a post about spiritual growth/women and becoming powerful

[limerickdesign]

After a previous post that i created about my
friends that are girls, telling me
about their conquests and the guys
they attract and guys at the mercy
of the almighty *****
I went through a spiral of hopelessness and pain. Pure ENVY
Pure suffering that the red pill i had swallowed was too much
and i again started hating women.

I decided to give up sex (already gave up masterbation such a long time ago)
and went 46 days ( have a counter on the days on my phone)

I noticed HUGE non placebo improvements in my cognitive abilities like memory, speech and being in the present moment. Generally i could be more happy and Less moments of general pain and suffering for no reason.
Definetely 100 pecent worth it to do. This is a lifestyle for me.

I dont know if any of you guys have noticed
how when you masterbate or *** you take a spiritual hit.
It's like i feel down not as good, kind of out of body, not as strong
and feel general malaise and sadness or more moments of
wanting to cry over little things for almost like a week before i build
up again. I have noticed this during previous times of no fap
where i would go 20 to 30 days feel good and then have sex
and feel like im reset and feel down and out again for a little bit
but i do recover much much quicker then more frequent ejaculations
within a short time.

I'm not a slave to women as much as i was before where i would agonize
with the thought of them frequently and constantly on my brain.
I do get into moments of extreme horniness due to pent up energy and stuff.

I dont expect much response with this but i decided to go on a spiritual
journey to remove inner blocks and barriers and my past self my ego
"pain body" and have been notcing some improvements
with past stuff coming up alot and having to deal with it.
I'm tired of the way women are for the most part and im tired of playing
this game. Its a painful game of too many emotions that
i feel sometimes im on this gerbil wheel and no one is noticing the same thing. Just constant chase and unfulfilling sex and disinterest and
then the 2 of you destroying each other and relationship with a fit of anger
because of EGO and past self coming up.

Sick and tired of it. I do use some substances for spritual growth only
and never hang out with people during my sessions. I have some friends but i have noticed most conversation to become meaningless and fruitless. I am on a mission and im pained by the state of where things are right now for men and dating

Am i set out to do something here on this planet i dont know.

I want to know if any of you guys have been on a similar mission and have developed to where your in a really happy state of being
not needing the admiration of women, found your place
and perhaps found a satisfying mission in life that fulfills you.

 

[mangotot]

I went about 40+ days without fap (or any sex) and can't say it had any positive effect except for the fact I was desperate for sex. I guess different courses for different horses.

 

[jimjam]

I've completely given up on women in one respect. I've come to feel that what they demand in return for their favors is simply not worth it. I've dated, been married, divorced, have a kid, dated again and it all has got me nowhere. More confused than ever at 43

One thing i do know is that being alone makes the most sense. Having a woman around only pulls at me and erodes my inner strength. All i know is that being alone feels right.. my life is fine and I'm happy with myself. If I'm not, i fix it. Still, i cant help but feel something is missing. A woman, of course. But then the t thing of what it takes to gain one seems an act of self betrayal. Perhaps this aspect of myself isn't honed. Around in circuitous thinking i go.

Hang in there. Good luck. Let me know what you discover.

 

[evan12]

After a previous post that i created about my
friends that are girls, telling me
about their conquests and the guys
they attract and guys at the mercy
of the almighty *****
I went through a spiral of hopelessness and pain. Pure ENVY
Pure suffering that the red pill i had swallowed was too much
and i again started hating women.

I decided to give up sex (already gave up masterbation such a long time ago)
and went 46 days ( have a counter on the days on my phone)

I noticed HUGE non placebo improvements in my cognitive abilities like memory, speech and being in the present moment. Generally i could be more happy and Less moments of general pain and suffering for no reason.
Definetely 100 pecent worth it to do. This is a lifestyle for me.

I dont know if any of you guys have noticed
how when you masterbate or *** you take a spiritual hit.
It's like i feel down not as good, kind of out of body, not as strong
and feel general malaise and sadness or more moments of
wanting to cry over little things for almost like a week before i build
up again. I have noticed this during previous times of no fap
where i would go 20 to 30 days feel good and then have sex
and feel like im reset and feel down and out again for a little bit
but i do recover much much quicker then more frequent ejaculations
within a short time.

I'm not a slave to women as much as i was before where i would agonize
with the thought of them frequently and constantly on my brain.
I do get into moments of extreme horniness due to pent up energy and stuff.

I dont expect much response with this but i decided to go on a spiritual
journey to remove inner blocks and barriers and my past self my ego
"pain body" and have been notcing some improvements
with past stuff coming up alot and having to deal with it.
I'm tired of the way women are for the most part and im tired of playing
this game. Its a painful game of too many emotions that
i feel sometimes im on this gerbil wheel and no one is noticing the same thing. Just constant chase and unfulfilling sex and disinterest and
then the 2 of you destroying each other and relationship with a fit of anger
because of EGO and past self coming up.

Sick and tired of it. I do use some substances for spritual growth only
and never hang out with people during my sessions. I have some friends but i have noticed most conversation to become meaningless and fruitless. I am on a mission and im pained by the state of where things are right now for men and dating

Am i set out to do something here on this planet i dont know.

I want to know if any of you guys have been on a similar mission and have developed to where your in a really happy state of being
not needing the admiration of women, found your place
and perhaps found a satisfying mission in life that fulfills you.

Did you read power of now ? It seem you have some of my experience .
I have same experience with fabbing.

Regarding to spiritual life , I was real christian when I was young , and while many guys was desperate to sex, I was focused on my career and life . but when I started looking for women I found myself have zero experience.
Forward to now , I returned back to spirituality in the form of mediation, and I started my new start-up (not a business yet ). but again there are moment of loneliness that are like sword in my heart. also I am a kind of person who want offspring so I am not really content with spending the rest of my life single .

 

[Chico]

Great post Limerick!!!

It's easy to get into the women hating mode (WHM) due to the games they play, their ability to manipulate, their coldness, and all the crap you have to go thru just to have a decent life with them.

I'm 47 with lots of women experiences under my belt, but as each year passes, I understand things more and more, and some of my understanding involves knowing what I will never be able to understand. It's obvious, but women fall into that category. Sure, I knew that many eons ago, but somehow, I thought I would be one of the lucky ones who could understand them. Now, I know how foolish I was.

So my philosophy towards women has changed over the years. If they want me, they have to chase me. They have to prove they are worthy of all that I have to offer, because for all the power than modern women have, they still NEED men for certain things. And that's not because I am some great catch. It's just a personal philosophy.

I am a very passionate MAN by nature (part Italian heritage Lol), but I check those emotions now. That's part of being a MAN. We have to understand what we have control over, and what we don't. For those things in the latter category, we simply have to find other outlets (hobbies, etc) to help us deal with our fears, concerns, and frustrations. I think that living a healthy life with a variety of pursuits is one key. The other is to limit the power that you personally give to women. You cannot let them define their power over you - you do that by your attitude, beliefs, and responses to them.

Keep at it. Things do get better.

Good hunting MEN!!