The price of sex

[Blacksheep]

I couldnt imagine what a viagra or cialis would do to me.... lol

I took Cialis one time, we were doing a small party at my house... 4 girls and 3 friends of mine. I fcked one girl like a angry horse, then she left home and at the end there was 3 girls and one friend.

We were at a jacuzzi... one of the other girls started rolling around in my lap and I got hard again... I was so insane with that that I wanted to fck her in that jacuzzi with the other women in there.

We went to my bedroom and started to have sex, until one of her friends opened the door and saw us... then she stopped and left. hahaha... that was a very funny day.

 

[Blacksheep]

Yeah man sometimes you just gotta make some serious realizations and reevaluate your decision making so that going forward you make smarter decisions. If you have issues with erections, it would make sense to address those first before going out there and f.cking a girl raw.. Raw/unprotected sex is far more stupid than people think. There are STI's (infections) and then there are STD's that are full blown diseases and hard to treat, though some have vaccines... though usually you have to get the vaccine first, not after.

It really sounds to me as I mentioned earlier you found an escort/hooker. I think she was probably on the cusp of leaving and had a day or two left before she flies to a different state. There are hookers that do that.. They fly from state to state, usually just stay at the hotel, make posts online or on apps getting guys to f.ck them, or on escort forums.. and charge money, .. once they make enough money, they'll f.ck some other guys just because they're always horny. Sad part is, shes out here burning dudes . which is so messed up

True man!

The part of the hotel, I was the one who booked it and went to that city. So I booked I room in that hotel for me and her, and we met there when I arrived.

But she is really really weird. Have some weird conversations and seems like a almost angry feminist. There was something strange on her.

 

[Epimanes]

I took Cialis one time, we were doing a small party at my house... 4 girls and 3 friends of mine. I fcked one girl like a angry horse, then she left home and at the end there was 3 girls and one friend.

We were at a jacuzzi... one of the other girls started to started rolling around in my lap and I got hard again... I was so insane with that that I wanted to fck her in that jacuzzi with the other women in there.

We went to my bedroom and started to have sex, until one of her friends opened the door and saw us... then she stopped and left. hahaha... that was a very funny day.

Darn.. talk about buzz kill gettin walked in on. Had u done her in the jacuzzi maybe had em all lol

 

[Blacksheep]

Darn.. talk about buzz kill gettin walked in on. Had u done her in the jacuzzi maybe had em all lol

Yeah, I should have tried it! They were all with bikinis a bit drunk and laughing really easy.

 

[In2theGame]

Did you have headaches only with Cialis?

Mostly with Tadalafil (Cialis) yes. If I drink a lot of water and have some food in my system, I'm OK.

 

[bat soup]

Well, this is not going to be one of the most motivational or positive posts. I'm actually very embarrassed and feeling terrible about the situation I'm going through. Perhaps it will serve as an apprenticeship if someone is making the same mistakes that I did.

About 5 or 6 weeks ago I met a very sexy girl, I met her in a hotel ... She said she had sex with a few people and had always opted for long-term relationships.

We had sex, she was menstruating and I didn't protect myself. What I hate so much about myself is that I always wanted to be able to put on a condom and not have an erection problem. Because most of the time I can't have sex using condoms.

This was the first woman I had intercourse with after I stopped dating another woman I was with for a few months.

And luckily for me, I got an infection in the urethra again. I've been through this before and I knew what was coming. But it looks like the blow was bigger this time.

I took the medication, I thought I had treated it. But the infection came back. I am experiencing pain in the kidney regions and cannot express my fear of getting HIV or some other disease.

I talked to this person, and as she was the first one I got involved after this other one ... She told me these days that she had an infection and also found out she had hepatitis A (from what I saw it is not sexually transmitted but I don't really know). She said she had an HIV test and was negative. And that she* had sex with a guy a few weeks ago before we met.

My body does not respond well to antibiotics, and now I will have to take stronger ones apparently.

