A New Beginning

[ebracer05]

I posted earlier this week about a rather embarrassing relationship situation I had found myself in. And after stopping, starting, stopping, starting, and stopping for the last time tonight with the girl... I think I'm starting to realize the state of depravity I've reached as far as my dating style goes. It's just not good. And I want to become a better person.

I'm 23 years old and about to finish up an undergraduate pre med and pre law program. Last November I ended up having some really serious cardiac issues from some Adderall I had been taking... legally. And I remember sitting in the hospital bed of the emergency room I was in, scared to death I was about to die. I thought a lot about my life and realized that if I did die, I'd die with an awful lot of regrets, particularly related to my failures with women. I was a virgin. I'd dated girls, fooled around, but never quite managed to seal the deal. And it had to change.

So after I got out of the hospital and found out I was going to live, I started researching how to improve my life. When I was in high school, I read an online forum called The Art Of Pickup and always thought it was amusing... I was still getting their newsletter in my spam folder, and I happened to see it and check it out. They mentioned I guy most of you probably know... David Deangelo. So I got his book and read it. Then I got his advanced series. And I watched it. I got his ****y comedy series and listened to a lot of his interviews with dating gurus. Great stuff!! And throughout all of this I was applying it.

I met a girl at college around Christmas time and went on 2 dates with her. Didn't work out. AFC issues. I was discouraged, but not brought down. School was getting ready to start. I knew I'd meet people. And I did. During the first week of class I got with this girl I knew from lab last year and ended up losing my virginity to her. We dated for about 5 months and it was the worst relationship of my life. Totally dysfunctional, terrible... one of my biggest regrets.

Towards the end of my relationship with the dysfunctional girl, I signed up on an online dating site. I ended up meeting up with one girl that was a disaster, and another girl I totally lost control with... the object of my last post.

And so, with all that potentially boring biographical stuff behind me. What should I do now? In some ways I feel like I've come a long way from where I was in the hospital bed about a year ago, and in other ways I feel like I haven't learned anything. What I'm about to say may go against the whole spirit of everything that the people on this forum are about... I've lurked for most of the year reading, but never posting... Despite the mistakes I make in my life, I'm a very serious Christian, and that's probably the biggest reason I was never having sex. And I also really want to find a relationship that will end in marriage.

So as I begin this new leg of my life's journey, is there any advice anyone can give me... that doesn't amount to marriage bashing and telling me my religious convictions are something I need to abandon? What are things I can start doing now... reading now... or watching now... that are going to get me out of this AFC frame and transform me in to the man I want to be? And give me the life I'm dreaming for?

 

[ebracer05]

I've started reading the DJ Bible, How to talk to Anyone by Leil Lownders, and God is a woman... by some comedian. I've got final exams this next week at the University and won't have an incredible amount of time to devote to this stuff until after they're finished... but I am committed to this and will finally achieve what I've always known was possible within myself, as far as success with women go and my performing / musical passions. In the same vein as what I've seen others do on here, this will be a diary of sorts and I'll post insights/experiences as they come.

It's a shame I never reached this point earlier... but thank God I'm only 23 (though almost 24). Some people live their entire lives before coming to a realization like this or wait until they're in a spot in life (like married with kids and stuck in a dead end job) that makes it very very difficult, if not impossible, for them to substantively change things.

I also got a hold of the movie Don Juan de Marco and will be watching that shortly.

 

[NorwegianDJ]

My journal, haha
The blueprint de-coded is all you need bro. It covers a lot. Theres also a lot of top notch books on other stuff on rsdnation.com
Do a bootcamp, hot seat or seminar @ rsdnation.com
The power of Now by Eckhart Tolle.
And yeah, I'm not a spammer, I just like their stuff.
However don't waste your money and go all mental masturbation.

 

[ebracer05]

However don't waste your money and go all mental masturbation.

Ha.... now, what exactly are you saying with that?

 

[NorwegianDJ]

Ha.... now, what exactly are you saying with that?

I'm saying with all this information available, it is easy to sit at home and soak in the information. Nothing bad about that, but it is often combined with not taking right action. It is a very common situation in the community, especially this forum.

 

[ebracer05]

Information without action is a waste of time IMO.

I went to the university to study with a buddy of mine for a physics exam, and we ended up meeting up with one of his friends after a while who I've seen around campus a lot. I think she's pretty cute, maybe a 7 or 8. She's definitely got a great body and I've always wanted to get to know her. Perfect chance.

