Wow, to think it has been two whole years!
Actually a little longer, but my 35th birthday was the turning point where I started to sink into the abyss. I won't go into details, but it's been a rough run for awhile now.
I sit here reflecting on how good everything was the couple of years leading up to my 35th. I was having a good time, business wasn't stressing me out, women were falling from the sky....ahhh...those were the days!
I won't say that the past couple of years were all bad. It isn't like I have become a social leper or anything, it's just that over that course of time I lost a couple of people I considered to be friends over their greed. I learned what my "price" was with both of them when they cashed out their friendship chips with me in favor of cash or trying to take advantage of me.
And with women, there have been a few over that period of time, and of course they come and go, but the biggest thing is that I haven't had one fulfilling relationship with a woman in over 3 years. Sex with a young college chick doesn't cut it. Making out with a model in my bathroom doesn't cut it. Flirting with female friends, acquaintances, and random women doesn't cut it.
It's pretty disappointing to think about, actually. But the thing is, I know better than to expect to find an intimate relationship with a decent woman until I manage to get my life back on track in other ways.
A lot of things happened in the recent past and i won't go into it all, but lets just say that it was one of those times that test your mental and emotional resolve all the way to the limit, and eventually define the person you end up being.
On the good side though, I am absolutely determined to get my sh!t back in order, and get my life back to the way it was. I'm going to see my doctor to discuss a few things next week. I'm gonna go back on a bulking routine at the gym. I'm taking up painting, and even considering getting involved in martial arts. Alcohol consumption is going to go down, but I do plan on getting out more. Gonna finish remodeling my place. Most important of all, I just launched a new business that i am gonna take to the moon.
Here's to making year 37 the best yet
Actually a little longer, but my 35th birthday was the turning point where I started to sink into the abyss. I won't go into details, but it's been a rough run for awhile now.
I sit here reflecting on how good everything was the couple of years leading up to my 35th. I was having a good time, business wasn't stressing me out, women were falling from the sky....ahhh...those were the days!
I won't say that the past couple of years were all bad. It isn't like I have become a social leper or anything, it's just that over that course of time I lost a couple of people I considered to be friends over their greed. I learned what my "price" was with both of them when they cashed out their friendship chips with me in favor of cash or trying to take advantage of me.
And with women, there have been a few over that period of time, and of course they come and go, but the biggest thing is that I haven't had one fulfilling relationship with a woman in over 3 years. Sex with a young college chick doesn't cut it. Making out with a model in my bathroom doesn't cut it. Flirting with female friends, acquaintances, and random women doesn't cut it.
It's pretty disappointing to think about, actually. But the thing is, I know better than to expect to find an intimate relationship with a decent woman until I manage to get my life back on track in other ways.
A lot of things happened in the recent past and i won't go into it all, but lets just say that it was one of those times that test your mental and emotional resolve all the way to the limit, and eventually define the person you end up being.
On the good side though, I am absolutely determined to get my sh!t back in order, and get my life back to the way it was. I'm going to see my doctor to discuss a few things next week. I'm gonna go back on a bulking routine at the gym. I'm taking up painting, and even considering getting involved in martial arts. Alcohol consumption is going to go down, but I do plan on getting out more. Gonna finish remodeling my place. Most important of all, I just launched a new business that i am gonna take to the moon.
Here's to making year 37 the best yet
