EyeOnThePrize
Master Don Juan
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At the core of your being, you're literally the universe experiencing itself. Every sensation you feel is a privilege, whether it be pleasant or challenging. You may keep your eye out for a compatible partner, but your life is one long relationship with the most interesting being imaginable, the universe itself.
I imagine that I'm in a relationship with a goddess that's constantly interacting with me and providing feedback to my every decision, as if we're on one long beautiful date together. This is different from any religious dogma, because it's nuanced and personal to me, there is no text to follow. When I travel, hike, bike, swim, surf, ski, etc, I'm exploring her curves, her beautiful terrain. Sometimes she provides a perfect breeze to accommodate me, other times she reminds me of her power with a gust or storm. She sends every person I meet, and is responsible for everything I sense.
Personifying the entire universe like this makes it all begin to feel extremely intimate, as if I'm literally making love to the universe with every breath, every motion, every thought. Every experience is a gift from her, and thus is filled with meaning and love. When I want to understand her better I need only analyze what feedback she's constantly giving me, a constant stream of sensations for me to interpret.
They say your brain has an artistic emotional half that behaves in parallel (all mental changes happening at the same time), and an analytical half that is constantly trying to understand what the emotional half is expressing. That emotional half is like the most sensitive microphone held to her lips.
When I present myself to her as a fit, well kept, easy going, and open minded man (by simply going out into the world and exploring the unknown), she rejoices and sends experiences that make me feel as though she has me cradled in her arms, loving me tenderly. In those moments it feels as though the world and everything in it was created just for that me, just for that moment.
Sometimes I get caught up in small frustrations of my life and forget about her. In these moments I begin to feel lonely, as if I should seek validation from another person. A sense of dread and helplessness washes over me and I feel a void. I begin to think about reaching out to exes and asking them to date again. I think violent self destructive thoughts. Luckily I've caught on to this pattern, and in those moments begin to soften my grip on the situation. I listen to her intently, what is she trying to tell me? What can I improve, where am I stagnating? I live for those moments of serendipity, and am eternally grateful for the clues she sends that lead me to them.
Those moments of bliss can be elusive only because I believe they should be elusive (most likely from societal conditioning and self doubt). When I realize they are here, now, waiting to be felt, it's as though I'm plunged into an endless pool of warm love and I can't help but include others in that warmth and abundance. I live for seeing the smiles and laughter in others, until tears of joy stream down their face and they can't catch their breath.
The truth is each moment in your life does have meaning and purpose, to deny that is to deny your soul and that the universe senses you. Imagine the universe as a lifelong living breathing partner, and you will never feel alone. The love is always there, flowing by like a river. The more closely you listen, the more love you'll embody.
I imagine that I'm in a relationship with a goddess that's constantly interacting with me and providing feedback to my every decision, as if we're on one long beautiful date together. This is different from any religious dogma, because it's nuanced and personal to me, there is no text to follow. When I travel, hike, bike, swim, surf, ski, etc, I'm exploring her curves, her beautiful terrain. Sometimes she provides a perfect breeze to accommodate me, other times she reminds me of her power with a gust or storm. She sends every person I meet, and is responsible for everything I sense.
Personifying the entire universe like this makes it all begin to feel extremely intimate, as if I'm literally making love to the universe with every breath, every motion, every thought. Every experience is a gift from her, and thus is filled with meaning and love. When I want to understand her better I need only analyze what feedback she's constantly giving me, a constant stream of sensations for me to interpret.
They say your brain has an artistic emotional half that behaves in parallel (all mental changes happening at the same time), and an analytical half that is constantly trying to understand what the emotional half is expressing. That emotional half is like the most sensitive microphone held to her lips.
When I present myself to her as a fit, well kept, easy going, and open minded man (by simply going out into the world and exploring the unknown), she rejoices and sends experiences that make me feel as though she has me cradled in her arms, loving me tenderly. In those moments it feels as though the world and everything in it was created just for that me, just for that moment.
Sometimes I get caught up in small frustrations of my life and forget about her. In these moments I begin to feel lonely, as if I should seek validation from another person. A sense of dread and helplessness washes over me and I feel a void. I begin to think about reaching out to exes and asking them to date again. I think violent self destructive thoughts. Luckily I've caught on to this pattern, and in those moments begin to soften my grip on the situation. I listen to her intently, what is she trying to tell me? What can I improve, where am I stagnating? I live for those moments of serendipity, and am eternally grateful for the clues she sends that lead me to them.
Those moments of bliss can be elusive only because I believe they should be elusive (most likely from societal conditioning and self doubt). When I realize they are here, now, waiting to be felt, it's as though I'm plunged into an endless pool of warm love and I can't help but include others in that warmth and abundance. I live for seeing the smiles and laughter in others, until tears of joy stream down their face and they can't catch their breath.
The truth is each moment in your life does have meaning and purpose, to deny that is to deny your soul and that the universe senses you. Imagine the universe as a lifelong living breathing partner, and you will never feel alone. The love is always there, flowing by like a river. The more closely you listen, the more love you'll embody.