So she picks us up and we start driving. My buddy is pretty laid back and it seems like he's good with women... I don't know him too awfully well though so it's hard to say, but he seems to have a lot of natural ability in him. He was busting on her most of the way to our destination and I was actually able to join in to. Basically just making fun of her. This is probably the best time in like the last 2 years of my life to try and talk to women who would have otherwise intimidated me because after all the problems I had this past week with my ex, I just really don't care right now. And it's not the most emotionally healthy frame to be in, but there's a lot less anxiety. I wasn't talking to the girl trying to prove or get anything, I was just talking with her like she was just someone else. No one special.

And there's something to be said about that. I kept making fun of her and busting on her most of the way to the library. I was elusive with any questions she asked me and didn't really give her any information. "that's a great question, isn't it?" was one of my pat responses. And then I'd make her tell me about herself. She was laughing pretty good and smiling at me a lot, especially when her boyfriend called her... they're in a rough spot right now, and that was one more thing to make fun of her about.

I started getting really tired though, so I left and came home to go to sleep. I've got a final in the morning. I didn't really get anywhere per se with the girl, and I don't really care either, because she's a total idiot. She'd be someone great to have a one night stand with, but she's the prototypical dumb idiot blond sorority girl. No relationship potential at all.

Lots more work to do. I'm going to try and find someone to talk to tomorrow before my final. God knows that should be a simple thing to do. Will continue to post as things happen.

 

[ebracer05]

There's an important lesson some might take for granted that I've learned so far... only a few days in to this. but here goes...

If you live in Ohio, don't try and date a girl from California.

Seriously. What in the world was I thinking?

 

[ebracer05]

When I got to the university this morning, I ran in to a girl I've seen a few times. We started talking and bantering back and forth. She gives me the impression she's a real idiot though... so much so as to call herself a *****. And I'm sure she is. Not really any interest, but more experience.

After the exam I got my lift back on for the first time in 2 weeks... thankfully, I didn't lose much ground. No finals tomorrow, but I'll be at the university again. I think I'm gonna approach a girl I've never met before. I've never really done the cold approach thing, but I think it's time for that. Any suggestions? It's a huge state school with about 20,000 + enrolled, so there are always people there, especially in the union and library. I don't want a routine or anything... what should my frame be though? Unless I'm whoring out my music at a concert or a store, I'm usually not extremely extroverted (something I want to work on). So I don't usually just walk up to strangers and talk to them without a motive. How do you go about cold approaching a woman?

 

[ebracer05]

I ended up finding someone to talk to the next day at the university, but it wasn't anything worth rehashing. I don't really even remember it, and I'm sure she doesn't either.

I think I've been sick the last few days and so I haven't gotten out, but I made a deal with myself that I have to go out tomorrow. And the next day. And I'm going to try and go out at least 5 days a week each week of Christmas break.

I'm not going to my school for this stuff because I don't want to develop a reputation or anything, and quite honestly, I'm pretty nervous about all this. Last year at about this time, I made a similar pact with myself but never followed through. And if I had have done that, how much further along would I be? So I'm gonna go to an out of town mall or a community college and see what I can do. The mall thing always freaks me out though because I'm so bad at judging a girl's age, I've accidentally hit on underage girls before. And that's just embarrassing, at least for me. But, the only way I'm ever going to get this part of my life handled is to do it. I'll be posting a report after each adventure. I'm hoping that will help keep me honest and accountable.

 

[ebracer05]

I haven't been doing a great job of keeping up with this at all... But just because I haven't been writing about what I've been doing doesn't mean I've just been sitting around wasting my time.

I made a tremendous amount of positive life changes over the spring semester and summer...

• I got involved with a great large group of friends
  
• Have a tight inner circle in the works
  
• Got good enough at ballroom dancing to go to and place in competitions
  
• Started a regular aerobic and anaerobic exercise program and have totally transformed my physique from a dumpy above average looking guy to someone in excellent shape with a body to back it up
  
• Got reacquainted with some of my old passions like music (writing and performing), reading, and found some new ones like hiking and rock climbing.
  
• Got a phenomenal job making better money than most full time workers I can work in between classes. I've also started my own successful entertainment company
  
• Have just about finished the book I am writing
  
• Went to the doctor and psychologist and began addressing some issues I've been living with for a while (legit ADHD)

And I'm sure there's more to put on this list, but I just can't think of it right now. As far as this forum goes though, the most important thing I've been doing consistently is

GOING OUT AND TALKING TO WOMEN.

