, with girls and all, how they cant just see the good in you, the fact that your sweet etc etc. and just appreciate that. like we can in a woman.......

Its not that like im all crazy bout her, and she wasnt, what bothers me is that I really believed her when she said she was on the same level as me, that she was as in love with me as i am.. i still cant believe she let me go. i thought i could never lose her... i was so confident in myself that i thought i could act like a total punk and still have her be in love with me.. i fcked up big time

 

[Socialreject]

Hey man,

Sorry to hear you went through this, but trust me, in a few months from now, you're going to look back at this and it's going to be one of the major turning points for you...

I got into something similar about a year back, and it crushed my nads two...

Here's the deal..

You never really 'healed'... you just explored this new world, got comfortable and better at making your way in it, felt good about it, but underneath, somewhere, the old chump was still lurking...

you met this girl, you felt it was 'safe' to drop your guard, and so you did... and then promptly went way overboard with it. Went on a mission to barrage her with all your lovestarved needs, and of course yeah, it had the only effect it could have...

I wouldn't bang myself up to hard about this. The way I see it, this is all a process. It's not because you get into the game, and get good at it, that suddenly you are completely "fixed", you still need to go through the whole emotional process, you still need to get your nads crushed a few times before you can really shake that chump out of your system... Because when the stakes are up, he'll come popping back out!

See, you're just going to learn from this now, see what you did wrong, and you're going to find out about stuff you never "fixed" in the first place, and go on to fix it... It's a process. Becoming the man you wanna be, or the "DJ" as it's dubbed here, is really process of years, of being in the game for years, because that's just how it takes to get a real full transformation.

So yeah, too bad but, these are the things that need to happen to move onto the next stage, so chin up...

 

[TheRealSupreme]

1. You have not changed in 2 years Dasani. Your still the same old symp.

2. Let me show you why and how:

3. You picked a lesbien to date?

a) I guess you didn't know that cheating is a main thing lesbiens do. Ask a real lesbein and she will tell you. Those girls cheat worse than men do.

b) you picked a girl who is sexually twisted to begin with.

c) you picked her so that you could be the first man in the pvssy, another symp idea of weakness. You don't want a girl who has had other men and you sold yourself into some kinda love after wards. Weak Dasani.

d)also have you ever thought she just might of pimped you with the idea of her being a lesbein?

4. Basically you got played from Day 1. Only your too stupid to see it as usual.

a) look how there is another guy and that is only the on you know about.

b) look at how she pimped your silly mind into believing her AFTER she lied to you.

c) look at the got dam title of your freakin post and what you wrote. It's the same creepy crap you always get into. The same old Dasani Waters.

d) and you will pretend to get it and keep on digging for more posts until you find one that suits your twisted inner nature. I say twisted cause of the very weakness of even falling in love with a girl who's sexuality isn't normal to begin with and expecting a perfect day from it....stupid is as stupid does.

Kid I am not gonna hold your hand and ruffle your hair and tell you it's ok sparky. Time to wake up and stand up and quit this jibba jabbin around. We went through your BS 2 years ago.

It is greatly disappointing to see that you still have not changed even though you claim to have game. Any fool can see that you have not learned one thing.

 

[Metaphysical]

What is worse is that I talked to you on MSN Dasani.

I told you LESBIANS are messed up in the head. I told you to wear condoms and you almost knocked her up twice. But did you listen? NO.

A week ago you were telling me you hate her because she sits there in bed and doesn't do anything. You told me she is a horrible lay and she is boring you and annoying you.

ONCE she dumped you, then you go back to saying you are in love with her and you believe that bs.

Why would you even fall in love with a girl you met in 3 months IS BEYOND ME.

I hope you feel the pain strong so you learn not to do this stupidity again.

You told her you were in love with her after 1 week of knowing her. You were crying on MSN with her.

How fvcked up is that?

What kind of a man falls in love with a woman he meets after a few days and then goes on msn crying with her about how much he is in love.

Give me a break man.

She was a lying cheatin hoe and you got what you deserved for acting like a fool.

You shoulda been a player, kept your emotions in check, hit that pvssy and moved on.

But instead you were sitting with her on msn crying.

And don't tell me that you fell in love with her either. I don't believe you.

