After years of graduating here at SoSuave. Im back at it again with a existential crisis.

[Don Pepot]

Greeting fellow mates.
It is a nostalgic feeling, coming back here again to search for answers. For about 7 or 8 years ago, I came here to find my balls because ive enter the dreaded friendzone, after which i read tons of books, articles and forum post. I am 30kgs overweight before until i lose it all... fix myself... and learn to play the game and be with 100++ girls or so.

It fact ive turn around a complete 180. The fat f*cked, cubicle employee made a difference. Looking back, it is a great half decade of self improvement. Gain.. friends,and everything that i dreamed off. Until I made a mistake of almost marrying a girl of my dreams.

To make the long story short, we parted ways because her family doesnt want me to marry her early...it made her depressed. She began to disrespect me and our relationship went into limbo. She is the breadwinner of their family.. she feeds them. Here in the Philippines... after which you finished school...you will go abroad.. and pay for the debt of gratitude on which you are required to give back. I decided to cut ties entirely, because i feel... i will not gain anything from it anymore. It will be suicide if i will just offer my life too.. just to provide for them( ex fiancee family).

Im kinda devastated. But the foundation ive gain from being masculine help me a lot. The best thing again happen to me after that incident. I quit my 9 year job.. to pursue my own hussle. I own a vapeshop now and earn lots. Ive bought a car, planning to buy a house next year... and things are ironed out for my chain stores that started from the city.. to other towns nearby.

After which that incident, ive become a ladies man. I could have 3-4 girls a week, mostly 10-15 years younger than me. Im turning 36 this December, it seems i getting tired of it.

My problem right now is..."I DONT HAVE A PROBLEM". I want to break my heart again because that gets me off and it is always put me into a methamorphosis or getting better. The problem is...i know the blue pill/red pill thing. You know the "steak" matrix scene? I feel like... im that guy right now. I dont want to be the obese guy again, but i want to love again get hurt... get to another level... and emerge again from the ashes.

B*tch slap me guys. I need a wake up call. Or a good friendly advice is needed. MORE POWER!

 

[Snake-eyes]

Good for you on doing the work and rising up to the top. Most people can’t break outta that cycle now a days. Your problem is that despite everything you have done, you still hold on to those old ideologies and blue pills believes. You gotta let go of that ****... Also think about the fact that you don’t want to go back to your old self, would you? For me that’s the **** that keeps me going and awake at night. Remember this.”You can have it all, but you can’t have it all at the same time.” Be thankful how far you came.

 

[Epic Days]

My problem right now is..."I DONT HAVE A PROBLEM".

I get it. It’s a real thing. Men are problem solving machines. No problem? Idle mind.

It’s not uncommon for someone to actually create a problem so they can solve it. Beware of a low end game like that. There are far bigger games than women. Much more rewarding too.

Find your game. Name your poison. There is no game like a calculated high risk. Life or death.
Get in shape to do K2 or Mt. Everest.
You’ve been living a mediocre life brother.

A friend of mine learned Kendo. In fact he went all out and went to the level of samurai. Full fledged. 7 days a week he studied the sword. I’m not bad with one but he is in another world. His katana is so fast that you can’t see it.

The level of zen.

 

[Desdinova]

My problem right now is..."I DONT HAVE A PROBLEM". I want to break my heart again because that gets me off and it is always put me into a methamorphosis or getting better.

After a while, your senses will become dull from dealing with a lot of women. If you really want to have your heart broken again, take five years off from dating.

Personally, I'd be finding something new to focus your energy on besides women and work. Time for a new hobby.

 

[Don Pepot]

Thank you for the replies.

Last night, my girl from my street who eventually turned into a girl who always to want to have sex to me went to my apartment, we have sex. And i left her while sleeping then i met someone else.

I came back, and in told her in left her because she was sleeping like a log. Shes kinda mad, but we have rough sex in the morning before she goes to school with a smile in her eyes. Hahaha. Totally funny.

But seriously speaking, i am glad you replied guys. Youre all right. Maybe i should get out of the grind sometimes, and do something for myself without money involved. A hobby or a passion.. i shall seek those.

I focused on work and women so much i forget to seek things that can fullfill my soul.