I've been trying so hard lately. I took courage to get out of the toxic situation with my family, I started to rebuild my life from scratch. I started losing weight, having more energy, feeling more attractive.

Life was really going well, until I got back to Tinder and OLD women and those who just want casual sex (I'm not saying I should get married or LTR). My energy is at 0%, feeling dirty, guilty for having ruined everything I fought hard to achieve. Depression knocks on the door, and with that I start to eat badly, to gain weight. You see everything going down the drain.

I hope that at least I didn't get a worse STD like HIV, because then I won't have the strength to deal with it anymore.

Just be careful, with the holes that you decide to enter. Most of the women I slept with in this life, a large minority, asked to put on a condom. The rest, they preferred to have sex without any protection. And with this new dynamic from Tinder and other similar apps, it's getting more and more dangerous. But of course, if you don't protect yourself.

If I solve it again, this time I'm gonna put myself into a monk mode. Until everything in my life (career, finances, health) is ok... Then, maybe... If I met some interesting woman that could have something genuine and no lies... Then maybe I could get involved with.

At least you didn't get her pregnant. Otherwise we'd be seeing you on the Maury show and she'd be saying "I'm 1000% sure he's the father, Maury, I haven't been with anyone else for more than a week".

 

[Blacksheep]

At least you didn't get her pregnant. Otherwise we'd be seeing you on the Maury show and she'd be saying "I'm 1000% sure he's the father, Maury, I haven't been with anyone else for more than a week".

Hahaha thats true man! If that happened then it would be a big problem.

That girl was really weird. Wanted to present me to their parents if we met again... Luckily it didnt happened and I spotted this red flag and left.

 

[bat soup]

Hahaha thats true man! If that happened then it would be a big problem.

That girl was really weird. Wanted to present me to their parents if we met again... Luckily it didnt happened and I spotted this red flag and left.

At least if she's menstruating you can't get her pregnant. But still, it's a big risk. Women always claim to be practically virgins, but who knows what the truth is?

 

[death_wish. .]

Well, this is not going to be one of the most motivational or positive posts. I'm actually very embarrassed and feeling terrible about the situation I'm going through. Perhaps it will serve as an apprenticeship if someone is making the same mistakes that I did.

About 5 or 6 weeks ago I met a very sexy girl, I met her in a hotel ... She said she had sex with a few people and had always opted for long-term relationships.

We had sex, she was menstruating and I didn't protect myself. What I hate so much about myself is that I always wanted to be able to put on a condom and not have an erection problem. Because most of the time I can't have sex using condoms.

This was the first woman I had intercourse with after I stopped dating another woman I was with for a few months.

And luckily for me, I got an infection in the urethra again. I've been through this before and I knew what was coming. But it looks like the blow was bigger this time.

I took the medication, I thought I had treated it. But the infection came back. I am experiencing pain in the kidney regions and cannot express my fear of getting HIV or some other disease.

I talked to this person, and as she was the first one I got involved after this other one ... She told me these days that she had an infection and also found out she had hepatitis A (from what I saw it is not sexually transmitted but I don't really know). She said she had an HIV test and was negative. And that she* had sex with a guy a few weeks ago before we met.

My body does not respond well to antibiotics, and now I will have to take stronger ones apparently.

I've been trying so hard lately. I took courage to get out of the toxic situation with my family, I started to rebuild my life from scratch. I started losing weight, having more energy, feeling more attractive.

Life was really going well, until I got back to Tinder and OLD women and those who just want casual sex (I'm not saying I should get married or LTR). My energy is at 0%, feeling dirty, guilty for having ruined everything I fought hard to achieve. Depression knocks on the door, and with that I start to eat badly, to gain weight. You see everything going down the drain.

I hope that at least I didn't get a worse STD like HIV, because then I won't have the strength to deal with it anymore.

