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Mobile devices are the latest type of threat because they are very insidious. When you watch TV using a Tablet in your bed, it's easy to get bored and then go into a porn site/escort site, under your bed sheets, especially if it's a decent sized Tablet-screen, hold the thing up near your chest to get a good view of the images and then find something. Even the smartphone is a threat. I lay on my side to put oil in my ears to unclog the wax, and put on youtube to watch something. Got bored and flipped the smartphone to look at Muslim woman in Burkas (fully clothed) with their legs and a$$ exposed in a lewd manner. The Muslim women because they cover themselves to the extent they do make themselves look too sexy because you don't have to see their face and it's like putting a paper-bag over a lady that has a hot body, except this is the Muslim religion that I have nothing to do with.

You see the problem is I keep getting hooked in my mind with this taboo sort of stuff. Who would look up Burkas as a premise to looking at porn on a smartphone while cleaning their ears? That is so bizarre. Then I go on this escort site and see this particular escort that has her clients shower before dealing with them because of Covid-19 and that turned me on and finished on that.

The Bible says, if thine eye offend they pluck it out because it's better to enter heaven with one eye then hell with two eyes. The thing is I never planned to look at porn or premediated to look at it, these things just happen....like Burkas on Arab women and being turned on by not seeing the upper-side of a woman because of their own religion? Wow.
 

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Looked at this type of porn where the porn actress it talking to you over the video and pretending to be your mother, or has gigantic boobs and instructing you to fap. Don't think it's hardcore, probably softcore video. I think that a woman with large boobs is more of a "real woman" and no matter how else she looks she just looks more like a perfect woman the larger her breasts is. I know this because when I broke up with my ex-gf in 2012, I visited another ex-gf with large boobs and sucked them and had way larger boobs then the other ex-gf and I said, wow, this is how a real woman is like.

I've asked for mercy from the Lord concerning this vice and have prayed for forgiveness of this sin again, but contended, how this could be construed mentally as fornication/adultery seeing I'm not talking to any woman because I'm incel and therefore am not dealing with any woman on this planet. Hopefully God will not be too upset over these types of sins, but I really aim to get right with God and repent of this sin rather than make excuses for this and then blame Him I'm not talking to women.
 

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The main thing I have against fapping is that it's a waste of time, time that could be spent doing something more productive. But I don't believe in the super powers stuff.
 

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Today is May 1st. A new commitment against porn is now in place until October. The ideal goal is not to view any escort pics within this time and to avoid fapping in day-time. Restricted movies involving lesbian kissing or other depicted sexual acts is also on the list. Normally in the past such a commitment occurred on April 15th, but I added an extra 2 weeks because there were some adult-r rated movies I wanted to view (i.e. "Battle of the Sexes, 2017, Carol, 2015, First Reformed (2017), The Favorite (2018), Never Look Away (2018), Cold War (2018), Obsession (2009), Klute (1971), Tu Mama Tambien (2002)), Under the Skin (2013) and one last movie Precious (2009), still really want to view Disobedient (2017), Lobster (2015), Serenity (2019), Sunshine Cleaning (2008), Private School (1983), 9 1/2 weeks (1986), maybe the rest of the TV-series GLOW, but I'm discouraging myself from viewing any further of these types of "enabling" movies.

The thing with R-rated movies of high-caliber (i.e. they won oscars, or have a high critical rating, but have nudity or some sexual content within the narrative of the story which gives them such a rating), is some of them are just great. However, I hate to view two men kissing and avoid such movies like the plauge, but like seeing two hot straight women kiss on screen??? I even checked out if Rachel Weiss was gay (i.e. she is the actress in The Favorite, depicting a lover of Queen Anne, and also a Jewish lover of a married woman in Disobedient, and I'm like, why is this actress doing these things....almost like Jennifer Lawrence drifting from Hunger Games to go in movies like Mother! (2017), or Red Sparrow (2018) where she's actually naked. You sort of wonder what is up with them.

Lets see how this plays out over the next few months.
 

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Testosterone Replacement Therapy...Read about it
Go to an endocrinologist and get your testosterone levels. Checked if it is (chances are it is if you're 50+ or have bad libido) than you can go on it. Many general docs will blindly give viagra not knowing it's declining hormones
 

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Had a headache today and had to admit to my mother and father that I fapped on my bed this morning when they asked why I had a headache. (I normally have a perfect bill of health at home so it's unusual for me to have something like this). I have stayed away from looking at escort pics since May 1st. Looked at an adult movie on the Tablet called "Disobedience" 2017, and Private School, 1983, segments of those movies and then got a nasty oral / tongue sex fantasy then succumbed to a fap. My mom had to know why I got the headache, and I explained that I did that, a hint of what type of fantasy it is, and it was concluded the devil caused the headache because I yielded to its suggestive thoughts and caused a spiritual attack on my head. However, feeling better now. These porn-headaches don't usually last long.
 

