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Well my close friends thinks she wasnt. She is about a 6.5, very educated nerdy. I did not treat her well a lot of times. I was taking a lot of benzos towards the end. Before me she only knew other Chinese international students. She cut herself off from that circle, when i never wanted to go...

Before they leave you? my gut was saying she was, but could it have just been the emotional distancing? She wasnt really a social butterfly, more of an insecure nice girl. She was working at an investment company, I figure the alphas that are there, are very alpha. she was planning on leaving...

Look at bum sniffs prior posts. Gotta be a female troll.

why?

She was so good to me. I feel like it would be easier if I was a nice guy, that got cheated on and dumped. But I am at fault 100%. fml. I gamed way to hard, and stop caring, and became a ****.

Oh I think its to late now. I lost it man after the break up. zero control. I fell real hard into drinking, I was pathetic, and angry. I've come a long way. I give myself credit for that, but I still have a long way to go. It took me a few years to get where i was, it will take a bit to fix it...

So I drink to much, much less than I did 3 months ago. I was on anti depressants, abusing benzos and alcohol. I was really not myself. I had a nice girlfriend ( nice girl syndrome) and i lost control of the beast. Drinking a lot, doing drugs, being an *******. Then I would apologize. and repeat...