Just be careful, with the holes that you decide to enter. Most of the women I slept with in this life, a large minority, asked to put on a condom. The rest, they preferred to have sex without any protection. And with this new dynamic from Tinder and other similar apps, it's getting more and more dangerous. But of course, if you don't protect yourself.

If I solve it again, this time I'm gonna put myself into a monk mode. Until everything in my life (career, finances, health) is ok... Then, maybe... If I met some interesting woman that could have something genuine and no lies... Then maybe I could get involved with.

you're probably fine, brother the risk of HIV from females pretty low, im sorry about the infection, hope all is well.
no need to go monk mode just be more careful bro, dont be hard on yourself sexy women can be hard to resist but next time you will remember this and put the condom on, i dont like condoms either for some reason effects my performance.

thanks for sharing this story i have been in some pretty close calls myself, the youngins need to hear this , it could save somebodys life.

congrats on getting away from the toxic family , if you fall off the wagon just keep getting back on man! you got this!

 

[death_wish. .]

Lastly, you are still young but just know that if you don't wake up with morning boners, then it's definitely a biological issue and not a psychological one so that needs to be addressed. Otherwise, you are ok.

good point, also a good way to tell if you're doing something wrong or right in regards to optimizing your hormones. a good morning wood means the T is flowing , i found that good sleep, exercise and diet is all i need to bring the morning wood back

 

[Blacksheep]

At least if she's menstruating you can't get her pregnant. But still, it's a big risk. Women always claim to be practically virgins, but who knows what the truth is?

That's true... just had the danger of being in contact with her blood. I was really afraid about that.

 

[Blacksheep]

you're probably fine, brother the risk of HIV from females pretty low, im sorry about the infection, hope all is well.
no need to go monk mode just be more careful bro, dont be hard on yourself sexy women can be hard to resist but next time you will remember this and put the condom on, i dont like condoms either for some reason effects my performance.

thanks for sharing this story i have been in some pretty close calls myself, the youngins need to hear this , it could save somebodys life.

congrats on getting away from the toxic family , if you fall off the wagon just keep getting back on man! you got this!

Thanks bro!

Now I'm getting a lot better. I think the infection didn't came back again... I hope it was only a paranoid from myself. Gonna get those results from my exam and be sure if I'm ok.

Also I unbalanced some habits I was building... But I know I wasn't emotional ok in that period, so I went back eating some junk foods, alcohol and caffeine.

But I got some lessons. It didn't started with that infection... I was falling off the wagon hanging out with some guys I think its envy and not so good energy. Those bars I don't feel a good energy in there and also dating multiple women without having some filtering work, doesn't seems a good idea.

But as everything in life, when we fall off the wagon we just recover, get back and keep pursuing our goals.

 

[Blacksheep]

good point, also a good way to tell if you're doing something wrong or right in regards to optimizing your hormones. a good morning wood means the T is flowing , i found that good sleep, exercise and diet is all i need to bring the morning wood back

Same... On 30 days eating well, no caffeine, no alcohol and doing semen retention for at least 6/7 days... I was waking up with a good morning wood... This is a reason I want to keep getting back to that state again. My health was becoming amazing.

 

[death_wish. .]

Thanks bro!

Now I'm getting a lot better. I think the infection didn't came back again... I hope it was only a paranoid from myself. Gonna get those results from my exam and be sure if I'm ok.

Also I unbalanced some habits I was building... But I know I wasn't emotional ok in that period, so I went back eating some junk foods, alcohol and caffeine.

But I got some lessons. It didn't started with that infection... I was falling off the wagon hanging out with some guys I think its envy and not so good energy. Those bars I don't feel a good energy in there and also dating multiple women without having some filtering work, doesn't seems a good idea.

But as everything in life, when we fall off the wagon we just recover, get back and keep pursuing our goals.

post back with the exam results, let us know you're ok.

emotional health is very important too, make sure you're doing any and everything that keeps you happy.enjoy good music, good heathy food , etc. alchohol is ok as long as its not abused.

you gotta cut those bad energy guys out ,the good side is you get to travel to new bars and meet new women.
women you would have otherwise never knew existed.