Just this past week, I've gone out 5 times and positively connected with a number of females.

Saturday - Park. Met up with a group of about 20 people for some beach volleyball and ultimate frisbee in a really posh park. I met a lot of new women, had a lot of fun. I guess this was my initiating in the group, as they have invited me to other events.

Monday - Borders. Borders are all going out of business and are having progressively better sales. This presents good opportunities to men for multiple reasons... if they read, they can get good books at a discounted rate. If they don't read, they have a financial incentive to start. And also importantly, women are out shopping for these reduced books! I met a girl in the travel section of borders and struck up an awesome conversation with her about the work she's been doing with habitat for humanity. She got so in to the convo she held her friend up. I would have closed with a number, but she was one of those girls who looked like an 8 from far away and a 5 or 6 close up. Maybe I should have just done it to boost my confidence though, because she would have definitely given it to me.

Monday - Mall. Girls are always at the mall. The mall isn't my favorite place to go to pick up girls because at least around here, there seems to be a much higher proportion of underage high school girls than gameable girls. But I figured, what the hell and decided to find someone. It was at an odd time so it was pretty dead, but I saw this absolutely smoking girl at Build a Bear. She was an employee. My cell was dead so I found a pencil on the ground and went in to Abercrombie to steal one of their cologne test strips. I walked in to the store and approached the girl. She started to ask if she could help but I cut her off and said in essence

"I don't usually do this (and I usually don't like this), but I noticed you while I was walking through the mall and think you're beautiful. I don't have time to talk to you right now, but I'd love to get to know you... can I have your number?"

And we chatted for a few minutes and she happily gave me her number. This one didn't end so well, and you can read the thread I posted today if you'd like to know how that went down.

Also on Monday, a girl I had been seeing I was really stoked about let me go. I think she's got a strange view of life and is really immature, and I wish I would have handled things different, because I reverted back to my old AFC ways big time. She said she wasn't ready to be dating me or anyone, and I started lecturing her on what she was throwing away and how much she'd regret this. A bit embarrassing. But that reinforced the idea that I must think before I start talking.

Tuesday: Mall. I got this shirt at Express and it didn't fit! It was a medium 1mx shirt for all those who care and it definitely fit like a large or even an extra large. That's what I get for not trying it on, so I had to go back and return it. It turns out I didn't have my credit card with me and had to wait for someone to get back to my house to read me the number so I could my money back, so while I waited, I went over to this grand piano they have in the middle of the mall and just asserted myself and started playing off the top of my head. Some of it was like new age instrumental, but I threw in some Barry Manilow, Ben Folds, and the Carpenters in there too... the good love songs . And I noticed there was this girl, at least an 8 who was sitting behind me. And she just sat there. And every now and then, I'd catch her looking over at me and when I'd make eye contact, she'd look away. Now, I got caught up in my playing and singing and attracted quite a bit of business to the Star Bucks the piano was next to (which was prolly why no one told me to lave.). And I prolly played for at least an hour. And she sat the entire time. So I got up to leave and purposefully walked by her and smiled at her. And as soon as I walked past, she got up to leave. So I turned around and said

"Excuse me, but were you sitting there the whole time listening to me play?"

And she said she was. So I thanked her and asked her if we could get some coffee. But she was in a hurry because I had apparently side tracked her and she was late to a birthday party. I asked her for her number, and boom, she gave it to me. I texted her Wed. night and I guess she works late, cause I didn't hear back from her till I was asleep. I'll call her tomorrow or the next day. I freaking hate texting.

I was out really late Monday night with one of my bros and unfortunately burned myself out. Tuesday night was a party at a girl's house I know and I missed it, but just didn't feel like going at all. But, she did let me know on Facebook that they all missed me and made me promise to come next time. Awwwww

Tuesday. Online - Got a coffee date set up with a girl I know from the university. We took a dance class together and so we have some rapport already. I don't really know why I didn't do this sooner, because there's always been some sexual tension between us. She's an 8.5 with a 9's body. She is a ballet student and has an incredible body.

Wednesday. Online. I also play the online game and I guess do so very well. I've met up with at least 12 girls since July doing that. And Wednesday afternoon, I had a lunch date with a girl I met online. She looked like an 8.5 online, but I'd say a 7-7.5 in person. Which is always disappointing, but she is fun and great to talk with. She's extremely interested and has been texting me a lot, initiating it all. I'm leaving for the mountains tomorrow, and we're supposed to go to the zoo when I get back.

