I've said internal thought about myself?There is no double sword argument or contradiction, there is either you confused, mentally ill or any other number of confounding factors creating a barrier between you and logical thought.
Conceptually we aren't even talking about the same thing, I've mentioned internal thought, you've mentioned external thought, we could not be farther apart here yet you seem to think we are speaking on the same concept with double swords and contradictions.
Why am I even entertaining this? Get help.