 

[death_wish. .]

Same... On 30 days eating well, no caffeine, no alcohol and doing semen retention for at least 6/7 days... I was waking up with a good morning wood... This is a reason I want to keep getting back to that state again. My health was becoming amazing.

the semen retention help me alot too even my gf told me i was bigger after just a week of no sex.
the alchohol is only bad if its excessive

 

[mrgoodstuff]

the semen retention help me alot too even my gf told me i was bigger after just a week of no sex.
the alchohol is only bad if its excessive

Nofap is about the zero jagging off to artificial images. After 10 days of nofap i get a boost in energy. It's happened more than once. What is okay during no fap is having sex where she's a positive benefit on your energy. If you have to disrespect yourself to get it or its a drain energy wise its no good. No fap is discipline which bleeds to other areas of your life. And a personal boundaries in allowing females to handle your c0ck. Not meekly and weakly dropping trou and jagging off to porn, which is weakness.

 

[Stoic]

Good on you OP for having self awareness. My life goes so much smoother when I l reduce caffeine and eat like a boxer.

As for HIV. The odds of getting that from another woman is incredibly low. Heterosexual men that are not injecting themselves with needles by and large do not get HIV. Not politically correct, but hiv largely hits homosexuals not heteros.

 

[Blacksheep]

post back with the exam results, let us know you're ok.

emotional health is very important too, make sure you're doing any and everything that keeps you happy.enjoy good music, good heathy food , etc. alchohol is ok as long as its not abused.

you gotta cut those bad energy guys out ,the good side is you get to travel to new bars and meet new women.
women you would have otherwise never knew existed.

Just got the results today.

Fortunately nothing is wrong and all STD's showed negative results. So I'm clean and with no disease.

Glad that everything went well... and now gonna use those experiences to reflect and grow up.

I have to say that I'm a bit afraid of having sex. Maybe I have to choose better women I will have it and I don't want to keep having sex with a lot of women anymore. Met someone, have some good moments and if it don't work, move on.

Thanks for your support and for everyone here who supported me! I really appreciate it!

 

[Blacksheep]

Good on you OP for having self awareness. My life goes so much smoother when I l reduce caffeine and eat like a boxer.

As for HIV. The odds of getting that from another woman is incredibly low. Heterosexual men that are not injecting themselves with needles by and large do not get HIV. Not politically correct, but hiv largely hits homosexuals not heteros.

Yeah man! I've drunk it those last 4 days... a small dosage of caffeine, but I didn't enjoyed it and I don't want to get back to this addiction.

I figure out that when we are emotionally well, we don't need any drug like caffeine, alcohol or even eating a lot of food. Being depressed or sad with something, our mind tries to find a way to escape from all that pain.

I'm thought about it so much during this year. How I'm getting healthier and strong after I left those abuses behind. So many compulsive behavior going away.

 

[Blacksheep]

Nofap is about the zero jagging off to artificial images. After 10 days of nofap i get a boost in energy. It's happened more than once. What is okay during no fap is having sex where she's a positive benefit on your energy. If you have to disrespect yourself to get it or its a drain energy wise its no good. No fap is discipline which bleeds to other areas of your life. And a personal boundaries in allowing females to handle your c0ck. Not meekly and weakly dropping trou and jagging off to porn, which is weakness.

No fap is a very good practice.

I find it easy when I'm psychologically well. Every time I went into bad days, like what happened here with that infection I found really hard to keep discipline.

But this year I saw so many compulsive behaviors going away after I changed from that negative environment. Most of those behaviors if people could address it correctly, it could be solved easily trying to find what is creating traumas or pain in their lives.

Its just becoming so clear into my mind, how some roots like toxic environment, people or traumas can dramatically impact on negative behaviors like (porn, alcohol, smoking, etc...)

Its like a escape valve or our mind and body trying to find anything to alleviate that pain.