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Had a headache today and had to admit to my mother and father that I fapped on my bed this morning when they asked why I had a headache. (I normally have a perfect bill of health at home so it's unusual for me to have something like this). I have stayed away from looking at escort pics since May 1st. Looked at an adult movie on the Tablet called "Disobedience" 2017, and Private School, 1983, segments of those movies and then got a nasty oral / tongue sex fantasy then succumbed to a fap. My mom had to know why I got the headache, and I explained that I did that, a hint of what type of fantasy it is, and it was concluded the devil caused the headache because I yielded to its suggestive thoughts and caused a spiritual attack on my head. However, feeling better now. These porn-headaches don't usually last long.
You need help. This devil and jerking off thing doesn't equate and is unhealthy to think this way. The devil didn't make you do it, it was a natural reaction to what you saw on TV. You were aroused and no woman there to release your built up arousal. Next, don't tell this to your parents. That's just weird.
 

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You need help. This devil and jerking off thing doesn't equate and is unhealthy to think this way. The devil didn't make you do it, it was a natural reaction to what you saw on TV. You were aroused and no woman there to release your built up arousal. Next, don't tell this to your parents. That's just weird.
Looking at porn is a "voyeur" or a "sideline watching the game" activity. Deal with real live babes, it's healthier.
 

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Looking at porn is a "voyeur" or a "sideline watching the game" activity. Deal with real live babes, it's healthier.
No porn was looked at. In fact no escort pics was looked at since May 1st. This happened out of the blue and was a very vivid imagery.

The point of this thread is to get away from escort pics, aka, porn, which I have successfully done since the beginning of this month.
 
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You need help. This devil and jerking off thing doesn't equate and is unhealthy to think this way. The devil didn't make you do it, it was a natural reaction to what you saw on TV. You were aroused and no woman there to release your built up arousal. Next, don't tell this to your parents. That's just weird.
That doesn't explain why there was such a vivid imagery behind the sexual fantasy, and for the record, the specific sexual fantasy had no relationship with what I just looked at. It was still a movie, not a porn flick. A cheesy 80s movie could have caused that? Really? Phoebe Cates wasn't even in my fantasy.

I have to tell my folks if I had a headache and am unable to find the pain medication because my mom put it away in her purse somewhere. My mom asked me why I had a headache. How do you think I'm supposed to reply to that? You don't just get headaches like that. I never get headaches. What do you expect me to say to them? They kept asking, what caused it..
 

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That doesn't explain why there was such a vivid imagery behind the sexual fantasy, and for the record, the specific sexual fantasy had no relationship with what I just looked at. It was still a movie, not a porn flick. A cheesy 80s movie could have caused that? Really? Phoebe Cates wasn't even in my fantasy.

I have to tell my folks if I had a headache and am unable to find the pain medication because my mom put it away in her purse somewhere. My mom asked me why I had a headache. How do you think I'm supposed to reply to that? You don't just get headaches like that. I never get headaches. What do you expect me to say to them? They kept asking, what caused it..
I wouldn't reply with because I was jacking off. Boundaries brother... Boundaries. May I ask, how old you are and ethnicity?
 

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I wouldn't reply with because I was jacking off. Boundaries brother... Boundaries. May I ask, how old you are and ethnicity?
I also hinted at the nature of the sex fantasy. I am no Chadrone, just an average looking mixed race guy that is 44 years old.
 

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Come to think of it, this is a good fap control strategy. If I know that fapping will cause a tension headache later in the day which may be so bad that I might end up embarrassing myself then that's a social control to discourage fapping. Another effect I found when I was fapping to a civvie lady is that my jaws would lock and I can't open my mouth without excruciating pain until the "click" back into place. This usually happens on occasion when I fap to women that I may have met or dealt with, but are not pros. When I fap to escort pics/pros/or have an escort-fantasy there has never been a case of a lock-jaw. The headaches is a serious enough effect that it might discourage fapping in the future. But the "lock-jaw" will ensure there is no fapping with "civvie" women" because I don't want to risk breaking my jaws by fapping a woman.
 

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I also hinted at the nature of the sex fantasy. I am no Chadrone, just an average looking mixed race guy that is 44 years old.
Why, at 44, are you living with your parents? Are you allergic to work and being self-sufficient or have a major medical issue that prevents you from working?
 

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Why, at 44, are you living with your parents? Are you allergic to work and being self-sufficient or have a major medical issue that prevents you from working?
Who said I was not working?
 
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