She was CUTE and maybe even HOT.

After you spent 2 years sleeping with those fat ugly girls you showed me, she was the first DECENT looking woman.

You knew you didnt have the game to get another woman as good looking as her, so you got stuck on her and tried to wife her up.

You were afraid if she left you then you would have to go back to sleeping with those ugly women. That's why you were insecure in yourself and that's why you are sitting here whining.

If you had 10 women hotter looking than her, you would not even remember her name.

 

[Five To One]

The one thing i cant understand is why she cried when she was breaking up with me.........

Dont let yourself overanalize that because it looks like you are.

I had a cold-hearted cheater break up with me with tons of tears going down her face. They cry because its just a lot of emotions they are dealing with at once. It doesnt mean they love or will miss you, it just means its a stressful situation with things they dont want to deal with.

I just felt like I needed to say that.

 

[Smartone84]

created a fake screen name? paranoid much?

afc city man

 

[sodbuster]

I have a les. friend that made it obvoius that she'd like some **** from me. She may get it,but only on the condition we learn from each other. No plans for a TLR.

 

[Dannyrt34]

I think you pretty much did everything you are supposed to do...


If you want to lose a girl quickly.

 

[TheRealSupreme]

What is worse is that I talked to you on MSN Dasani.

I told you LESBIANS are messed up in the head. I told you to wear condoms and you almost knocked her up twice. But did you listen? NO.

A week ago you were telling me you hate her because she sits there in bed and doesn't do anything. You told me she is a horrible lay and she is boring you and annoying you.

ONCE she dumped you, then you go back to saying you are in love with her and you believe that bs.

Why would you even fall in love with a girl you met in 3 months IS BEYOND ME.

I hope you feel the pain strong so you learn not to do this stupidity again.

You told her you were in love with her after 1 week of knowing her. You were crying on MSN with her.

How fvcked up is that?

What kind of a man falls in love with a woman he meets after a few days and then goes on msn crying with her about how much he is in love.

Give me a break man.

She was a lying cheatin hoe and you got what you deserved for acting like a fool.

You shoulda been a player, kept your emotions in check, hit that pvssy and moved on.

But instead you were sitting with her on msn crying.

And don't tell me that you fell in love with her either. I don't believe you.

She was CUTE and maybe even HOT.

After you spent 2 years sleeping with those fat ugly girls you showed me, she was the first DECENT looking woman.

You knew you didnt have the game to get another woman as good looking as her, so you got stuck on her and tried to wife her up.

You were afraid if she left you then you would have to go back to sleeping with those ugly women. That's why you were insecure in yourself and that's why you are sitting here whining.

If you had 10 women hotter looking than her, you would not even remember her name.

WTF???

You were coaching him??

And he was crying after 1 week???

In love after a week????

That is some total beyatch azz-ness right there man.

Now you can see the reason why it makes my head hurt and the frustration that I get in trying to make men out of symps.

 

[TheBucketOfTruth]

The one thing i cant understand is why she cried when she was breaking up with me.........

You can care about someone and have an emotional connection to them without being in love with them. It would seem you came on WAY too strong, especially at that point in the relationship. You drove her away from you by smothering her. Did she ever say that she loved you? If she did, it was probably just because she felt awkward or didn't want to hurt your feelings after you expressed your love.

I don't know all of what really happened, but I do believe that she cared for you like she said. She cried because of that and also because she knew how much she was hurting you.

And as everyone else has said, you tried to make an 18 year old "lesbian" your monogamous girlfriend. Live and learn.

 

[dDasaniWater]

Fvk that *****!!!!!!

I dont even want to think of her anymore.... I thought already enough, reading everyones post really helped me to see for what it really was, and that b1tch was just a slvt!!! I shold have known , if she was slvt with women , then shes a slvt with men!

Im just mad at myself because i created this idea in my head that she was the perfect one, because this entier time i had an idea in my head that no woman were worth being monogomous with, that they were all the same, liars and ch3aters....

Like i said, i looked at her different, she brought feelings out of me that no girl could, i gave her that chance to be in my heart.. and she fvkd me over....

Dan is right, I didnt love her. In the beginning of the relationship with her, i was cheating with two girls, and they both knew about her...

