OP you obfuscate the meaning of having high value. If a man has infinite value, for example, he no longer has value to take. His vessel is full. In such an instant, he can only give value and cannot take what he has no room for.
Your act was one of complete taking.
A high value guy can turn down sex not only with “complicated affairs” but can do the same with women with absolutely no baggage (no bf, no husband, no kid) <<read that again.
If I told you how many times I rejected sex from hot women on a first date, open solicitations, or even girls I knew simply because the act wasn’t going to serve them (and thus myself) over the LT. See ... when you have that much value, the act of “taking” from them belies your own value (of being a full vessel). It demonstrates I need that validation (from them) and thus am not full.
Has nothing to do mortality and everything to do with the value you truly hold.
Empty vessels seek validation (of self). Full vessels reject self-validation and only give. Not everyone is at any extreme at any given time, but when you commit an act of straight “stripping,” it demonstrates that you have been that empty vessel for some time.
You mentioned that you were cheated on in the past. There was a lesson there for you but You learned the wrong lesson my friend. You should feel sorry for “her,”—your cheating ex— for her need to be validated to such a degree to attempt to strip you of your dignity (and actually succeeding). Instead, you learned to be like her.
That’s the wrong lesson my friend.