That night, I went rock climbing with a group of people I'm starting to get to know, slightly more girls than guys, all of the girls at least 7s, most of them 8+. All in great shape. Wed. night is our climbing night, but last night I didn't exploit it as best I could... I actually focused on climbing, and it was a lot of fun. They all go out to dinner afterward and I didn't go because I had promised another one of my bros that I'd go to this fair with him to meet up with 2 girls. They were all disappointed I was leaving, particularly since I'd be gone for a few weeks in the mountains.

The fair was a total waste. The one girl was a 5 or 6, the other a 7.5-8 but an extremely closed *****. I don't think I saw one girl there who looked older than 14 or 15. I left early, after visiting the donut hut of course.

Wednesay - Online. Got another girl's number very easy. Great conversation, great vibe, we'll see where this one goes.

Thursday - Things blew up with that girl I met at the mall on Monday. Again, you can read about that elsewhere. I was supposed to go to a nightclub tonight with one of my bros, but I've been packing for vacation and really, I'm just not feeling it. It would have been strictly for one night of *****, and if I want that, I'll be able to find that where I'm going. There will be nightclubs there.

I also got a great vibe going with yet another girl online tonight. I got off early because I'm freaking tired and want to sleep. She'll be around to talk to later.

And so that's my week in a nutshell dudes. Bear in mind, I made mention of the successes I've had online, but for each one of those, I've had at least 4 failures. Prolly more. My in person game is pretty strong, and I haven't faced any rejection in quite a while actually (knock on wood).

So I'm going to keep at it. And hopefully be more disciplined to keep up with this. Now it's on to a rerun of Seinfeld and bed.

 

[ebracer05]

I am on vacation now in the mountains. There have not been many opportunities for me to meet new women given I've spent most of my time in the car. I did stop at a store and saw a girl who was an hb8.5 from a distance and an hb7 close. I need better contacts! Anyways, here's how it went down. I got too in my head about this anyways prolly from spending the whole day in tthe car with 2 doses of ritalin... haha I was about to flip out by the time we stopped!

Me: excuse me, how are you doing?

Her: good, is there something I can help you with?

Me: I'm here on vzcation and noticed you when I walked in. You're very beautiful and id like to have dinner with you when you get off work.

Her: (starts smiling and stuttering) well, I have a boyfriend...

Me: you're in luck.... I'm not looking for a girlfriend, I'm just on vacation and want to have dinner with you.

And the long and the short of it is... she said no.

But, since I haven't been able to play the game in real life, I've been heavy online. I have 4 dates the week I get back, 2 with 2 girls I know from real life who are hb 9 and hb 8.5. I have another girl very interested... texting me up a lot.

I'm leaving for my day now... I'm sure there will be women to meet!

 

[Coltrane]

You and I are pretty much in the same boat.
What helps me is daily rigorous exercise. Get your ass out of bed in the mornings and Run, Pushups, Sit ups, Break into a crazy-wild-man sweat. Then take an ice cold shower after. You feel charged every day.

 

[Buddha_Mind]

Jesus man, get off the ritalin for god's sake. ALSO -- stop beating yourself up so much. It is not easy! Keep approaching! Keep challenging yourself!

If you are into christian stuff, go join a group that is into that and meet other christian girls there -- it sounds like if she doesn't jive with faith it may be an issue for you. Some random woman with a boyfriend isn't going to be the christian bride you are looking for.

Honestly this stuff just takes work, and like people here say, DO MORE THAN YOU READ. You can read on here all day and it will jumble your mind and leave you spinning your wheels mentally. GO OUT and TALK and make it not your point to get laid or have a relationship, but rather incite interest in women and have FUN.

This should be FUN. Relationships are where the FUN gets tested (lol) -- but if you find yourself in another DAMAGING relationship -- GET OUT. You must be able to LEAVE.

You will find too, as you keep practicing, the quality of women you are able to attract will step up. It takes practice...lost love...and pain...to really better understand what you want..

/EDIT/ You should be PROUD of yourself also for all of the INITIATIVE you are taking and putting yourself out there that you probably could not have done a year before. If you keep working, if you keep understanding yourself, where will you be in 5 years??? Maybe in a very better place....

