Anyone whos been with a BPD knows how difficult it can be to ignore a hoover. Just be thankful you arent one of those men who never learned what BPD's are and how they operate, and end up spending the rest of their life chasing their BPD ex cause they thought the love bombing was actually real. I witnessed them telling ex's they still love them to keep the supply and keep the man from dating. Then ghosting him for years at a time.
Only pure evil smiles while causing others massive amounts of emotional and mental pain. Who cares if she got her supply by getting you to show her you still care. Try your best to make it the last and final time you ever give in to her bs manipulation. As others have already said, it's never about you, its always about them.
I sent the BPD ex an email a couple months after the split that was like 3 pages of beta male bs. I was still in the fog but had just learned what BPD was She ended up texting me a couple days later saying how sorry she was and how she never meant to hurt me. I dont know where my strength came from but I ignored her, deleted the text and blocked her #. The amount of happiness I felt in myself from finally being able to ignore her was the 1st step of slowly healing myself. She tried to contact me again months later with a blocked # but it didn't faze me. It was always reminding myself of the phuked up things she did to me that made me never ever want to see or talk to her again.
It's truly scary how they haunt your mind for years or forever. Thats why guys like us try to tell others to not even sleep with one no matter how hot she is. Feels like the same way as an addict shooting up his 1st hit of heroin. Its like she's living my mind rent free and I cant evict her a$$. Someone mentioned it being like losing a limb in battle and accepting the fact you aint never getting that arm/leg back. They make the extra effort to be the girl you always wanted so no other women ever compares. Then you go chasing other women in hopes of feeling the way they made you feel only to realize it's never going to happen. Thats why so many men after the breakup end up isolating themselves from society, refuse to date or even turn guy.
I have a friend who is what you would call the betaist male with little to no experience with women, only had a couple gf at a young age. He ended up marrying one, she divorced him 4 years ago after a year of marriage (she remarried). For the past 4 years he rarely if ever leaves his house, will not talk to women, wont come out with us, still talks about her at times as if they are still together (scary weird), hair turned 50% grey, all our friends have no idea why. Im only the one out 20+ people in our circle that knows wtf hes going through. So in closing, also be thankful she never came to your crib. If she did and you ended up sleeping with her, it could have ended really badly for you. And the new memories both good and bad would have been imprinted in your mind that would hunt you even further.