From a 48-year-old proudly divorced and highly agnostic DJ:
If there is a god (unlikely in my opinion), he likely doesn't care if you stay married or get divorced. I imagine this supposed god has MUCH bigger fish to fry. Your concern to him is so minimal in the grand scheme of things.
I'm convinced that the majority of people at some point yearn for divorce, but it is actually easier to believe that their god, whom they've never seen or heard or touched, wants them to stay married. Marraige and the church's (required) endorsement is likely an excuse to avoid the fear of freedom. Most people want to be told how to live. It's easier that way.
But just in case: I assume you're "saved" so you can divorce her and just ask forgiveness. Per the Bible good deeds mean nothing compared to belief in the Christ. Even a serial killer gets forgiven as long as he believes that Jesus died for his sins. So even if a murderer or adulterer (i.e. King David) or outright manwh0re (i.e, King Solomon) can get away with it, I'm sure your god will give you a pass, for your fear of "a cosmic sin" pales in compares to those two knuckleheads (likely just mythological figures anyway).
BTW I have fvucked several known married women and I've yet to regret it or be struck down by lightning. I have no fear of hellfire because it simply doesn't exist in my mind (though I actually prefer the masses (especially in America) to naively believe in hell because otherwise I suspect there will be a LOT more mass shootings.
Once again, I would like to thank everyone for contributing. I appreciate all the responses.
I am considering them all. A quick update:
I got home from work the yesterday, and she followed me around like a puppy dog. I ****ed her and fingered her (something have never done in 10 years of marriage). Dread game and frame are vital to success, in my view. I believe that it is hard to re-establish frame with a woman when you have lost it. However, I wonder if this may not be the case
as much if she wants her man to have it? Or understands why you lost it? With a couple months of red pill reading and some dread game, things are starting to turn around. No lingerie yet, but Rome wasn't built in a day. Any yes, Spaz, she got some whacks on her ass despite her protests. We may be on the road to recovery here, but I do think it is too soon for a touchdown dance.
Epsi, I have to respond to your post. Yes, Christians believe that God forgives sins--divorce, murder, the whole bit. However, this forgiveness is based on a true repentance. As I understand the word "repentance", it means to "turn away from", rebuke, or flee. If I sin intentionally, "ask for forgiveness", but my heart is not impacted such that I cease the sinful conduct, I do not have a repentant heart, and I am not entitled to forgiveness. I would be living in sin or living in rebellion.
Your belief that God has bigger fish to fry then my dead bedroom or Joe Public's consumerism, or whatever is not important. Jesus was alive. That is a fact. If he was who he said he was then, he was an incarnation of God, and he is worthy of worship. If not, then he was bonkers. There is no middle ground. In my mind it is intellectually consistent to say there is no God if that person believes Jesus was not God. However, to say there is no God, because you don't believe that God would be concerned if I got married or divorced, or he has "bigger fish to fry" in the "grand scheme of things"
assumes a knowledge of God's nature that you cannot know and requires a high degree of faith in your own ability to discern what God would concern himself with.
Epsi, I hope you do not view my response here as being too antagonistic. Us Christians (I am a pastor's kid), are used to theological debates where we don't take it personal that someone sees the world differently. I appreciate that you were willing to share your ideas with me.
As other posters noted, Christianity, in a form not brutalized by culture, is red pill, but the leadership of Christianity has done a poor job of raising its men. I count myself as a casualty, and I am trying to repent.
Mr. 225