I am off of my IV.
I am feeling 100% better.
Tonight I am just going to chill at home and read two books (one on the devil and one on the philosophy of sex) and drink tea and ****.
I have a girl coming to sleep over tonight.
Starting Monday I am back on the fvcking grind. Day 8.
I messaged a girl tonight to see if she wanted to kick it.
I said "look who it is, lets grab tea at 9"
and she literally shot me down hard, and she's ugly as fvck lol. I won't lie I got a little bit egoic.
she basically laughed at me and said "that I the gayest date proposal I have ever heard, what am I supposed to be excited by tea?"
haha. I felt it in my ego hard.
But whatever.
Always keep the frame of "smile and play the game without bitterness and resentment"
I have to admit it was a lame date idea, and I probably came across as needy to this chick.
I talk to so many girls that I don't really care if I come across as needy, so I will ask girl out like four or five times, even if she flakes.
I am going to stop doing that though. I am genuinely unattracted to flaky girls, and should stop taking flaky girls seriously, or chasing them at all.
I am very excited about this next 100 days. (although I am starting on day 8 for Monday- as the days of sickness do not count)
I think that I will become greatly improved in all spheres of female psychology, and attraction.
Always remember: The age old adage > never be bitter, never be needy, never be resentful, never be reactive, NEVER TAKE THINGS PERSONALLY.
girls will do things that might activate your ego, but its human nature, you have to view it as a funny part of the game, and NEVER TAKE IT PERSONALLY.
smille, laugh, and move on with an air of lightheartedness.