I recall one of them, while deep throating me, telling me i should really be loyal to my girlfriend and give her a chance...

It got me thinking, after almost losing her the first time (when she found out i cheated, i got her back, and convinced her i didnt cheat), i realized that i really do care for her.because when she broke up with me it hit me REALLY hard. So from then on, i gave her that chance. I stopped cheating... And the reason i cheated was not because she wasnt good in bed, dan got that wrong, she was amazing in bed... its just no matter how bomb the pvssy is, one pvssy is never enough for me.

Supreme, I Did change. I know it doesnt seem like it, and im dissapointed in myself as well, maybe its not a huge change, but i did change.

I had a girl for 3 1/2 months, splitting half her pay check with me... giving me 500 dollars every month.

I had another girl, who was the one i mentioned that deep throats me, pay me 25-50 dollars to let her suck my d1ck...Even had her **** all my friends... Even had her pull b1tches for me from her school to have threeesomes with!!!! NO fvckin joke... So i did change a little.. I was heartless with all these girls, i didnt feel for a single one of them, but all it did was make me feel lonely, which is why i fell so hard for this damn b1tch that hurt me.

I was really mackin every one of my last exes, I robbed this girls virginity the second time we met, and on the 3rd time we met which was a month later I got an Ipod Video.

You know I aint got no reason to lie, I post the good and the bad... no matter how bad it is i always post the truth about whats going on. I was always listenining to your podcasts supreme, for a whole 3 months since u moved to zenmack, and doin this with all these girls, i finally fellt on top of my game where i felt i didnt need to listen to anymore podcasts and I eventually got too ****y with myself where i thought i could basically start to symp out with my last two exes and still have a them in the palm of my hand, thatts how strong i thought my game was... but i was wrong about that.

But anyways,

I got two dates set up for tomorrow. One is a new chick(havent gotten around to fvkin her yet, but i kno its a done deal.), who i have known for about 3 months already, but we lost contact for 2 months because i changed my phone number and she moved to california, but now she is back, and we got into contact yesterday night, she wants to meet me tomorow night.. She Was on the phone 3 hours ago with m masterbating telling me how she wants to fvk in the car when she sees me....

But im going to see the other chick instead, she is an ex of mine, we just started talking today, she was happy to hear my voice, turns out she has a boyfriend of 2 months now, they both go to church, but im going to her house tomorrow night.. and im going to fvk her. she doesnt know that though, she thinks im coming over just to be friends and watch a movie.

BEsides that I have a couple other plates but I really am too lazy to try and spit game, cuz i still feel pretty fvked about geting dump and believing she was the one.. I just need new pvssy.....

anyways i wanna join zenmack got damnit!!!! Supreme I actually have a deal to make with you, and i have a feeling you will like it.. If there is anyway I could get a hold of you somehow, thru dan if he can send me your email. let me know...

 

[DonGorgon]

Her being 18 has nothing to do with it, women of all ages do the same stuff... Fact is that humans are not monogamous creatures.. never expect commitment from them... Love does not mean commitment or dedication... it just means intense feelings that can be had for multiple people and can come and go by the hour.

The higher the demand for the woman you have the higher the chance that she is fing others... 18 year olds are the most desired of all females so they have no reason to be dedicated to any one dude.. they have their choice of almost any man on earth... they have men offering them anything they want. they have freedom and trhe biggest turn off for 18 year olds is men who try to limit their freedom..

Yes they are sluts but you should never try to stop them from being that .. only try to make sure they keep Fing you for as long as possible.. She will never F only you cause that is not in her human nature.. We are supposed to have multiple partners if you dont women think something is wrong with you and you become undesirable... fast...

Oh and never expect logic from any female even if she jis a PHD in what ever.. estrogen inhibits logical thought..

 

[dDasaniWater]

DAmnit damnit Damnit...

I should of known better... The more i read the more it all makes sense...

You know , when i found out she was talking to another guy.. I was going to just ignore it and keep fcking her for as long as possible, but just lose all my feeings for her and move on to another girl and keep her as a FvkBuddy.. but no... my feelings got the best of me.. and i just needed to get to the bottom of it.. cuz i had never expected her to be that way.