She ended up contacting me and I allowed her to come over so we can talk. She was trying to put a lot of blame on me saying that when she caught me f-ing someone here at my own place a while back that I told her "we aren't together so why should it matter" and she kept it cool. Which I agree, she did keep it cool. I told her that I was just acting out of emotion in the moment and I honestly don't care what she did.. but I Knew she was going to bring up the friends thing.. I told her I said it out of emotion and never really f-ed her friends. (I did f- one of her friends though). She didn't believe me and kept asking who it was saying that she needs to know which one of her friends is a snake so she can cut her off. I told her it didn't matter and that it was a one off thing. She threw out a name and it ended up being that same chick. I stayed silent and she went off saying "why why did you do that? why would you f- one of my close friends? do you know hurtful that is?" .. I told her what does it matter, we both hurt each other without realizing we would. She broke down saying that she feels like her reputation is ruined and that she never felt like a hoe in her life till now..
I brought up her manipulating the black dude, telling him that she loves him, and all this other stuff, saying that he was one of the best partners she's ever had and all type of stuff. and how he bought her nice things and all that, yet she didn't tell him that she was sleeping with me.. and then kinda went on a rant about how I never expected any better from a girl who thinks shes an IG model because she has 60k followers and has an onlyfans account.
We talked for a pretty long time and I found out something I didn't realize.. that we basically both chose each other in a partner because we both wanted someone we can enjoy sexual pleasure with without getting attached. When I found that out, its like my eyes opened in a major way. Apparently both her and I have insecurities about trust. We end up f-ing and then after I tell her it's best for her to leave. She says something like "have a good life". I didn't say anything back. I think she knew that I was done with her the way I F-ed her. Plus while I was f-ing her I couldn't help but think of that black dude impaling her saying "say my name b.tch". The only humor within all of this is, I used to say the same thing to her.
I can say I got some closure out of this and feel satisfied. For 3 whole months, I got to feel like a pornstar, banging a pornstar level bi.tch and even got some cooch from one of her co worker friends. The confidence I got from the time we were casually dating is immense and .. while I'm totally going to miss out on f-ing like rabbits and being super naughty in public places or anywhere we went.. I'm looking forward to what the future holds.
