Zero_to_hero
Don Juan
- Joined
- Oct 21, 2017
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- 30
I ****ed up. Just want to share my nights experience with someone, and there is no way in hell I am telling about this any of my friends.
I am a busy guy (broke University student as well). With my schedule, most effective way for me to get girls is trough Tinder. The goal is to get smoother with girls, so I try strive to get 1 date a week minimum. I had been hitting a dry spill lately. Had like 7 dates in last 5 weeks, and the furthest I got was sucked on this cute girls nipples last week. Tried to have sex with her, but didn't pull it off. These last weeks it has frustrated me and stress from being broke, juggling job and attending school has made me go a bit insane this last week.
To put into the perspective, this is how my yesterday looked like.
8am to 2pm - school
2pm to 4pm - studying for the upcomming math exam
4pm to 9pm - work (my work also has e certain stress level)
9pm to 9am - all nighter, spend studying for exam. When my head started spinning, I would take a little brake, answering girls on Tinder and jaking off.
So during the night, I didn't sleep, studied hard, arranged a date fallowing night (this night) and wanked off 6 times.
With no sleep, went to the exam -> failed it spectacularly -> slept 1h in my car -> went to work -> got home and took a shower -> slept 1h -> jacked off 2 times within 1hour and then got ready and went to the date I had scheduled.
I mention how many times I wack off, because this is quite unussual for me. Usually it is 2 times between 3 days or so.
While arranging the date, I messaged girls that I would not message usually, thinking I would rather lower my standards in order to at least get laid, that I have not done for a while. BIG MISTAKE. So I arranged a date with a girl, that based on her profile picture I would give her 6-. I meet her - short, fat somewhat cute face. I would give her looks 3. Tought to my self - I will make the most out of this situation - at least will sharpen my seduction skills.
Our date started 12pm, i bought coffee, and the date went on by us cruising around the city, drinking coffee and having conversation. After 40 minutes of driving, I pulled up in remote location, stalled the car and we kept talking. Another 30 minutes later I thought, I should end the date. She had somewhat cute face, so I decided to give her a smooth kiss and drive her home. Kiss more for me polishing my skill rather than ejoying the act. She really liked it, got turned on and climbed ontop of me. I remember thinkng to my self:" Really!?!?! Are you gonna bang her?", but I was hard at that point and let my **** do the thinking. Ended up having sex with her and drove her off to home afterwards.
I had 20 minute drive back to my place. The longer I drowe, more and more came feeling of discuss over me. When I replayed in my head the act, it made more and more sick. I even growled out loud in disgust few times. I noticed, that her perfume has rubbed all over me, and my hands still carry her scent - I started to feel really dirty. Got home, took a shower ASAP. Still feel disgusted with myself. I sort of feel, I might have raped myself with her (i know - sounds obnoxious).
This has gotten me thinking - probably this is how women feel, if you come on too strong. Even if you manage to have sex with them, they can still start feeling like this afterwards. That would explain why sometimes they ghost you after a date, that ends with a kiss or sex, even tho, You, yourself, think the date went awesome.
I have always had a trouble finding the line between being dominant and coming on too strong. I think this experience will help me to imagine myself in womens shoes a bit better, thus improving my game.
Also, I will NEVER start a flirty conversation with a girl, that I do not find ****able ever again, because that might lead to ****ty situations like this.
I am sorry you had to read all of this - just wanted to share.
I am a busy guy (broke University student as well). With my schedule, most effective way for me to get girls is trough Tinder. The goal is to get smoother with girls, so I try strive to get 1 date a week minimum. I had been hitting a dry spill lately. Had like 7 dates in last 5 weeks, and the furthest I got was sucked on this cute girls nipples last week. Tried to have sex with her, but didn't pull it off. These last weeks it has frustrated me and stress from being broke, juggling job and attending school has made me go a bit insane this last week.
To put into the perspective, this is how my yesterday looked like.
8am to 2pm - school
2pm to 4pm - studying for the upcomming math exam
4pm to 9pm - work (my work also has e certain stress level)
9pm to 9am - all nighter, spend studying for exam. When my head started spinning, I would take a little brake, answering girls on Tinder and jaking off.
So during the night, I didn't sleep, studied hard, arranged a date fallowing night (this night) and wanked off 6 times.
With no sleep, went to the exam -> failed it spectacularly -> slept 1h in my car -> went to work -> got home and took a shower -> slept 1h -> jacked off 2 times within 1hour and then got ready and went to the date I had scheduled.
I mention how many times I wack off, because this is quite unussual for me. Usually it is 2 times between 3 days or so.
While arranging the date, I messaged girls that I would not message usually, thinking I would rather lower my standards in order to at least get laid, that I have not done for a while. BIG MISTAKE. So I arranged a date with a girl, that based on her profile picture I would give her 6-. I meet her - short, fat somewhat cute face. I would give her looks 3. Tought to my self - I will make the most out of this situation - at least will sharpen my seduction skills.
Our date started 12pm, i bought coffee, and the date went on by us cruising around the city, drinking coffee and having conversation. After 40 minutes of driving, I pulled up in remote location, stalled the car and we kept talking. Another 30 minutes later I thought, I should end the date. She had somewhat cute face, so I decided to give her a smooth kiss and drive her home. Kiss more for me polishing my skill rather than ejoying the act. She really liked it, got turned on and climbed ontop of me. I remember thinkng to my self:" Really!?!?! Are you gonna bang her?", but I was hard at that point and let my **** do the thinking. Ended up having sex with her and drove her off to home afterwards.
I had 20 minute drive back to my place. The longer I drowe, more and more came feeling of discuss over me. When I replayed in my head the act, it made more and more sick. I even growled out loud in disgust few times. I noticed, that her perfume has rubbed all over me, and my hands still carry her scent - I started to feel really dirty. Got home, took a shower ASAP. Still feel disgusted with myself. I sort of feel, I might have raped myself with her (i know - sounds obnoxious).
This has gotten me thinking - probably this is how women feel, if you come on too strong. Even if you manage to have sex with them, they can still start feeling like this afterwards. That would explain why sometimes they ghost you after a date, that ends with a kiss or sex, even tho, You, yourself, think the date went awesome.
I have always had a trouble finding the line between being dominant and coming on too strong. I think this experience will help me to imagine myself in womens shoes a bit better, thus improving my game.
Also, I will NEVER start a flirty conversation with a girl, that I do not find ****able ever again, because that might lead to ****ty situations like this.
I am sorry you had to read all of this - just wanted to share.