jbbrain
Master Don Juan
Board,
Feels great to be back. No one really knows (since I havent posted in ages..I really havent had a need to) but It's been 2 months since I decided to break up with my girlfriend.
Being only 24 and involved for 1/12th of that time was one helluva ride, but its over and it seems I have my ups and downs in my new bachelor status.
When it was all said and done with my girlfriend and I urged her to leave and go to europe for the summer, I really just jumped right back into the dating game. I mean, pretty ****in' literally. the day after she left I just went on a rampage and slept with/dated more chicks in a smaller amt. of time than I previously thoughgt humanely possible.
Guys: The two ensuing weeks were blissful as I had maybe 6 or 7 girls in a dating rotation that seemed inexhaustible.
The one thing that struck me so soon after breaking up with my lady was that these girls really meant nothign to me. I mean, I literally became a sex crazed dog who only cared about scoring left and right. I would sleep with them once and simply keep it at that. My hot pursuit it seemed was not because I genuinely 'cared' for these chicks, but simply really for sexual gratification...not to mention to subconsciously fill a certain void I felt was left with in my life when I finally got the gall to wish my gf 'all the best'. I really felt this was the high life at this point. I was getting laid in abundance and I was loving it.
In retrospect, i dont know if I would have pursued this the same way. Instead of focusing on ME after the breakup, realizing the full potential of a young single male in a pretty giving and rewarding world, I simply fell slave to the puss....
..And now i find myself in a predicament.
In the past month, my dating pool has dwindled to a few hookups/random ONS and it really just seems that subconsciously I'm not so into it anymore. My desire to pick up is at a low point and that has been reinforced by all my prior 'meaningless' connections with chciks I couldnt give a shyt for, not to mention....you guessed it..
thoughts of my Ex GF, the breakup and all sorts of other meaningless shyt associated with her.
Its not a place I rather be and despite my reluctance to return to my previous wildcat days (those 2 weeks after my breakup) I feel like I've been forcing myself to get back into the dating game (perhaps to help 'get over' the ex gf?), yet it seems the 'game' just isnt as fun as it was before. Subsequently, I think this has affected my 'game' (because if youre not having fun, youre not going to do well IMO)and it just seems that each failed date /rejection ive incurred recently is affecting me/self perception way more than it should.... Definitely way more than it ever has in my life and I don't like it. It appears I am forgetting the fundamentals of the game and that it revolves around numbers. I am putting too much pressure on myself to fvck/fool around with 'every' chick perhaps in my feeble attempt to pretend I am having the time of my life being single and bedding tons of chciks (when really i dont know if tahts what i want at this point) and when I fail to reach that goal, when I fail to add that one more notch on the bed post, I feel disappointed.
My mind is telling my two things and it seems I'm caught in between what to do:
Either I just saddle up back in the dating game (and just being realistic in my potential), start getting the ball rolling and try to break free of this strange feeling of emptiness I'm getting now
OR
Just take a break from the dating game and just work on myself..which is probbaly what i should have done straight from the beginnign instead of being a real slut. Only problem is:
I love girls. When I encounter one that really attracts me, I just want to fvck her. "taking a break' from the game in a montreal summer (anyone who knows the city knows what im talking about) seems like a waste of testosterone and a waste of youth.
Anyone have any suggestions?
Feels great to be back. No one really knows (since I havent posted in ages..I really havent had a need to) but It's been 2 months since I decided to break up with my girlfriend.
Being only 24 and involved for 1/12th of that time was one helluva ride, but its over and it seems I have my ups and downs in my new bachelor status.
When it was all said and done with my girlfriend and I urged her to leave and go to europe for the summer, I really just jumped right back into the dating game. I mean, pretty ****in' literally. the day after she left I just went on a rampage and slept with/dated more chicks in a smaller amt. of time than I previously thoughgt humanely possible.
Guys: The two ensuing weeks were blissful as I had maybe 6 or 7 girls in a dating rotation that seemed inexhaustible.
The one thing that struck me so soon after breaking up with my lady was that these girls really meant nothign to me. I mean, I literally became a sex crazed dog who only cared about scoring left and right. I would sleep with them once and simply keep it at that. My hot pursuit it seemed was not because I genuinely 'cared' for these chicks, but simply really for sexual gratification...not to mention to subconsciously fill a certain void I felt was left with in my life when I finally got the gall to wish my gf 'all the best'. I really felt this was the high life at this point. I was getting laid in abundance and I was loving it.
In retrospect, i dont know if I would have pursued this the same way. Instead of focusing on ME after the breakup, realizing the full potential of a young single male in a pretty giving and rewarding world, I simply fell slave to the puss....
..And now i find myself in a predicament.
In the past month, my dating pool has dwindled to a few hookups/random ONS and it really just seems that subconsciously I'm not so into it anymore. My desire to pick up is at a low point and that has been reinforced by all my prior 'meaningless' connections with chciks I couldnt give a shyt for, not to mention....you guessed it..
thoughts of my Ex GF, the breakup and all sorts of other meaningless shyt associated with her.
Its not a place I rather be and despite my reluctance to return to my previous wildcat days (those 2 weeks after my breakup) I feel like I've been forcing myself to get back into the dating game (perhaps to help 'get over' the ex gf?), yet it seems the 'game' just isnt as fun as it was before. Subsequently, I think this has affected my 'game' (because if youre not having fun, youre not going to do well IMO)and it just seems that each failed date /rejection ive incurred recently is affecting me/self perception way more than it should.... Definitely way more than it ever has in my life and I don't like it. It appears I am forgetting the fundamentals of the game and that it revolves around numbers. I am putting too much pressure on myself to fvck/fool around with 'every' chick perhaps in my feeble attempt to pretend I am having the time of my life being single and bedding tons of chciks (when really i dont know if tahts what i want at this point) and when I fail to reach that goal, when I fail to add that one more notch on the bed post, I feel disappointed.
My mind is telling my two things and it seems I'm caught in between what to do:
Either I just saddle up back in the dating game (and just being realistic in my potential), start getting the ball rolling and try to break free of this strange feeling of emptiness I'm getting now
OR
Just take a break from the dating game and just work on myself..which is probbaly what i should have done straight from the beginnign instead of being a real slut. Only problem is:
I love girls. When I encounter one that really attracts me, I just want to fvck her. "taking a break' from the game in a montreal summer (anyone who knows the city knows what im talking about) seems like a waste of testosterone and a waste of youth.
Anyone have any suggestions?
