This is pretty mild. I am pretty sure if women were being truthful a majority of them would express they were into that type of stuff.
So you don't want to dominate a woman during sex?
No, I have no instinct to do this whatsoever. I find sex and the build up to it very stressful and unsettling as it is.
Dude, I don't have the confidence to even get naked for sex, I'd always keep a t-shirt on at least so I'm hardly likely
to have dom tendencies. That's not to say I'm all lovey dovey either, far from it. Generally speaking I just don't do
intimacy, be that platonic, sexual or emotional. I'm very uncomfortable with it.
I mean OK...
You must be really good looking to get women and be that tame in the bedroom.
Ignoring the slightly sarcastic tone...
I'm 50 next year with a lifelong body count of 7, the last being my ex wife.
This means 6 of those happened before I was 28. Of those 6, one I lost my V with
whom I had sex with the once. Two were 1 night stands, one was a three year relationship,
one was a 3 month 'fling' with a body piercer girl, one was a single weekend away with a girl
(hottest I've been with) they all approached me in some way or another otherwise nothing
would have ever happened. Across 22 years that's about one 'relationship' every three years
or so I'm hardly inundated with offers but it's quite true that I have never approached a woman
in my entire life. My assumption, same as when I meet anyone else is that they will instantly
dislike me and find my manner weird and out of place. Been dealing with that since I was three
years old and it's probably got a lot to do with why I have no friends either. I have this bad habit
of turning my own autism up to 11 when I meet someone new, kinda like a sh1t test. It comes from
a place where I'd sooner speed the whole inevitable process up and get the weird looks and ultimately
rejection out of the way ASAP so I don't have to mask anymore.
I'd never describe myself as marginally attractive, never mind good looking. Self hatred is very common
amongst autistic folk, I think it's a symptom of multiple, repeated rejection, both platonic and intimate.
A very common life story for autistic people. I hate my brain for being so broken and my body image
gets up to barely satisfactory on my best day. T he most forgiving photo ever taken of me was at one of
those family photo shoot things, but as a rule I avoid cameras. My wedding day was a nightmare as I had
one in my face all day long, absolute fuc*ing torture. Ruined the day for me. As a result have a set of
professionally taken photos and I'm not even cracking a smile in any of them. I found the entire day completely
awful. Too many people there, with myself as (joint) centre of attention, making small talk with people I didn't
even want there, loud music, chatter, kids running around, having to exchange pleasantries, with all and sundry,
shaking hands with multiple people, getting up in front of everyone and making a speech and posing for 100's
of photos. Literally an autistic persons worst nightmare. Here's the one forgiving pic I mentioned, for purposes of
discussion, my eyes are green, hair is browny/blonde and I'm usually quite tanned. This was taken in 2014 aged 41,
I'm certainly nothing special and the last 8 years have definitely aged me a fair bit.
