Jesus. 7 years later.
how much I’ve changed since the despair of this.
Rejection is hard, taxing.
One night a few months on from this, I was vaping in bed. I looked at a profile, thought “well out of my league” and put the tablet down.
Said lady looked at mine. That’s it.
I led in bed and couldn’t sleep. I thought No, why shouldn’t I go for it. That’s loser talk, and I made the effort and she actually spoke back to me.
One date turned into 2, and here I am, married with a kid.
I often wonder how my life would have turned out if I never got the courage. Or if I just fell asleep. This little pot of joy of a daughter wouldn’t be sat next to me, and all over a little mindset switch 7 years ago.
Just goes to show. Negative inner talk will derail and destroy you.
Embarrassed by how negative I was. Here’s to grabbing the day, every day, forever