 

[thevilittletroll]

i'd advise you to start learning pickup outside of your college environment. once you graduate you'll find yourself having to go out and look to meet girls. they wont be as plentiful and as easy to find cause they're not all in your classes or just walking around campus. its a much different environment. its not any more difficult, its just slightly different. once you graduated, it will become your only option, so why not get good at it now.

 

[ebracer05]

i'd advise you to start learning pickup outside of your college environment. once you graduate you'll find yourself having to go out and look to meet girls. they wont be as plentiful and as easy to find cause they're not all in your classes or just walking around campus. its a much different environment. its not any more difficult, its just slightly different. once you graduated, it will become your only option, so why not get good at it now.

I've actually made it a point not to pick up girls at college.... I've only done it maybe 5 times because of the reasons you listed. The last few months; all the girls I've approached have been at the mall, store, or somewhere else. I also don't want to develop the negative rep of being "that guy" who goes around trying to pick up girls on campus

 

[ebracer05]

Jesus man, get off the ritalin for god's sake. ALSO -- stop beating yourself up so much. It is not easy! Keep approaching! Keep challenging yourself!

If you are into christian stuff, go join a group that is into that and meet other christian girls there -- it sounds like if she doesn't jive with faith it may be an issue for you. Some random woman with a boyfriend isn't going to be the christian bride you are looking for.

Honestly this stuff just takes work, and like people here say, DO MORE THAN YOU READ. You can read on here all day and it will jumble your mind and leave you spinning your wheels mentally. GO OUT and TALK and make it not your point to get laid or have a relationship, but rather incite interest in women and have FUN.

This should be FUN. Relationships are where the FUN gets tested (lol) -- but if you find yourself in another DAMAGING relationship -- GET OUT. You must be able to LEAVE.

You will find too, as you keep practicing, the quality of women you are able to attract will step up. It takes practice...lost love...and pain...to really better understand what you want..

/EDIT/ You should be PROUD of yourself also for all of the INITIATIVE you are taking and putting yourself out there that you probably could not have done a year before. If you keep working, if you keep understanding yourself, where will you be in 5 years??? Maybe in a very better place....

I am not taking ritalin illegally. I have really bad adhd and a sleep disorder, and quite frankly, its changed my life. I alternate it with dexedrine every other month to avoid tolerance. I have legitimately tried intense exercise, diet modification, cognitive behavioral therapy, biofeedback, and hypnosis, and that stmulant combo with some klonopin is the best thing to ever happen to me (note... I am still exercising vigorously and monitoring my diet)

As far as my intentions go with what I am doing with picking up girls, a girlfriend and even a wife would be great, but I've come a long way since last nov when I 1st started this. I don't HAVE to have one, and certainly don't want someone just for the sake of having one. They need to be good. I have standards for a legit girlfriend, some I'm still working on figuring out. There are still some core beliefs I'm working on solidifying for myself.

But I'm doing this right now to get better with women, improve myself and have fun. And I've been successful at all 3 so far. As far as I am concerned, the girl is a tool, like a stone you would use to sharpen a knife. I am the knife, and in order to get sharper, I need contact with women to snap off all the things that don't work until I'm left with only the things that do work. This is all for me. And if I find someone special in the process, great. If not, I'm still perfectly happy with myself.

Btw, a lot of people in this scene think meds in general are awful. And I can kind of see why as a medical student. Given what I've already tried though, is there something non pharmacuetical you can reccomend? I get about 5% of normal rem sleep each night because my brain keeps brining me to arousal about once every two min. That's prolly why I've been so tired and unfocused constantly... and on a stimulant and sleep aid

 

[ebracer05]

All right, so anyone in their 20s looking to game some girls had better stay clear away from the Great Smoky Mountains! This was the worst area I've ever been in in my entire life to meet people under 40 and over 12. It's all middle aged adults and little kids!

However, my trip was not a total failure as far as my endevour to meet women (and I don't believe in the word failure as it is commonly understand, but right now I don't really give a ****. I just got home, took my sleeping pill and am tired). I tried to pick up that girl at the knife store.

There were lots of girls I chatted up on the different hikes and climbs I went on, but they were all with their boyfriends or husbands so there wasn't much I could do there. And when I say all, I literally mean all. Except for one girl I met at this epic pool underneath a waterfall. I chatted her up a little bit, but she was more interested in swimming in the waterfall pond than she was in talking with me. And I even free climbed up the face of the rock next to the water fall and jumped off (a good 60 feet). Started a brigade of AFC retarts trying to make it up, most unsuccessfully. One guy just about killed himself (literally) trying to do a climb he was most definitely not qualified to do. And of the guys who made it to the top, only a few jumped.

Finally on the last day, I went in the most touristy place ever and started talking to this Russian immigrant who did henna tatoos. I figured she was from somewhere in that area and it always pisses Ukranians off when you call them Russian and vice versa, so I got the feeling she was from Russia... so naturally, I asked her if she was from Ukraine. This was a huge missed opportunity for me because even though she had shifty eyes and was kind of weird, she had a great body and was very lonely, brand new to the US, but I was tired, wasn't thinking, and when my family left, so did I, WITHOUT getting her number. Won't make that mistake agian.

Anyways, I have a busy week next week. 2 dates on Monday, 1 Tuesday, 1 Wednesday, Thursday and Friday, and clubbing Wed, Thurs, and Friday.

Will continue to update this.

And did I ever mention I hate that name I picked. Ebracer05? What the hell does that even mean?

 

[ebracer05]

Monday - went to the park with an HB8 and was totally rejected. She wouldn't even let me hold her hand. I think what broke down here was that because I was spinning so many other plates, I didn't obviate that I was sexually interested in this girl to the point I should have. She told me she was very surprised I was looking to be more than friends with her, and to be honest I think it was because I got lazy. Was tired by the time I was done and canceled a date I had with an HB7.5 later that night. Instead of the date, I got together with buddy and started watching David Deangelo's Advanced Series.

Tuesday - made plans with the HB7.5 I canceled on yesterday to see Saturday. Also met a new HB8 through a friend.

Wednesday - This was a rather unproductive day. I was planning on going out dancing this night to be meet up with a girl my friend has been telling me about, but I started a Klonopin/Ritalin drug holiday today and felt awful. I spent the day (literally) reading pickup literature. I did send an email to the HB8 I met on Tuesday, so I guess I did something. I also sent another email to an HB9 I've been talking to.

Thursday - I got a marriage proposal (a serious one) today I wrote about in another thread from an HB7.5. Not going to happen. I talked some more with that HB8 from yesterday and got her number. Still feeling like garbage from the drug holiday, so I did not go to the youth group and nightclub I would normally go to on Thursday nights. I continued reading pickup literature for most of the day.

 

[Deicide]

All right, so anyone in their 20s looking to game some girls had better stay clear away from the Great Smoky Mountains! This was the worst area I've ever been in in my entire life to meet people under 40 and over 12. It's all middle aged adults and little kids!

However, my trip was not a total failure as far as my endevour to meet women (and I don't believe in the word failure as it is commonly understand, but right now I don't really give a ****. I just got home, took my sleeping pill and am tired). I tried to pick up that girl at the knife store.

There were lots of girls I chatted up on the different hikes and climbs I went on, but they were all with their boyfriends or husbands so there wasn't much I could do there. And when I say all, I literally mean all. Except for one girl I met at this epic pool underneath a waterfall. I chatted her up a little bit, but she was more interested in swimming in the waterfall pond than she was in talking with me. And I even free climbed up the face of the rock next to the water fall and jumped off (a good 60 feet). Started a brigade of AFC retarts trying to make it up, most unsuccessfully. One guy just about killed himself (literally) trying to do a climb he was most definitely not qualified to do. And of the guys who made it to the top, only a few jumped.

Finally on the last day, I went in the most touristy place ever and started talking to this Russian immigrant who did henna tatoos. I figured she was from somewhere in that area and it always pisses Ukranians off when you call them Russian and vice versa, so I got the feeling she was from Russia... so naturally, I asked her if she was from Ukraine. This was a huge missed opportunity for me because even though she had shifty eyes and was kind of weird, she had a great body and was very lonely, brand new to the US, but I was tired, wasn't thinking, and when my family left, so did I, WITHOUT getting her number. Won't make that mistake agian.

Anyways, I have a busy week next week. 2 dates on Monday, 1 Tuesday, 1 Wednesday, Thursday and Friday, and clubbing Wed, Thurs, and Friday.

Will continue to update this.

And did I ever mention I hate that name I picked. Ebracer05? What the hell does that even mean?

Haha! I went to the Great Smoky Mountains(Gatlinburg and Pigeon Forge) in March on Spring Break with my Dad and sister. It is a terrible place for practicing daygame. I resorted to approaching women with kids! LOL. Hired gun game is what you should shoot for there. Thais and Eastern Euros are workers at the stores there.